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1. Charlie :

(Kissing with tongues: To be, or not to be?)

Violet Brooks was officially late.

I’d already been warned by her brother that she would be, which is why I’d arrived a quarter of an hour after the time I’d given her, but that was forty-five minutes ago.

I checked my watch again; it didn’t make the hands move any quicker. Neither had drumming my fingers against the table, or tapping my foot, or glancing at the door every two seconds. I’d have left if I wasn’t so desperate for her help.

The condensation slid down the outside of my glass of soda water. Even though it was freezing outside, and snow was beginning to fall thickly, the fire I was sitting beside made the Blue Oar seem positively tropical. It was also quieter in here than usual seeing as it was technically still the Christmas holidays, but by the weekend the place would once again be heaving with students gearing up for the new term.

I glanced out of the windows, where there was still no sign of Violet. I’d already read through one of the daily newspapers left on the bar, so I picked my phone up and typed out some formulas I’d been thinking about for my physics paper – may as well not completely waste my time sitting here.

I was deep in thought about all possible solutions of F = -kX , when a flurry of white snowflakes whooshed through the air as the doors flung open. The Christmas decorations, yet to be taken down from the ceiling, blew around, barely hanging on by their single silvery threads. The air cleared to reveal a girl standing on the threshold of the pub, and the doors slammed shut behind her. Her bright blue eyes scanned around, widening as they landed on me.

‘Chazzle!’

The fluffy emerald-green coat, which a poor Muppet had been skinned for, had already been shucked off her shoulders by the time she arrived at the table.

The scarf came next: metres and metres of multicoloured cashmere that looked more like a blanket big enough to keep a family of five warm. I stood as she yanked off her large, navy knitted hat with a giant pink bobble on the end of it and dropped into the chair opposite.

‘Sorry, sorry, overslept.’

Overslept?

I certainly wasn’t a fan of early mornings, but it was two in the afternoon.

‘God, it’s bloody boiling in here,’ Violet exclaimed, and proceeded to remove another layer of clothing, this time a black polo neck to reveal a tight white vest, and I briefly wondered if maybe she’d been wearing it in bed, and thrown on the nearest items of clothing she could find before running here. I pushed that thought away only for her tits to squash together as her arms crossed and she pulled the neck of the jumper over her head, finally freeing herself from the confines of cashmere.

I forced myself to focus on a spot over her left shoulder until she stopped wriggling about. Staring at a girl’s breasts was a big no-no, staring at my best friend’s sister’s tits currently snuggled into a green lace bra was absolutely forbidden under any circumstance.

Long caramel-blonde curls, the colour of my golden retriever, Magic, tumbled over her shoulders. Except the bottom inch looked like it had been dipped in purple paint – violet paint – contrasting with the deep azure of her eyes, ringed in navy, and the rosy flush of her cheeks.

Finally, she sat back and looked up at me, the whirlwind she’d walked in with calmed, but in less than a second she sprang up from her chair.

‘Sorry, I didn’t hug you hello.’

I was still yet to say a word and found myself pulled into a hot embrace as she pressed hard against me. She was raised on her tiptoes as her arms wrapped around my neck, but still managed to reach my six-feet-four height without too much effort. Her lips brushed against my cheek and the scent of dark violets and woody amber invaded my nasal passages, making my chest tighten.

‘Well, Chazzle, long time no see.’ She grinned, picking up my pint of sparkling water and taking a massive gulp. ‘Can’t wait to hear what you summoned me for. Huey wouldn’t tell me. Have you been working out, you look bigger? How’s training?’

I blinked, staring as I tried to make sense of the staccato firing of words, before a broad grin spread across my face.

‘Violet?’

‘Yes,’ she finally paused her ramble.

‘Would you like a drink?’

‘Yes, please,’ she replied, picking up mine again and downing the rest. ‘Maybe something a little more alcoholic than water this time.’

