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Chapter 11

Date Faking

Jemma

“T hat’s the way! Take it out on the canvas.”

My voice was almost sickeningly upbeat as I rubbed Ellie’s back. She flicked the paintbrush again, sending a violent splatter of red across the canvas.

Ellie, her mouth tight and her face far too pale, flicked again and again and again. Blotches of black and red and orange slowly filled the giant canvas. She stopped, reaching under her palm print turban to scratch at her scalp.

I swallowed heavily. She was doing it to surreptitiously wipe away the tears gathering in the corners of her eyes.

I hated when they got bad news. But at least I could help her get those angry, hurting, scared feelings out.

Faith and Harper were using their canvases in more traditional ways. Faith was painting something vaguely pop-art, with loads of pink.

“I’m loving the colours, Faith, that’s quite the aesthetic!”

“It slays!” Faith informed me with an utterly straight face. She added a splotch of some teal, the tip of her little tongue poking out of the corner of her mouth. “This is gonna look so good in my bedroom … when I finally get out of here.”

I blinked furiously, turning to Harper in the hopes that I could pull myself together before either Ellie or Faith noticed me falling apart. These girls needed me to be strong for them.

Harper’s piece—a sunrise with an angel rising into the sky, the sunlight bouncing off his feathers—was utterly beautiful. She had a fine future ahead of her as an artist if that was what she wanted to do. If she made it to adulthood …

I patted her on the shoulder, trying to focus on something positive. “The way you’ve blended those colours is next level, Harper, and the detail on those wings is sublime.”

Harper beamed at me, adding some more white to the very tips of the wings. “I dreamed about an angel watching over Ellie, making sure she gets through this next round of chemo without feeling too sick. This is him.” She tilted her head to the side, dabbing another blob of white. “I think I’m going to call him Simeon.”

My heart was one tiny crack away from breaking for the three of them today.

I wrinkled my nose to hold the tears in. “Simeon … that’s an interesting choice.”

Harper shrugged. “I like it. And it’s from the bible, so?—”

The door burst open, and in bustled Sally, one of the regular nurses, sporting a grin that somehow gave me chills.

“Jemma, I’ve got such a surprise for you!” She could barely get the words out, she was giggling so hard. Her round cheeks were flushed a hectic pink. If she stood next to Faith’s ‘slay’ artwork, she’d blend right in.

“Uh … you do?” I asked as all the girls turned, curiosity getting the better of them, too.

“How you’ve kept him a secret, I’ll never know! If he was mine, I’d be telling every stranger in the street!”

Realisation hit me like a truck, and my stomach lurched, sinking lower as a tall, broad shadow appeared in the doorway. An all too familiar tall, broad shadow.

“Hello, Mouse,” Satan Junior smirked, his hands in his pockets, his eyes twinkling with devious delight. A visitor sticker was emblazoned across his chest.

“Mouse! He has a nickname for you!” Sally gushed, the rest of her face joining her hot pink cheeks.

Ooooh, I hated him! And I cursed myself for not being more on my guard today. I should have known, as soon as he’d shown an interest in my hospital visits, that he’d turn up to make my life miserable!

But before I could gather enough wits to come up with something cutting to say to him, he took three long strides across the room (damn him for being so bloody tall) and swept me up by the waist, lifting me off my feet and against his chest.

My nose grazed his collarbone, and I caught that hint of woodsmoke and spices again. His fingers somehow found the skin between my blouse and my jeans. They were hot, like points of fire searing through the layers of me.

I squeaked.

“There she is,” he murmured. When I tensed against him, he added, “Don’t make a scene. You haven’t forgotten what is on the line, have you?”

“What are you doing here?” I demanded in a whisper, lifting my head so I could give him what I hoped was a surreptitious glare—one that wouldn’t count as ‘making a scene’, but would still let him know exactly what I thought of him, the evil bastard.

“Visiting my girlfriend ,” he replied, his lips curling sinfully. His muscles rippled against my stomach. I bit the inside of my cheek until I tasted blood, because … what the actual Hell?

“It seems you really did catch her off guard, Simeon!” Sally crowed.

My mouth fell open.

Simeon … Simeon ?!

As if I weighed nothing, he balanced me against his chest with one strong arm, freeing one hand to reach up, pressing a finger to my chin and closing my mouth. His eyes practically glowed with malevolence.

