Page 3 of Miracles and Marriage (Making a Family #5)

“Talk to me,” he said as he walked up the stairs to the bedroom she used.

Zoe didn’t want to let him know everything, but she did owe him an explanation. Her flight had been unlike her and he had a right to know if it would happen again. She wondered if anything else would be so devastating she’d immediately flee to the comfort of the family sea cottage.

“Two heads are better than one at solving problems,” he said.

He gently put her on the bed and once she covered herself with the spread, sat on the edge of the mattress.

“It won’t happen again,” she said.

“What happened and won’t again?” he asked.

“I won’t leave so unexpectedly like this time. It was a private emergency.”

“Hey, Protection, Inc. is good in emergencies. We have strategic planning down to an art. I doubt there are many things we can’t handle. Besides, you help me in brainstorming solution, let’s try this one.”

She almost smiled. Cal was so proud of the company—and rightly so.

Their success rate was terrific. It was becoming synonymous with high end security in the capital.

The firm was constantly hiring new agents as it expanded.

One department did nothing but vet new hires.

Cal made security as sacred as apple pie.

“Unfortunately the company can’t help in this situation,” she said.

“Try me,” he invited.

He looked rock solid, firm and dependable.

She knew he was as honest as anyone she’d met.

And he had an aura of competency that was evident at first glance.

Wind had ruffled his dark hair when he walked to the cottage from his car, giving him an almost boyish look.

She blinked. She’d met him when he’d been in his thirties.

There was nothing boyish about the hard-as-nails man who drove Protection, Inc.

He was right, she and he had worked together for years. Might as well share this little bit.

“All right.” She’d take him up on his challenge. “I found out yesterday I need to have a hysterectomy and I always wanted a family. If I don’t do something soon, I can forget about ever having a baby.”

Cal didn’t move, didn’t even blink, but Zoe knew she’d startled him.

“It’s a female problem and getting worse. My doctor recommended I get the operation soon—like before next month. Where does that fall in Protection’s purview?”

Unexpectedly he reached out and brushed her hair away from her cheek. Zoe was shocked at the awareness that shot through her. This was Cal, her boss, mentor and friend. She refused to hear Chloe’s words echo in her mind about being too involved with Cal.

“Not one of our more usual situations,” he murmured.

“You wanted to know,” she reminded him.

She respected him more than anyone she knew. She often marveled at the dangerous situations he was able to defuse. But even Cal couldn’t pull miracles out of a hat.

“Don’t worry, this is my problem, not yours. I don’t see it has much of a solution—much less a quick one.”

“You work for me so it becomes my problem,” Cal said.

“I’m coming to grips with the situation,” she said, feeling awkward discussing it with her boss.

Their relationship had always been business. Now he was in her bedroom. He’d touched her in a way not consistent with being her boss.

“But it isn’t going away,” he said.

“Sooner or later, I need that operation. I just wanted to have a baby first.”

Her voice cracked a little. Zoe took a deep breath. She was done with crying.

“Ironic,” he murmured.

“What is?”

“Nothing. No boyfriend ready to step up to the plate?” he asked.

She shook her head and shot him a look.

“When do I have time to date and build some kind of relationship? In case you didn’t know, my boss is a slaver driver,” she teased, trying to lighten the mood.

He didn’t need to shoulder her problems.

“Hey, whatever it takes to get the job done.”

“What it takes is two or three people to keep up with you,” she retorted.

“You’ve never complained,” he said.

“You know how exciting the work can be. I love it. But I think I’ll need to make some changes. I hate to hit the singles bars, but if I want a family—and I do—I could have left it too late. Still, I have to try.”

He touched her shoulder, the awareness building again.

“I have a few friends I could introduce you to. I know Mark Wyatt was married for a while and liked being married.”

“What happened?”

“His wife didn’t, apparently. Anyway, they split about a year ago. He might be right what you’re looking for. He’s around my age, no children yet. Maybe he’d be interested.”