I walked over to the bar, ordering a glass of Pinot Noir for her and a pint for me. I had planned to cut alcohol out until after the Boat Race, but in hindsight this conversation would probably need it. While I waited to pay, my eyes found themselves wandering over in her direction.

The last time I saw Violet Brooks she’d been a gangly seventeen-year-old. It was the summer after our first year had ended – Brooks, Oz and I had been at Brooks’ parents’ house in Somerset, where we all chilled out after the Henley Regatta, sleeping, swimming and eating for a week before we’d left for Greece with Oz.

Violet had finished her A-levels and was packing for a year abroad – she’d been a tornado spinning through the rooms, leaving chaos in her wake. That week I must have met a dozen of Violet’s friends, all exactly the same as her, parading through the always open front door at the Brooks’ house. Unlike her brother, who kept a tight circle of friends, Violet seemed to allow anyone entry into her world. The more the merrier.

Now, sat here, her long legs were crossed underneath her, and I peered down at her shoes – Nike high-tops. At six feet four, it was unusual to meet a girl where a hug didn’t result in neck strain from them clinging onto me, but Violet had clearly inherited the Brooks’ family height.

It had been eighteen months and she’d both completely changed and hardly changed at all. The chaos was still there, but the softness in her features had hardened a little, turning her from teenager to woman, and nothing short of stunning.

Tapping my bank card, I walked back to the table and placed the drinks on it before settling into my seat.

Violet’s eyes reminded me of a twilight sky as she spied the wine, ‘Mmm, thank you.’

‘You’re welcome.’

‘So,’ she sipped, put her glass down and leaned back in her chair. I forced my gaze straight ahead instead of at her chest where her arms were now crossed, ‘what’s the emergency?’

Ah, yes, the reason we were here and the reason I’d sent Violet not one but four messages, and another two to Brooks begging him to get her to reply.

‘Didn’t Brooks tell you anything?’

She shook her head. ‘No, Hugo is incredibly annoying that way.’

I sighed.

I’d kind of hoped he would have done, then I’d have to explain as little as possible because Violet just got it and would agree to my request without further need for clarification. It would also save me from reliving the worst moment of my life; the day my heart had shattered so violently it couldn’t be mended or glued back together.

It had imploded into dust.

The day I vowed never to love again.

‘You haven’t been over to the house,’ I started, hoping a little small talk would ease the anxiety ball in the pit of my stomach, the way it did whenever I thought about Evie Waters.

Violet leaned forward, the movement forcing a thick lock of hair to fall over her eye which she pushed away. Her slender wrists rested on the table and I noticed a tiny, hand-drawn stack of books on the inside of her left arm, directly above her pulse.

‘I have, only you’ve not been there. It was very handy that the three of you were on river duty every Saturday morning. Huey’s bath is wasted on him,’ she smirked.

The pint glass stopped halfway to my lips, and I put it back down. ‘Have you been breaking into our house when we’re not there so you can have a bath?’

‘No, of course not.’ Violet shook her head. ‘I have a key.’

I stared at her, my frown deepening. I knew that Oz would never have given anyone a key to the house we shared with Brooks, just like I knew that Brooks would never have given his sister a key without asking us.

I was also struggling to understand how the comprehensive security system I’d set up hadn’t been triggered, because there was a hidden camera angled on the front door and it was supposed to alert us of anyone who approached. Not to mention the alarm we set every time we left, along with motion sensors in the garden.

Was it overkill for three students? Probably, even if one was Oz with his billions. But I’d been bored, and it had only taken me a couple of hours on a Tuesday morning after we’d moved in and finished unpacking. Master of security systems was another skill to stick on my resumé. Or maybe not, it seemed.

‘But how did you get the key?’

‘I borrowed Huey’s,’ she shrugged, ‘and copied it.’

I barked out a loud laugh. I wasn’t sure what I was laughing at more, the look on Brooks’ face when he discovered his sister had stolen his house key, or the idea of Violet having a bath in our house every Saturday when we were in London … no … nope … absolutely not … my brain ground to a halt for the second time … the image of Violet naked and wet in our house was not something that belonged in my head.

