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As dark as death as I hurtle to the lake’s floor. I’d been foolish to think my descent would be gentle—a slow, inexorable drop akin to drifting off into permanent sleep. In truth, it’s chaos. I twist through the black water, the anchor still hugged to my chest. Within seconds I hit bottom, the centuries of sediment collected there doing nothing to lessen the impact.
I land on my side in an eruption of silt, and the anchor jolts from my arms. I grasp for it, blind in the dark, dirty depths as my body starts to rise. Already, it wants air, and I have to fight to keep my arms from flailing, my legs from kicking.
They try anyway.
Rather, Len tries.
His presence is like a fever, both chilly and hot, coursing through my limbs, moving them against my will. I spin in the darkness, not knowing if I’m floating up or sinking down. Still blind and fumbling, my hand finds the rope stretching between my ankle and the anchor.
I grab on to it even as Len tries to pry my fingers away, his seething voice loud in my head.
Let go, Cee.
Don’t make me stay down here, you fucking bitch.
I keep hold of the rope, using it to pull myself back toward the lake bed. When I reach the end of the rope, I grab the anchor, hoist it to my chest, and roll onto my back. It feels inevitable now that I’m here.
It feels right.
In the same place where Megan Keene, Toni Burnett, and Sue Ellen Stryker were laid to rest.
My limbs have turned numb, although I don’t know if it’s from fear or cold or Len taking over. He remains so desperate to get to the surface. My body jerks uncontrollably against the lake floor. All his doing.
But it’s no use.
This time I’m stronger.
Because I’m giving Len exactly what he wanted back when he was alive.
It’ll be just the two of us.
Staying here forever.
It isn’t long before Len gives up. He has to, now that this body we share is winding down. My heartbeat slows. My thoughts fade.
Then, when every bit of strength has left me, I open my mouth and let the dark water pour in.
Movement.
In the darkness.
I sense it on the distant edge of my consciousness. Two bits of motion going in separate directions. Something approaching while something else slithers away.
The motion that’s stayed has moved to my ankle, the touch feathery as it unwinds the rope knotted there.
Then I’m lifted.
Up, up, up.
Soon I’m breaking the surface and my lungs start working overtime, somehow doing two things at once. Hacking out water while gulping down air. It goes on like this. Out, in, out, in. When it’s over, there’s no more water, only sweet, blessed air.
I feel more movement now. Something being slipped over my shoulders and tightened around my chest until I’m floating.
I open my eyes to a sky that’s dazzlingly pink.
Myeyes.
Not his.