Page 23 of Habibi: Always and Forever

Releasing his hand, my fingers tilt his chin, and I meet his chocolate eyes. “You prepped, babe?” He nods. My heart feels like it’s expanding, taking up all the space in my chest. He did all the work so we could share this special moment together.

“Benny, I want you,” he breathes, voice thick with emotion. “I only want this with you. Please say you want me. I might die if you don’t.”

I can’t help but smile. “So dramatic, baby.” Pushing back a lock of his black hair, I place a light kiss on his button nose.

“Of course I want you. I’m just making sure.

You can’t fault me for checking. Giving yourself to another person this way is huge, and I’m so happy and honoured you trust me enough to share this part of yourself. ”

“It’s always been you, Benny.” His voice is laced with raw affection, the kind that strengthens us as a couple. There’s no doubt in his words. Looking into his eyes, I know I’d rearrange the stars in the night sky so he will always see my love for him.

“Benny, please,” he begs. Who am I to deny the person who’s been mine since the very first day of school?

He owns me, mind, body, and soul. “Okay, baby, lie down.” Throwing off my shirt, I climb onto the bed and lie next to him on my side, cupping his face, just taking a moment to look at him, breathe him in.

This beautiful man, my best friend for so many years, is now mine to love, to build a future with, and I’m ready.

* * *

LEE

My heart pounds as we lie here on the bed, side by side. I can feel the passion in the way Benny kisses me throughout my entire body. He always leaves me breathless and wanting more. Each kiss with him feels as exhilarating as the very first, no matter how often our lips meet.

His fingers trace patterns on my arm just the way I like, and goose bumps prickle my skin as we kiss for what seems like an eternity.

I love that he’s taking his time with me, letting my tension melt away, but I’m desperate for him.

It’s consumed my every thought today. I’ve arranged everything from the perfect lighting to my sexy underwear to the rose petals, knowing Benny would appreciate the romantic gesture.

Breaking away from another heated kiss, I whimper, “I’m ready.” His hot breath ghosts my face.

“Yeah?” He smiles back at me.

“Yes.” I nod. “A thousand percent yes.”

“Okay, babe,” he murmurs against my lips, chuckling at my eagerness.

The bed dips as Benny moves. I roll onto my back as he positions himself on top of me, fitting between my open legs and placing small kisses along my neck and collarbone.

I can’t help arching my body to give him more room.

My hands lie still on the bed, and I hold my breath.

I dare not move in case he stops. His cheeks are rosy, and his eyes are blue as the sea as he looks up at me before making his way down my body to my thong.

I found it online last week and immediately knew it would make the perfect anniversary gift.

I felt so empowered when I put it on after my shower earlier, but as I waited for Benny to get home, my nerves kicked in, and I started second-guessing myself.

What if he didn’t like it? What if it isn’t his thing, and he finds it silly?

In the end, my head was spinning with worry, but I should have known better.

Because as soon as he walked through the bedroom door, his eyes lit up, and my worries faded into the background like they always do when Benny is around.

His eyes never lie, and he definitely loved what he saw.

“Can I?” he asks as he reaches my hard cock, his fingers caressing the outline through the delicate material.

The way he still asks for permission to take what I’m happy to give him is such a turn on. My dick twitches again, and all I can do is whimper my approval, desperate to make love to Benny, to feel him inside me finally.

His long fingers hook into the hem of the flimsy material, pulling it down as my cock bounces free.

Benny’s eyes hold a look that makes my heart skip a beat.

I wonder if he’s thinking the same thing as me: that after years of secret longing, neither of us realising our feelings, it’s all led to this moment—the union of two souls in love.

“You’re so beautiful, Lee,” he says, his eyes filled with awe. It never gets old; the love, the praise, the reassurance. Him. He could tell me a thousand times that he thinks I’m beautiful, and I would still crave hearing it again and again.

Benny’s hand curls around my erection as I suck in a clipped breath. He gives me a few slow strokes, and precum immediately beads at the head. I see the moment he notices, because his eyes turn a darker shade of blue as he bends to lick it away.

“Mmmm, you taste so good, baby.” A few more licks from his soft, wet tongue send shivers down my spine, making me leak even more. I’ve never been this turned on before. This is the effect he has on me, turning me into a needy, whimpering mess.

“God, Benny… please. More. I’m going to burst,” I cry out, digging my fingers into the sheets.