‘You could just ask.’

‘Where’s the fun in that?’ she winked. ‘It wouldn’t annoy Huey nearly as much. I don’t have a bath in my room, not sure where I’ll get my relaxing soak in the tub this term now you three have finished your punishments.’

‘Which college are you in?’

‘St Anne’s.’ She picked up her wine and sipped, the burgundy liquid matching the glossy paint on her fingernails. ‘Come on, Charlie. Don’t keep a girl waiting, why have I been summoned?’

I drummed my fingers against my pint glass again. Thinking about it, maybe I was being stupid. Overreacting. I could handle seeing my ex-girlfriend, I was a grown man and it had been four years, give or take. But then I remembered the anger ripping through me when I found out she’d been assigned to my philosophy tutorials, and decided otherwise.

‘I need you to be my fake girlfriend until the end of term.’ I managed not to stumble over my words, even though I spat them out as quickly as possible.

Violet held my stare. To her credit she didn’t flinch, nor did she burst out laughing; the only indication she’d heard me was the tiny crease in the centre of her forehead. She stared until it dawned on me that she wanted further explanation.

‘My ex-girlfriend is joining my philosophy class, and I don’t want her to think I’m interested in her again.’

Out loud, to someone who didn’t know the history of Evie Waters, this plan sounded rather stupid. I couldn’t blame Violet when the tiny crease on her forehead deepened.

‘Why can’t you just tell her you’re not? And why do you assume that she’s interested in you?’

Both very good and valid questions. If only the answer was as simple. The answer was more than I cared to admit, because Evie had been the love of my life – my first love – and I knew it wouldn’t take long for her to wrap me around her little finger again. She would pull me back. It happened once before, I wouldn’t let it happen again.

She was the drug of choice for my addict heart.

She was equally as toxic.

‘Evie and I were together during sixth form. She cheated on me, and we broke up. When I started at Oxford, she was here too and we briefly got back together, but then she met someone else.’ My fist clenched ever so tightly causing cramp to shoot along my arm. ‘I’ve managed to avoid her for three years, but for some reason she always seems to think she can get me back. And this term she’s joining my philosophy class. I figured if she knew I had a girlfriend then she wouldn’t talk to me.’

There, that was enough explanation without revealing the sheer panic I felt at the thought of being in the same room as Evie again. I might be strong enough to bench press 180kg, but I was no match for Evie Waters, no matter how hard I tried.

I’d never told anyone the reason I changed my number in first year was because she wouldn’t stop texting me.

Violet sat back, pulling the stem of her glass to the edge of the table, and shifted it side to side between her fingers as she looked at me.

‘Charlie, do you want to make her jealous?’

I shook my head so hard my neck cracked. ‘No.’

‘You don’t want her back?’

‘Fuck, no. Never.’

‘So you want me to be your bodyguard,’ Violet began, a smirk cresting the corner of her plump lips, ‘I’m Kevin Costner and you’re my Whitney Houston?’

I wasn’t sure how I felt about being called someone’s Whitney Houston, but I shrugged anyway.

‘Why can’t you say no to her?’

‘Because …’ I sighed again, almost pathetically, ‘because she has this way of making me do what she wants. It’s like I’m under her spell, against my will.’

Violet’s head tilted slightly, I couldn’t tell if she was curious or pitying me. Either way, the silence stretched on far longer than I was comfortable with, made worse by the thoughts I imagined were playing out in her head.

I could probably guess.

‘Violet, I’ll pay you. Name your price.’

She grinned wide, her smile lighting up her face. The heat of the fire had deepened the flush in her cheeks, and the reflection of the flames danced in her eyes.

‘I’m not going to take your money, silly. I’ll do it for free. It’ll be the perfect experience for Twelfth Night . I’m hoping to get the lead. Auditions are next week.’

‘Oh,’ I replied, wondering why her response felt so anti-climactic, and what Twelfth Night had to do with anything. ‘What were you thinking about then?’