“That hardly sounds romantic,” she said.

“Hey, you want romance, you need to take your time. You want a sperm donor, you take what you can get.”

“Cal, I can’t believe you said that. It sounds horrible.

I don’t just want a donor, I want someone to make a baby with and then raise that baby together, going to school functions, family gatherings.

I’d like to get married if I can find the right man, but if that’s not in the cards, I still want a father who will be there when the child graduates college and gets married and makes us grandparents. ”

“What time warp are you coming from?” he asked.

“What do you mean? That’s not so much to ask.”

“In this day and age it is. Who do you know who’s still married when their kids graduate college?”

“My parents for one. My grandparents are all alive, all four. There has only been one divorce in our family in three generations,” she said. “But marriage isn’t necessary. Mostly I want someone committed to being a dad. Someone who will love our child as much as I will.”

“Weigh the chances and the parameters you have to work with. See what level of comfort you can stand and go for it. It may be single motherhood is the cost of a child.”

“I guess I have some serious thinking to do.”

“Want something to eat while doing that serious thinking?”

“Can you cook?”

Zoe knew he could order pizza with the best of them, but she’d never had a reason to know if he could cook. It gave a different dimension to him.

“I can manage eggs and toast,” he said.

“I think there’s only dry cereal and oatmeal.”

“I’ll manage, you rest.”

He stood up and walked out of the bedroom.

Zoe breathed a sigh of relief. Cal was too energetic for the way she felt.

She meant what she said—she had some serious decisions to make.

Could she find someone to fall in love with on demand?

Cal already promised to introduce her to an eligible man.

Her sisters would, she knew. Some friends had been trying to fix her up for years, but she’d always had her work. And Cal—as Chloe said.

Zoe didn’t want to return to work. She wanted to stay at the cottage and gather her resources a bit before returning home. Yet if Cal was going to introduce her to someone he thought she might like, maybe the sooner done the better. She hoped this month’s bout of pain vanished soon.

Cal brought up oatmeal and tea. He sat beside her and matched her spoonful for spoonful. She thought it funny he’d eat so plainly, and drink tea when she knew he devoured coffee all day long.

A couple of times during the meal, she caught Cal studying her. Zoe wanted to squirm under his intense regard, but did her best to appear unconcerned propped up against the headboard. The pills were beginning to take effect and she felt marginally better.

She appreciated his taking care of her. She never expected that. Fighting terrorists or kidnappers, yes, taking care of a sick friend—no. Showed she really didn’t know all she could about him.

“Are you tabulating every flaw to pass on to your friend?” she finally asked.

“No, I’m mentally listing all the attributes I think will have him falling over himself to date you. You’re prettier than I noticed before.”

She felt a spurt of amusement. “Thanks, I think.”

“Well, we don’t have that kind of relationship. I never noticed how pretty you are.”

“You have your own bevy of female companions,” she said. “I bet they’re all beautiful.”

She’d seen several over the years—always model thin and glam.

“The old adage about beauty only being skin deep still applies.”

He looked down at his tea, slowly lifting the cup to sip.

Zoe wondered what she might have said to cause that pensive—no almost pained look.

Had he and a girlfriend just broken up? She tried to remember the last woman in his life.

Suzette or Suzanne or something like that.

Occasionally she heard him talking to her on the phone.

Cal also kept his personal life out of the office.

She suddenly realized she knew very little about her boss beyond the day-to-day operations of the business. How odd. After working closely together for so long, they should know more about each other.

“What does this Mark look like?” she asked.

“He’s about my height. Has sandy color hair. He’s really interested in football, follows major league teams all season long. Goes to the same gym I go to.”

Zoe wondered if she’d like that. She knew something about football, with five brothers, how could she not? But she wasn’t a passionate fan.

“What else?”

“He’s in advertising, doing very well.”

She wrinkled her nose.

“Not something you like?”

“Too much cajoling people to buy stuff they don’t need.”

“Part of the economy.”