“Play along,” he commanded in a low voice meant just for me. I shivered involuntarily, and he chuckled. His lips were very close to me, and they were so full … I wanted to bite his bottom one. Not in a sexy way … in a violent, make him bleed sort of way. But he probably liked pain … and did devils even have blood?

I knew so little about him.

Harper squealed, breaking through my violent thoughts, “Oh, his name is Simeon! Jemma, why didn’t you tell me I was naming my angel after your boyfriend?”

And then Faith burst out with, “Why did we not even know you had a boyfriend, Jemma?”

And Ellie added, “I can’t believe you kept him a secret!”

“It’s new,” ‘Simeon’ said, lifting his head and grinning past me at my girls, who immediately erupted into fits of giggles. I wriggled against him, hoping he’d drop me.

Oh.

Oh.

Was that what I thought it was?

Shag your way out of this, Jemma!

I raised my eyes to his, batting my lashes.

“Alright, I’ll play your little game,” I purred, letting my hands wander up over his pecs. “If you put me down.”

His eyes darkened, but he released me. I stepped back, noticing how swiftly he stuffed his fists into his pockets.

I bit back a devilish grin of my own, stroking my fingers down his forearm and then sliding my hand into his pocket, too.

His lips pursed as I threaded my fingers through his. There was a lot going on in those pants … And the press of it against our joined hands was … impressive.

I let a knuckle graze against the bulge, and he hissed. Feeling triumphant, I drew our joined hands out of his pocket.

“I can’t believe you came all the way here to see me!” I gushed, twinkling up at him, before turning to the girls, beaming. If this performance didn’t win me an Oscar nomination, I was screwed. “Simeon’s from a really, really long way away, and long-distance relationships … well, they hardly ever work out, so I didn’t want to jinx things when …”

I let my eyes rove over him in his black dress shirt, splotched with raindrops, the sleeves rolled back, showing off forearms corded with muscle … and black jeans that hugged his thighs and would leave no room for doubt about what the current state of his penile area was … if he didn’t have that other hand still firmly fixed in his pocket.

I glanced back up at his face from under my lashes. His eyes were fixed on me like he was trying to solve a particularly difficult puzzle.

Perfect.

“… when this is still so new,” I finished in a husky breath.

I reached up on my toes and planted a quick peck on his cheek. He froze. I grinned against his jaw, stubble grazing my lips.

My stomach fluttered. Well, that answered one question I’d had about him. He could grow a beard.

“Aww, you two are adorable!” Sally cooed. “I wondered if maybe he was from abroad. Is English not your first language?”

Satan Junior’s eyes hadn’t left my face, his expression carefully void of emotion. Too carefully.

I was getting under his skin.

Perfect!

“Oh, that’s just one of several … differences … we’re working to overcome,” I replied, matching him stare for stare, raising one eyebrow in challenge. “But you do work hard at these things … when they’re worth it.”

I hoped he understood that I was talking about the ownership of my soul. I would work myself to the bone to earn that sliver back from him … to never let him possess the remainder.

“Oh, what Jemma is giving me is very much worth every second of my time,” he retorted, his smile full of evil intent.

I wanted to knee him in the balls. Did devils even have balls?

Why was I suddenly picturing his testicles? And why did that make me visualise the other part that went hand in hand with them?

And why was I suddenly imagining my hand on that part? That very … meaty part of him, if my quick investigation in his pocket was any indicator.

“Oh …” Sally swooned, thankfully snapping my brain right off that smutty little tangent. “That’s just the sweetest thing I’ve ever heard. Well, I’d best leave you to it. You’ll keep him out of trouble, won’t you, Jemma?”

I nodded, biting my lip provocatively as I gazed up at him with what I hoped was an expression of love so sickly it would turn his stomach.

Instead, his lips parted. His pupils dilated.

The door closed behind Sally. I blinked, cursing myself for being the one to break that staring competition.

“Okay, Sally’s gone,” Ellie said, and I turned to her to find all trace of the sadness from earlier wiped from her face. “Spill the tea, Jemma!”

Faith put her brush down and folded her arms over her chest. “Yeah, why have we never heard about Simeon?”

Harper continued to dab details onto her angel, but she added in a thoughtful voice, “I’ve been praying for someone who would take care of Jemma.”

