It gnaws at your insides, steals your breath and leaves you with nothing but silence. That’s why I left. I needed space. Needed time to breathe. To figure out how to survive the pain.
But the loneliness has a way of finding me— dragging old memories back into the light. My thoughts becoming too heavy to bear. So I did what I always do when the guilt gets too loud. I went in search of a distraction, something to numb the ache.
Instead… I found my past.
The source of my pain standing right in front of me. Dancing...
Regret is a brutal companion.
It gnaws at your insides, steals your breath and leaves you with nothing but silence. That’s why I left. I needed space. Needed time to breathe. To figure out how to survive the pain.
But the loneliness has a way of finding me— dragging old memories back into the light. My thoughts becoming too heavy to bear. So I did what I always do when the guilt gets too loud. I went in search of a distraction, something to numb the ache.
Instead… I found my past.
The source of my pain standing right in front of me. Dancing up on the stage. Moving like sin. Seducing every man in the room.
She’s not supposed to be here. She’s supposed to be off chasing her dreams, making something of herself. Not stripping her dignity away for tips. That ever-pressing feeling creeps in, and jealousy consumes my thoughts.
She’s mine.
No one is allowed to look. No one is allowed to touch. Whether she wants me to or not, I’m going to keep her safe. I’m going to take care of her.
But… hatred protects her heart. An armor so thick it’s impenetrable.
I don’t know how to get past her walls. Don’t know how to get her to let me in. All I know is that I’m done living without her. I won’t go back to the loneliness. I won’t go back to the pain.