He smirks playfully, wiggling his eyebrows.

Oh, he knows what he’s doing to me; teasing me, making me squirm with need for him.

Well, I’ve been waiting for this moment since we met at twelve years old.

I knew even then that he was my soulmate, and for the twelve years since that day, I’ve bided my time, hoping that we would end up here, that when we were adults, Benny would be my forever. So really, I’m not above begging.

Pushing my hips up towards his mouth, my cock grazes his lips. “Pleeaase…” I bat my eyelids and pop out my bottom lip, knowing full well I have Benny’s undivided attention. The next thing I know, he’s engulfing me, sucking me all the way to the back of his throat, swallowing around me.

“ Uhhhhh , fuck!” I shout as my hips surge upwards. It’s like I’ve lost all control of my body, undone by the pleasure his mouth brings me. The illicit sounds he pulls from me are something I don’t think I’ll ever get used to, and I’m just thankful we now live alone.

He buries his nose in my neatly trimmed curls, inhaling my scent as he takes me even deeper into his throat. What a fucking skill to have.

“Don’t stop,” I beg. My hands grip his hair as I hold him in place while he groans and chokes around me. I continue thrusting into his mouth, my mind wild with lust, and my movements becoming frantic.

“More… more…” I demand, while my hands continue twisting the sheets. I won’t last much longer if he carries on, but he just makes me feel so good.

He pulls off my cock with a pop, and I whine from the loss. “Lube?” he asks, crawling up my body, a string of saliva hanging from his mouth. So fucking hot. He looks as wrecked as I feel.

“Under… the… bed,” I stammer as I try to catch my breath.

“Dropped it…” He quickly finds it and wastes no time pumping lube into his hand.

The sensation of cool liquid makes me jump as Benny’s finger circles my hole.

I instantly tense up, the feeling so foreign.

I want this, but I’m also starting to freak out.

Benny must sense it, too, because he stills his movements.

“Look at me, Lee,” he coaxes gently. My gaze meets his as he leans forward above me. Some of his curls, now messy from my hands, fall into his eyes. “We can stop anytime; just say the word. We don’t have to do this now if you’re not ready. We can go back to?—”

“No!” I rush out, pushing the hair back from his face. “I don’t want you to stop. My body just reacted on impulse, I think. It doesn’t mean I’m not ready; it just means I’m new to this.” I inhale slowly, then exhale, steadying myself. “Try again, please.”

It takes him a second to process my words, but his finger slowly circles my hole again. “Kiss me,” I whisper. Swollen lips meet mine in soft pecks as he creates a rhythm with his kisses and his finger. Kiss, push, kiss, push. Then he breaches me.

I can’t help but take a sharp intake of breath as he penetrates me with his finger. “You’re doing so good, babe,” he coos with praise. “So, so good. Can you feel me? Does it feel okay?”

“Yes,” I moan, hardly recognising my voice. “More.”

Benny picks up his pace as he slides his finger in and out of me, gently at first until my body accepts him more easily, then faster, over and over until one finger becomes two, then three.

Tingles spread throughout my whole body as my senses heighten.

Then Benny curls his fingers, and something shifts inside me.

“ Ohhhhh myyyy god .” My body comes alive, nearly shooting off the bed, and the only thing stopping me is Benny’s hand on my stomach as he continues to tap that spot deep inside, which I assume is my prostate.

I’m in magic-button heaven. There’s no other word for it. Pure fucking heaven. His curls bounce on his head as he laughs, “Like that, do you?”

“Mhm, what gave it away?” I manage to groan.

He captures my mouth with a kiss as he pulls his fingers out and declares, “You’re ready for me.” His voice is strained, too, so at least I’m not the only one who’s barely hanging on.

As I lie there in my post-prostate-prodding haze, something clicks.

“Condom. I forgot to buy them.” Sitting bolt upright, I nearly headbutt Benny.

“Oh god, I was so busy trying to make this all perfect that I forgot the one thing we really need. I’m such an idiot.

” My chest clenches. I really fucked this up, didn’t I?

“Hey, there’ll be none of that.” A soft hand cups my face as tears threaten to fall. “These things happen. I’ll run down to the shop and pick some up, or we can just wait till next time. Whatever you want.”

“No, I don’t want to wait,” I moan. “If you go now, it’ll ruin the moment.”

Benny jumps up off the bed and picks up his trousers.

“What are you going to do? Uber Eats us some?”