I eyed ‘Simeon’, who was biting back a grin. “Girls, I haven’t seen Sa—Simeon in a while, so we need to have a … private conversation. Keep painting.”

And I grabbed Satan Junior by his elbow and steered him to the far corner of the room. He followed, chuckling softly.

What a jerk!

“Alright,” I hissed as I rounded on him. I put one hand on each side of his waist, squeezing, pulling him closer. From the girls’ perspective, it would look like I was making up for lost time. But I caught his wince as my nails dug into his skin.

“Be straight with me. Is this an official FiendPay visit? And if it is, I want details of what you expect from?—”

“Cease your peeping for one moment, please, Mouse!” Satan Junior muttered, stepping closer. My mouth snapped shut. But if my eyes could have shot out knives and sliced through him, they would have.

“That’s better,” he whispered, his own hands circling my waist. They were so large that his fingers almost touched.

I sucked in a breath.

“This is an official FiendPay visit. And because I’m a magnanimous Prince of Hell …”

I rolled my eyes.

He huffed out a laugh. “… I’m going to take it easy on you for this first task. All you have to do is get through the remainder of this session, without losing your temper with me, without ordering me to leave, and without dropping the facade that we are lovers. If you can do that, consider yourself a quarter of the way to repaying your soul.”

I could have laughed. This seemed far too easy. Not at all the torture I was expecting. “So, I just have to fake date a monster for an hour?” I clarified.

His brow furrowed. “What do you mean by ‘fake date’?”

I grinned. “You need to expand your reading horizons, Prince,” I informed him. “It’s a heavily overused trope in the romance genre. One of my favourites, in fact.”

I walked two fingers up his stomach and chest, booping him on the chin. “It’s exactly what it says on the packet. I pretend I’m dating you … but I’m faking. Ergo, ‘fake dating’. And you are a monster, so …”

His eyes tightened, but he nodded. “You have made your point. So, you must do this … date-faking thing … with me. Additionally, for the entire hour, you also cannot demand that I leave. You cannot get angry with me. No matter what.”

“Oh, it’s a little late for that,” I growled. I inhaled a calming breath and pasted a delighted smile on my face. “But I’ve done my research …” Faking It With Frankenstein’s Monster was one of my favourites, after all, “… and it’s lucky I’m very, very good at pretending.”

His eyebrow lifted in mocking disbelief, one side of his mouth curling as if to say, ‘ Sure you are’ .

Ooh! I would wipe that smarmy look right off his face. I’d show him that I could pull off fake dating the devil with the best of them.

I gripped the back of his neck.

“Come here, ya big lug,” I cooed, pulling him down to me. “It’s been too long.”

My lips crashed into his, knocking my glasses askew.

His mouth was hot against mine but so much softer than I’d expected. It didn’t stay soft for long. He took control, his hand cupping the nape of my neck. His lips parted mine. I gasped at the shock of it, and suddenly our breaths were mingling. The tip of his tongue darted out and flicked against mine, and it was like electricity shooting straight to the centre of me. A low, quiet rumble vibrated up from his throat.

I had to lock my knees to stop them from turning to jelly under me.

“I’ve missed you,” I mumbled against his mouth, the words coming out in a dirty, panting gasp … totally intentional. I was acting, after all … we were supposed to be a couple …

“Have you?” His hands slid down my spine to the small of my back, pressing me closer. And there, again … the hard nudge of his …

I broke away from that searing kiss. “Enough of that,” I muttered, hoping I didn’t sound as flustered as I felt. “I’m not about to give the girls an R-rated show with you.”

His eyes flashed. “Is an R-rated show on the table?” he asked, his voice gone rough.

I smirked, ignoring the way my lungs suddenly felt filled with helium. “That depends … would it count as another repayment?”

His mouth twitched, and he leaned down until his hot breath was right at my ear, his hand curling around my hip, burning like a brand through the fabric of my jeans. “You’re playing a dangerous game, Mouse.”

I suppressed a quiver, pressing my hand to his stomach. His ab muscles jerked under my palm. I stared up at him with what I hoped was steely determination. “When the prize is my soul, Satan Junior, I’ve got no choice but to play to win.”

“Call me SJ,” he rumbled.

A trio of delighted squeals broke the tension between us, and I tore myself away from him with a sharp exhale.

