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I twist one of her pigtails in my hands and tug on it. Not enough to hurt, just tease. When she lifts her chin, I press my lips to hers. It’s like the dam breaks, and all my senses fill with Lana. I need her like she’s the air I breathe. Every time I’m close to this girl, I lose all sense of myself.
When a moan escapes her lips, I pull her closer and deepen the kiss. My hands slide down and settle against her ass as she rubs herself against my leg. I want to rip the clothes off her body and bury myself in her warm heat. When she starts tugging at my t-shirt, I rein in my need and take her wrists in my hands, stopping her. I don’t want her to do something she’s going to regret.
I pull back to speak. “We have a hike we need to finish. I don’t want you doing something you’ll regret later.”
She blinks at me in a daze, her hazel eyes slowly returning to their normal color, then nods and takes a step back. My hands fall to my sides as we both take a much-needed reprieve.
What are you doing to me, Lana?I’ve tasted you, but now I want more. My body craves more, but I can’t. She’s here for just over a week, too short of a time to get involved.
When I look at her, I see so much more than a girl in high school. I see her passion, her drive, and her innocence.
Innocence.
This is the second time in two days I’ve wanted to steal more than just a kiss from this girl. I don’t know if that’s even a real option. I think I need to talk to Holden and get his opinion. I’m not sure he’s the best person to ask, but I need to talk to someone, and most of my friends are also Kasey’s friends.
Chapter 11
Lana
I’m dripping by the time we make it back to the car, and I’m not only talking about sweat. I’m glad he made me get up early so we could hit the trail because it’s hot and muggy now that the sun is out. Without a cloud in the sky, there’s very little in the way of shade.
Two amazing kisses in two days, and my girly parts are screaming at me for more. Tristan Ellis is a very good kisser. I find myself falling more and more for him.How many girls has he practiced with?The moment of insecurity creeps up and settles deep in my gut. I fold my hands in my lap as we travel down the road back to town.
“Thanks for bringing me out there. It was really nice, and I’m glad I got to experience it.”
“Glad you enjoyed it. I’m sure I’m going to remember this hike for alongtime.”
It can’t be because of the kiss, right? He must have brought girls out here before and dazzled them with his knowledge of moose. “Oh yeah? Why’s that?”
“First time I’ve made out with a girl out there.” He smiles but keeps his eyes on the road.
“You never brought Kasey out this way? You’re good. I’m sure you’ve kissed lots of girls, so why haven’t you brought one of them with you?” I try to keep my voice even, but a small tinge of jealousy hits as I finish.
He narrows his eyes as he flits his gaze in my direction. “Kasey isn’t into anything outside of the mall. I also haven’t kissed a lot of girls. We were together for most of high school. Not many opportunities to kiss someone else.” His voice is cold, a warning to drop the subject.
An awkward silence fills the cab of the truck, and I reach for my braid to roll the end around my fingers. I see him glance at me then back to the road from the corner of my eye.
“Please stop playing with that damn braid,” he mutters quietly.
“Why?” I drop my hand and look at him.
“Because I’m trying real damn hard to be a good guy here, when all I want to do is take what I want. You’re a tease.” I open my mouth to protest, but he continues. “You’re here, but I can’t have you.”
“Why not? What’s stopping you?” I ask quietly.
“Because I’m not going to take something that doesn’t belong to me.”
Belong to him?I simmer and clench my jaw as I replay his words until I can’t stand it. “I don’t belong to anyone. I’m not an animal, you know.”
He sighs, rubbing the back of his neck. “That’s not what I meant. I mean… have you ever slept with a guy?”
Oh. He wants to know if I’m still a virgin. Moment of truth. Should I be proud of still having my v-card intact, or do I act like it’s no big deal? Do I even want to give it up to him?If his kisses are any indication, then hell yes!I don’t live in the middle ages. I know it’s not some magical thing, but still.
“Yeah, I’ve slept with a guy before. It’s no big deal.”
Half-truth. My cousin slept over before and stayed in my room with me. We were seven or so, and we slept. See, not acompletelie.
He raises his eyebrows but doesn’t say anything as he pulls into the ice cream shop. It’s in the middle of downtown, wedged between a hardware store and a drug store. A few people sit at the tables outside, enjoying their frozen treats.