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Bailey

I was quiet on the car ride home as my mind replayed Devin’s not-so-subtle suggestion that I reconsider my decision about ending things with Titan. My quiet brooding was interrupted by Anthony purposely clearing his throat to get my attention and I rolled my eyes while I looked out the window.

“Something on your mind brother?” I asked sarcastically.

“Well now that you asked…yes there is something on my mind. I didn’t get to say it before we left your house, but I think you should work it out with Titan.”

My head whipped around so fast to look at Anthony, that I heard my neck pop. I couldn’t believe this shit, was every nigga on Titan’s side? Before I could speak Anthony put his hand up to stop me.

“Hear me out. You know how I was before I met Kayleigh.” He cleared his throat again but this time I knew it was from emotion.

I grabbed his hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze, he rarely spoke his wife’s name because of the pain it caused him, when he squeezed my hand back he continued.

“She was so pure that a piece of me felt like I didn’t deserve her because she was too good for me.

The minute I saw her, I knew she was my wife, and I never felt that way before.

My feelings were so strong for her that it scared the shit out of me because I knew she would have the power to break me.

” He was quiet for a moment before he continued.

“What I’m trying to say is, women have so much power B, and when a man meets the right woman, we feel like Kings just like women feel like Queens when they meet the right man.

They start to naturally transform into a softer version of themselves.

I know you’re Ms. Independent because I raised you to be that way.

” I rolled my eyes, because he really thought he was my daddy.

“But you’ve changed since being with Titan.

I’ve noticed that you’ve been softer and daintier, even with the little shit.

I raised you not to be afraid of bugs, then I was over your house with the girls last week and you almost gave me a heart attack because you screamed when you saw a spider. ” We both laughed at the memory.

“You smile more, you don’t reach for the check first when you, me, and Tae go out to eat.

We used to threaten you to let us pay. You wait for doors to be opened, shit when was the last time you threw on a wig just to go to the store because you’re self-conscious about your natural hair?

” I racked my brain trying to remember and came up blank.

“Titan has brought out a softer side of you because he makes you feel safe enough to let your guard down, and I love that for you. But don’t get me wrong.

I do want to beat his ass because I made it clear when I met him that whatever he does to hurt you, I do to him.

I also agree with you about him needing to get his mental together about his ex-wife.

But before you walked out, did you ask him why she was at his office the day he passed out?

I’m sure he didn’t invite her. All I’m saying is think about you two and ask yourself would you want him to leave you if something from your past reared its ugly head?

” My eyes widened at his question because I immediately thought about the night I told him about Angel.

He was now in front of my building and after he parked he gave our joined hands a quick kiss before he got out to help me out of the car.

After Anthony helped me get settled at home he told me he would call later and left with his leftovers from earlier.

I was now lying in bed thinking about what Devin and my brother said.

Maybe I was a little too quick to run away when the going got tough.

When I opened up about what happened to me with Angel, he was right there to comfort me, he even wanted to beat Angel’s ass and after knowing my sexual trauma he never treated me or looked at me differently.

I understood why Eva got under his skin because what she did was fucking foul, but I never expected him to get so mad that he threw what had to be a fifty-pound flower arrangement like it was a football.

Then punch the wall so hard that it tore the skin on his knuckles.

His anger scared the fuck out of me but as soon as he saw that I was hurt he immediately snapped out of it and tried to comfort me.

My head and heart were in conflict with each other.

It was too much to think about right now. Hopefully my mind will be clearer in the morning. I loved Titan but his rage tonight showed me another side of him, and I didn’t know if I wanted to be around to see it happen again.