I’d forgotten, for a moment there, where we were … and the audience we were performing for.

I turned away from him, cheeks flaming, to apologise to the girls.

“What the …?” I gasped, taking in my three budding artists.

They were on their backs on the paint-splattered drop sheet. Two scurrying ferrets were clambering all over them as they giggled. Two black ferrets with odd, reddish tinges to their eyes.

“And he has pet ferrets? You two are made for one another!” Faith cackled.

I turned back to Satan Junior, horror draining the blood from my face. He grinned wickedly down at me.

“Oh … did I forget to mention that I brought the ‘malevolent mustelids’ along with me?”

* * *

“Oh … uh, girls, I don’t think that we should—” I pinched the bridge of my nose, swallowing back the urge to scream as Ellie laid her angry splatter canvas face up on the drop sheet while Faith and Harper held the two suspiciously cooperative ‘ferrets’ on their backs, snatching up brushes loaded with paint and smearing it all over their little mammalian feet.

“We need to have a memento of this awesome day!” Faith argued, rubbing her nose against the Hell Beast’s. It lay passive in her arms.

This was absolutely the calm before the storm. I could feel the pressure building. My body was practically vibrating with the urge to turn around and throttle him for putting me in this position.

But I couldn’t. Because my soul was the collateral in this little game.

“They’re astoundingly docile examples of their species, are they not?” he remarked. I did round on him then, eyes narrowed, trying my darndest to hold onto a smile. I probably looked more like I was trying to hold in explosive diarrhoea.

Satan Junior’s chuckle was so merry I itched to wrap my hands around his throat and squeeze.

“These girls are immunocompromised, Simeon .” My voice was thin as I desperately held back the need to roar the words at him. “Animal visits to this ward are very heavily regulated for that reason.”

He leaned back in the chair he’d situated himself in, one ankle balanced jauntily on the other knee, his hands running through that pale blond hair.

“Oh?” was all he said. He was goading me; it was abundantly clear.

He wanted me to rant at him that he could make these girls sick … that he could kill them … in his reckless need to torture me. He wanted me to do it because that would mean I’d failed in this first task to win back that little piece of stolen soul.

“It is rather fortunate, then, that as otherworldly beings, my minions do not carry any of the viruses that earthly pets would, is it not?”

My jaw dropped, but I slammed my mouth shut fast enough that my teeth clacked. “Well, I suppose that’s something,” I conceded.

His grin widened, and he leaned forwards, resting his elbows on his knees. “I can’t guarantee they’re not brimming with demonic illnesses, though … I have no idea how your small female humans would react to some of those.”

My fingernails bit into the palms of my hands. He was lying. I was almost positive. He was trying to get a rise out of me. And I wasn’t going to give him the satisfaction.

He had to be lying. Because if he was telling the truth, and I said nothing, kept my mouth shut and let this debacle unfold … was my soul worth more than their health? Their lives?

I gritted my teeth, turning away from him … just in time to see Faith place her wicked little creature onto the canvas.

And all Hell broke loose.

The thing screeched, rocketing off the canvas and across the drop sheet, leaving little smudged, painty pawprints everywhere. The girls screamed. Harper dropped the other monstrous mammal, who ran in the opposite direction, hissing wildly.

As the girls scurried away from the painting area, one of the critters careened into the stand holding Faith’s ‘slay’ piece, knocking one of the feet out from under it.

The easel teetered precariously, and as Faith screamed, “Save it, please Jemma!” and I leapt in the direction of her slipping artwork, the other little terror also took a flying leap … at the stool where all the paints were balanced.

I tried to sidestep that disaster, but my foot caught on a wrinkle in the drop sheet, and I went down with a squeal.

Just as the paints toppled on my chest.

* * *

“How are you holding up, Mouse?” Satan Junior asked. Anyone would think he was concerned and not crowing about how well his little debacle was playing out. He propped Faith’s artwork up against the wall. He’d deigned to get off his backside, saving her piece in the nick of time. With not a single splatter of paint on him.

I gave up on the paint-sodden towel that was just spreading the mess around on my blouse. My favourite blouse. It was ocean blue with a pattern of dancing rainbow axolotls. Well, it had been all those things. Now it was just brown from the rainbow of paints that had blended on it.

