Page 50 of His Trick

I coughed, choking on my own blood. “She’s not a candle, Dad! You can’t just snuff out a person. You’re sick. We can…we can get you help to get better. It’s not too late.”

His black eyes flashed with something, but his expression remained unchanged. The blade in his hand, my blade, grazed my skin like a damning promise. Heat flared in my body, sharp and bright, then a pain that demanded every shred of focus began.

It wasn’t like the chemical. There was no start and build. This was just an inferno. He cut into my skin with precision and clean skill. I tasted the metal at the back of my throat, as the room started to fade in and out, tight around the edges.

“Dad…please.”

I tried to focus on anything but the burning. The foliage peeking through the slats of the shed took me back to the garden at home. I remembered how my mother used to cut squash in the fall, and hollow them out until they were empty so I could paint and decorate them for the holidays. He was doing the same thing to me. Trying to hollow me out to paint over who I was and make me his own.

“You had one task, Shiloh. The most important one, and you failed. You only had to kill her. Why couldn’t you kill her? I know you saw her beauty. I know you wanted to touch. So why?”

The world shifted at his words. He was right. I did think she was beautiful. I couldn’t stop my body from feeling that lust from seeing her so broken, but unlike him, I wasn’t going to use her. How is a hunt any fun if the opponent can’t fight? That’s like stepping on a mouse and calling yourself a master hunter. It was pathetic.

“You’re…” I said. Trying desperately to inhale a breath. “W-Weak.”

He dug the blade deeper, and this time right into my bullet wound, stealing my breath.

“I…loved…you…Dad.”

His laughter hurt worse than the knife. “So did your whore mother. But alas, she betrayed me by trying to run with you. Now, you’ll meet the same fate, my son.”

I prepared to die, unable to fight the pain that was dragging me under. I couldn’t feel the burn anymore. Just my mother’s warmth as I was pulled farther and farther into a serene light.

No, not peaceful.

They were red and blue lights that tore across the boards where the shutters had been, and I could hear the faintest sound fill the air. It felt like I was underwater, my hearing muffled, and my vision gone. The faint sound grew softer, the voiceswarbled. I tried to open my eyes, but the darkness persisted like I was looking through a pinhole.

My father jerked, like a man awakened from a dream. The knife skittered away and clattered against the floor with a muted clang.

“Police! Down! Hands where we can see them! Step away from the child!”

Blurry officer after blurry officer surrounded my father. Maybe a dozen of them, or maybe it was only a handful, and my heart wanted the numbers to be bigger so I could believe I had been saved. My father’s face was the clearest thing I saw.

Pressed up beside me, he became the thing I hated most, small now, his panic swallowing the arrogance I’d seen fuel him my whole life. Even though he tried to kill me, I couldn’t help but fight to keep him with me. I had no one, and if they took him away, I may as well have died because…

Now I was alone. And no one would accept me. I was different. I was as dark as he was, like Edmund Anderson. And one day that darkness would consume me, too.

I awokewith a pained exhale and shot up from the covers, still in zombie mode, the sheets twisted around my thighs like the ropes from the dream. My heart was running laps in my chest. I fought to control my mind, but I couldn’t remember where I was. It wasn’t my home. Its walls were covered in rock bands and frilly girly shit.

Calm down. This is Xanthy’s room. You’re in the Harding mansion. The hunt was yesterday, and you came to volunteer…

The more aware I became, the more grounded I felt. I squeezed the comforter under my fingers, inhaling the floweryscent of my girlfriend’s pillow. She was having coffee with a friend and studying for a school play she was in.

I was okay.

I wasn’t in that damn shed…

But I wasn’t safe either.

Carrington was going to be pissed when he saw what I had done, coiled tight like the snake on his neck. He would retaliate, and admittedly, that scared me. I knew all along he wouldn’t be stupid enough to get caught, but I couldn’t resist goading his fragile ego into realizing he wasn’t as efficient as he believed he was.

How’s the taste of fear feel, Care Bear?

My palms were slick with sweat, and when I touched my ribs where the blade had seared me in the dream, I felt the raised scar left there. A reminder to never trust anyone, not even someone I loved. I kept my hand there, as if to reassure my body the pain was over, the proof I’d survived etched into my skin.

The smell in the room lingered, faint and impossible, yet it clung to my memory. I blinked a few times, smacking my stupid head to get a grip on my reality. I felt fragile, irritated at the realization that I’d be jumpy, waiting for Carrington to retaliate somehow.

“Get a grip, Shiloh.” I got up from the bed and walked over to the window.