‘What a girlfriend of yours would look like. I need to fit the part.’

I laughed, and the ball of anxiety stopped bouncing. ‘I think you fit just as you are.’

‘We’ll see, I like to throw myself all in.’

‘Are you studying drama?’ I asked, realizing I didn’t know.

‘English. But I joined the Dramatic Society, and my friend Cecily is directing Twelfth Night at the Oxford Playhouse in May.’ Her eyes widened, dramatically . ‘And you’re studying philosophy? Do you like Nietzsche?’

‘I’m studying physics, actually. But I have physics and philosophy this term.’

‘Oh, what’s that?’

‘We try to answer the complexities of the universe.’

‘Good luck with that.’

‘Thank you.’ I grinned back, picking up my pint.

‘How are we going to do this then?’ She waved her hand between the two of us.

I scratched along my jaw. I’d been so fixated on having Violet be my fake girlfriend that I hadn’t actually taken any time to consider how she’d be my fake girlfriend.

‘Um … well, I guess you’ll have to meet me after class.’

‘Yes, obviously. And …?’

‘And what?’

‘What else?’

‘What do you mean?’

‘Charlie, if we’re in a relationship, it’s going to consist of more than me meeting you after class. What about hand-holding? Kissing? Touching? If we’re going to do it, we have to do it properly.’

I coughed up the air which stuck in my throat. ‘Kissing?’

Violet leaned forward, her fingers laced together and propped under her chin. ‘Yes, Charlie, kissing. You need to be convincing. We’re not courting in a Jane Austen novel.’

Shit.

None of this had occurred to me. Kissing or touching of any kind. I assumed that Evie would see us together and that would be enough. Maybe I needed to think this through more. I’d assured Brooks that nothing would happen between Violet and me, yet kissing didn’t quite fall into that category. Maybe I could stipulate I meant no tongues.

No tongues would be acceptable. I hoped.

‘Okay,’ Violet slapped her palms on the table and pushed herself to standing, ‘while you think on that, I’m going to the loo.’

The entire time we’d been talking, the Blue Oar’s navy doors had been opening every couple of minutes as new patrons came in from the cold. Every time a small gust of wind had blown past causing the flames to crackle and spit in annoyance. I’d stopped getting distracted by it after Violet had sat down and I’d been sucked into her orbit.

I was still thinking about how I’d explain kissing her to Brooks when another burst of air flurried past me. The temperature dropped immediately, much more than any other gust before it.

I glanced at the offender. My heart stopped dead. My stomach curled in on itself.

Offender was too kind a word.

Evie Waters.

If I didn’t know better, I’d swear she had a tracker on me. But I secured my phone enough to know that wasn’t possible. She had always had a sixth sense for where I was going to be.

Like a bad smell following me wherever I went.

No, it was worse than that. It was like being summoned by a demon.

She’d once been the most beautiful girl I’d ever met. She still was.

Aside from a handful of times when I’d seen her outside my tutorials or walking my way in the library, and done a swift about-turn and sprinted through the stacks, I hadn’t seen her in 562 days. But nothing had changed.

Her hair was so dark and shiny I’d once joked I could see my reflection in it. Straighter than an arrow, falling in a sharp line to her even sharper jaw, there was not a hair out of place. Even the snow falling outside didn’t appear to have touched her.

I wish I didn’t know she woke up like that, each strand falling perfectly where it was supposed to be, like it daren’t do otherwise. Or the way her cheeks were always the same shade of pink as her lips, her ice blue eyes as cold as her heart and her eyelashes as black and thick as her soul. There had been a time when she’d only have to bat them at me and I’d fall over myself to do her bidding.

The thing I hated most of all, though, was the way my heart was now thumping and my dick twitching. Like neither of them remembered what she’d done. Or maybe my dick did, and that’s why he suddenly wanted to give her his full attention. Even worse, the way she knew what was happening because the second her eyes landed on mine, I knew she was in here looking for me, and from the slow, sly curve of her lip she knew I knew.