With a sigh, I unbuttoned it, drawing it off my shoulders. Oh, for crying out loud, even my bra hadn’t gone unscathed. I was going to have a lacy pattern etched in brown paint on my skin. But I had nothing to replace that with, so I headed for my box of supplies, dragging out one of the spare oversized painting T-shirts I kept in there.

What a fool. The one day I forgot to cover myself with my painting shirt. I’d been begging for exactly this to happen.

Satan Junior cleared his throat, and I glanced up just as he ripped his eyes from my chest, studiously looking everywhere but at me. His hands were in his pockets again.

Vindictive heat washed over me. I was ninety per cent tempted to strut around for the remainder of the session in just my bra and jeans. He deserved to feel at least as uncomfortable as he was making me.

“Oh, you poor little babies!” Ellie cried, and I turned to find the girls wrapping the little fur demons up in clean towels. They were deviously docile again. “You’re all messy!”

Satan Junior sauntered over to them, producing something from his pocket and handing it to Faith. “They love a warm bath, girls,” he informed them. “It is very calming for them.”

Faith beamed up at him and proceeded to feed whatever little treat he’d magicked up to the vile critter in her arms. “Well, they just had the crap scared out of them, of course they deserve some relaxation after all that stress!”

Harper hurried to the sink, filling it with warm water.

“You’ll be all clean very soon, we promise!” Ellie announced.

“Does no one care that I’m stressed and dirty over here?” I muttered.

“I care, Mouse,” he murmured as he returned to his chair, his expression smug. Not a single blond hair out of place. But his eyes strayed to my chest, just briefly. And his face flushed, high on his cheekbones.

I shoved the T-shirt over my head, stabbing my arms through the holes. He didn’t deserve a free boob show. Besides, I was an adult looking after minors. Walking around in my lacy bra to antagonise my fake boyfriend was the height of inappropriateness.

Oh, who was I kidding? Everything about this entire scenario was inappropriate.

I set to work righting the space, fantasising about gouging his eyes out with a paintbrush as I returned it to the water jar.

He huffed out a low laugh as if he could read my mind. I hurriedly collected the remaining brushes, lifting Ellie’s abandoned canvas from where it lay on the floor. I swiped a strand of my hair off my sweaty forehead. Brown smeared across my glasses, blocking my view.

I took them off, wiping them on the hem of my T-shirt, as the girls ooh-ed and ah-ed and giggled over the once more docile beasties.

“Jemma, they’re floating on their backs!” Faith squealed. “They look like little otters!”

“It’s adorable!” Harper and Ellie chorused.

“Oh, for fu—” I cut myself off, chancing a glance up at Satan Junior.

He lifted one hand, twitching a single finger from side to side in a tutting gesture. I fumed silently, gathering up the ends of the drop sheet and folding it inwards, trapping all the paint sludge that hadn’t ended up on me.

Meanwhile, the girls were completely oblivious to my distress. Bath time over, they lured Satan Junior’s little terrors over to the lounge next to the small library with more of the tiny pieces of beef jerky that he’d handed them earlier.

Satan Junior’s pernicious pets nuzzled at the girls with exaggerated affection.

“Didn’t you say that the hospital said no to Luci visiting?” Ellie asked, then giggled as the one with the white dot near its nose nibbled on her earlobe.

“Yes, you said that ferrets aren’t an approved animal for visits,” Faith added.

“They’re not,” I replied, my tone resigned. “Sa-Simeon smuggled them in without permission.”

“I’m sooo glad you started dating this one, Jemma!” Faith cooed, batting her eyes at Satan Junior, who smiled indulgently back at her. “This has been the best art session EVER!”

“Please, come again next week, Simeon?” Harper asked shyly, hiding her blush in the black ferret fur.

I turned away then, swallowing back my emotions. I’d definitely overstated my acting abilities in the face of his deviousness … in the face of the destruction the two Hell Beasts had managed to wreak in the space of five short minutes.

And in the face of knowing, deep down, that no matter what I did to make their art time with me enjoyable, I would always follow the rules that kept them safe and healthy. And all it had taken was him coming in, flouting rules that were in place for a very good reason, and I’d become second string to him and his Hell Hounds-in-disguise.

I’d never meet their expectations now that he’d blown them out of all proportion.

I could practically hear Joe’s derision. ‘Another frivolous, futile foray, one that you can’t even earn an income from. Only you could manage to fail at volunteer work, Jemma!’