“I guess. Is he from Washington?” she asked.

“Not originally. From the Midwest somewhere, but has lived in DC for a dozen years or more. I think he went to Georgetown University and just stayed. You two would have great kids together.”

“I’ll reserve judgment until I meet the man,” she murmured. “Did you get the Schribner file?”

The conversation changed to business and Zoe and Cal fell into their familiar pattern of discussing clients and the various needs, who would be good to handle certain aspects and the shortfalls of one of the newer recruits.

By the time their meal was finished, Zoe felt better, physically and mentally.

Talking with Cal pulled her back into the work arena and had her temporarily forget the ticking clock.

She’d give anything to be normal, but since she wasn’t, maybe she should take a page from Cal’s book and find a way around the problem.

Once breakfast was finished, she expected him to take off. Instead he said he’d hang out for a while and let her sleep.

Whenever she awoke, he was nearby, offering tea or food. Somewhere during the day, he’d gone out and bought groceries. Lunch was more substantial than breakfast and dinner was almost a feast.

Cal left after dinner but promised to return the next day, despite Zoe’s protests. It was over an hour’s drive from DC to Seagrass Point. He didn’t need to be wasting his time. She’d be back home before long.

The next day, Zoe felt better. She’d made it through another month. She wasn’t surprised when he showed up again. He usually only said what he meant, and he had said he’d return.

“You don’t have to wait on me, I’ll be fine now,” she said at breakfast, eaten downstairs this morning after a quick shower and clean clothes. She still felt awkward at Cal’s newfound concern for her.

“There are things waiting at the office,” he said, slowly.

“Then you should be there, not here. I’ll be in tomorrow for sure.”

“I can wait,” he said. “Give you a ride back.”

“No need. I have my car. I have to drive it back anyway.”

“If you’re sure?”

“I am.”

She walked him out to his car a short time later, wondering if any neighbors were around to see the sleek black sports car, which was a testimony to his success. Zoe rarely saw the car without wishing she could drive it, just once.

She’d love to ride up to her parents’ home when the entire family was gathered. Her brother Sean especially would turn green with envy.

“I’ll be in tomorrow,” she said.

Cal nodded and said, “Just don’t leave me to Ginny for long.”

“She’s not that bad. You frighten her,” Zoe said. “Be nice to her, she’ll do fine.”

“I’m always nice,” he said as he prepared to leave.

He touched her shoulder. Zoe resisted the impulse to lean against him for strength. She wanted to keep their relationship normal. She couldn’t take any more distractions at this point.

Zoe watched as he drove away. Nice was not the word she’d use to describe her boss.

But sometimes he could be kind. She walked back out to the beach, wishing the sun was shining brightly and children were playing on the sand.

Instead she had the lonely cry of the gulls to keep her company on a blustery day.

Cal drove back to the city reviewing the business awaiting his attention. Maybe he hadn’t needed to seek out Zoe, but he’d wanted to see for himself that she was all right. Finding out she wasn’t had shaken him. She’d always seemed indestructible. He never remembered her sick before.

These past two days had shown a vulnerability that startled him. And brought out protective instincts he hadn’t known he had.

Meeting her sister had also been a surprise. She looked exactly like Zoe. At first, he’d thought his assistant had gotten married and planned to quit her job. He’d been relieved and intrigued to discover the twin connection. What other surprises would he discover if he hung around her longer?

The revelation that she might not be able to have children—and longed to have them—had been another. Not that they’d ever discussed lifelong dreams, but she was devoted to work. Of course she had a private life. She didn’t go into hibernation at night and reappear at the office the next morning.

Yet he felt he was seeing Zoe in three dimension for the first time.

Life was so unfair. He’d known that since he’d been a small boy bewildered when he learned of the death of his mother and his father’s abandonment. But it still astounded him sometimes.

Like now. Zoe wanted a baby so badly and had no one to make one with. While Suzanne had been pregnant with their child and ended its chance before it was born.