I’d all but forgotten exactly why I was in the Blue Oar on a snowy Wednesday afternoon in January until a large unidentified lump collapsed into my lap. Unless it was the asteroid I’d just been praying for.

Except asteroids didn’t kiss.

The taste of the Pinot I’d bought Violet was still fresh on her tongue as it slowly slid against mine, licking me with as much heat as the flames next to us. I was so shocked I did nothing to stop it. What’s more, I didn’t want to stop it, especially when she moaned softly because then all I could think about was how perfectly her arse fitted into my lap, and how I liked the way her fingers were pushing into my hair. My dick definitely liked it.

‘Come on, babe. I’ve had enough of being out of bed, let’s go back,’ she whispered against my lips, and my brain short-circuited.

The diamond-bright twinkle in her eyes didn’t explain what had just happened, but I found my fingers were twisting around the violet ends of her hair nonetheless, as her lips fell onto mine again.

I was beginning to question my sanity and my memory when a small, deliberate cough to my left reminded me exactly what was happening and why.

Violet’s body twisted in my lap as she peered up at our intruder. ‘Can I help you?’

Evie replied with a smile that didn’t stretch to her eyes, ‘No, you can’t. I saw Charlie and came to say hello, I’m an old friend.’

Violet turned to me, a genuine smile beaming across her face, in total contrast to the mask my face had frozen into. I couldn’t find the words to explain what was happening, I didn’t know why Violet was smiling. Maybe she didn’t realize she was in the presence of evil. But then her head turned back to Evie.

‘Are you sure? He doesn’t seem to know you .’

Evie ignored Violet, her eyes boring into me like lasers. ‘Charlie?’

Violet looked at me again trying to ascertain whether I was in fact going to say hello – I wasn’t – then flicked back to Evie. ‘Strange, I’ve known Charlie a very long time, and I’ve never heard of you.’

But Evie wasn’t paying the slightest bit of attention to anything Violet said. ‘Charlie … are you really going to ignore me?’

Violet shifted on my lap, and I felt her draw in a breath.

‘It would seem that way, wouldn’t it? Old friend or not, you should try and frown less, it won’t help that line you have right there.’ She reached out and prodded Evie’s impeccably smooth forehead. ‘I can recommend some good cream if you’d like,’ Violet continued sweetly, ‘but you probably need to get Botox on that before it gets worse.’

My eyes widened so much they burned. For the first time ever, Evie Waters was speechless.

Violet eased off my lap, and the air cooled along my thighs giving me some respite from her body. I was still in too much of a state of shock to find it amusing at how she towered over Evie. In the same haphazard manner as she removed them, Violet pulled on her jumper, hat, and scarf. It was the Muppet green coat contrasting with Evie’s signature black which jolted me back to myself as I stood, only too happy to follow Violet’s lead.

I picked up my pint and drained it, addressing Evie for the first time in over two years. ‘Would you like our table? We’re going home now.’

My fingers laced with Violet’s as we walked out of the pub, leaving Evie in exactly the same spot. The bitter adrenaline coursing through my veins was soon replaced by a level of satisfaction I’d never felt before.

‘Fuck.’ It was the only word I could manage. It didn’t even occur to me to ask how Violet knew who Evie was.

‘I think I totally nailed the role of your girlfriend, even if I do say so myself,’ Violet giggled as we walked into the cold and the doors shut behind us, putting a much-needed barrier between Evie and me. She pushed her hand in the pocket of my jeans like it belonged there, and looked at me, ‘Come on, you can walk me back to St Anne’s, but you need to put your arm around me. We have to make everyone believe this if you want her to.’

I did as instructed; walking side by side with Violet whose head was now resting on my shoulder. I hadn’t been entirely sure using her as my girlfriend would convince anyone, let alone Evie, but all my doubts had been melted away by her award-winning acting skills.

This would work perfectly.

Now I just needed to figure out how to tell Brooks I’d been making out with his sister. With tongues.