I gripped the neck of my stretched T-shirt, pushing my glasses up my forehead and dabbing at my suddenly watering eyes. I couldn’t let Satan Junior see. Would me crying—even if it wasn’t necessarily directly related to his torture—be counted as me forfeiting my first repayment?

I glanced over at him surreptitiously. He was watching me, an odd, bland expression on his face. He shoved one hand into his pocket. If he was getting off on my mini breakdown, I was going to lose my shit at him, soul payment be damned!

But he removed his hand almost as quickly as he’d put it in there, and he strode over to the girls.

“I am afraid I must take my leave now, girls,” he said, and the true sadness in his eyes was better acting than anything I’d managed since he’d walked through that door. “I’ve other places I need to be … and I fear if Beezle and Bub stay much longer, and we get caught by one of the healers here, we might get Jemma in trouble, and she won’t be able to visit you again.”

The girls erupted into protests, which Satan Junior gently but firmly rebutted.

“You don’t want to lose your time with Jemma, now, do you?” he asked them. Tearily, they shook their heads.

“Well then say goodbye to Beezle and Bub. They have had an action-packed afternoon, and I am certain they will need a long rest after all the fun they have had with you three.”

As the girls gave the fake ferrets one last snuggle, he turned, approaching me, his gait casual, his expression … apologetic?

No, that couldn’t be right.

“Come now,” he murmured, his big hand cradling the back of my neck, his thumb swiping away a stupid, traitorous tear from my cheek. I bit my bottom lip to stop it from trembling. How had he managed to make such an emotional wreck of me?

“It hasn’t been the full hour,” I muttered, toying with the bottom of the T-shirt. His palms grazed down my arms, fingers winding through mine. “I want the record to state that I fully committed to your requirements for this task … and it’s you ending it early, not me!”

He smiled, but it didn’t quite reach those silvery eyes of his. “You have to pretend you like me, just until I’m gone, Jemma Bliss. That’s all. And you will have successfully made this payment. And … I might possibly have exaggerated a little earlier. There are no demonic illnesses.”

A tiny, gasping sob tore out of me as relief had me sagging. He snatched me against him, his breath fanning across my cheek as he bent to me.

“Now, kiss your fake lover farewell like a good girl,” he rumbled. “And we shall call it a day on your first repayment.”

It was probably just my frazzled emotional state, but the way he said ‘good girl’ … in that upper-crust, aristocratic accent of his switched my brain off entirely.

And oh boy, did I kiss him!

I kissed him with far more passion and enthusiasm than was really necessary for our little charade.

My arms snaked around him, fingers clawing into the solid muscle of his back, and I licked into his mouth, a whimper escaping me when the heat of his tongue found mine, and he met me stroke for stroke.

A low, almost desperate sound reverberated up from him, and he clutched me closer, his fingers digging into the flesh at the very top of my backside. I gasped into his mouth. He nipped at my bottom lip.

I broke away, clearing my throat, my cheeks flaming. Every place where his hands had roved burned like he’d branded me.

His eyes had gone black, his lips were rosy and glistened with the remnants of our kiss. My fingers reached up, unbidden, to my mouth. My lips were damp and swollen.

“I shall bid you good day, Mouse,” he said. His words were clipped, and he turned on his heel, clicking his fingers once as he strode past the gaping tweens. The two little faux ferrets wriggled from the girls’ limp grips and scampered after their master.

“It was lovely to meet you all.” Satan Junior managed to sound genuine as he threw the girls a quick smile from the door. The Hell Beasts leapt into his arms. He turned to me, his lips twitching. His eyes full of some unspoken promise.

“Until next time, Mouse.”

And then he was gone. And the girls were giggling and squealing and mooning about how blazing hot that kiss was, how he was sooooo into me … how he was exactly the type of man they’d always imagined I’d end up with.

But my ears were ringing, and stars were prickling at the edges of my vision, and I couldn’t do more than nod and smile vaguely at them.

I still had three more tasks to complete before I could earn back my soul …

But I wasn’t sure I’d survive them if a kiss that scorching was how the first one ended.

Shag your way out of it , indeed. Maybe that had been a bad, silly, ill-conceived plan. It was entirely possible that I’d just gotten myself in much, much too deep if that look in his eyes was any indicator of what he had in store for me next time.