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CHAPTER 41

Soren

Those big blue eyes were all I could see. She was my whole world and I didn’t understand it, but I didn’t have to. I just needed to make her happy. I needed to make her feel as good as she made me feel or I might really lose my mind.

For the first time since all this started, Frankie stared down at me like she didn’t know what to say or do, her scent still tinged with a hint of fear, but it was easing with every breath she took.

I kept my pheromones as reassuring and comforting as possible while I nuzzled her neck, purring like an idiot just because she was here, in my arms, smelling like me .

But it wasn’t enough.

She needed to be drenched in my scent, inside and out. I wanted it oozing from her pores and altering that delicious citrus lavender that was so light I could barely sense it.

If I had my nose right against her skin, that scent would fill my head and my lungs, but I had to be in her throat or between her legs. It was too subtle otherwise and it was driving me crazy.

No matter what I did, there was still this fucking wall between us.

She didn’t want me to kiss her. Fine. It had hurt more than I’d expected it to when she rejected me, turning her head away like she found my intimacy disgusting. I could deal with that since this was still so new, but the way she refused to come was infuriating .

It was such a bratty thing to do and I didn’t understand why .

Why didn’t she want to?

Or was I just that bad at this?

Frankie held my gaze as I lifted her up, watching me just as closely as I watched her.

I needed to be inside her again. Only then would I feel whole.

Ripping her underwear from her body made her flinch, but it didn’t hurt her. I made sure of it. Then I pressed my tip to her entrance, clenching my jaw so I didn’t shove her down and rut into her like an animal.

I wanted to do this slow. I wanted to show her she could trust me enough to relax and let go. She had a lot of trust issues but she wanted this or she would have left when I told her to.

Her pussy twitched against me and I bit my tongue hard enough blood gushed into my mouth.

The pain helped me ignore the ache in my gums and the constant urge to sink my teeth into her. I wanted my mark on her flesh, but my scent would have to do for now.

She didn’t slide down as slowly as she had the first time, but it was still brutal.

Apparently it didn’t matter how many times she’s made me come for her, I was still rock hard and ready to burst with the slightest movement.

“Hah, you’re still so tight.” It felt like she was going to break my dick off. “Is it too much?”

Frankie didn’t say anything, but she shook her head.

I’d think I was hurting her but her lips parted when she finally reached my knot and the little breath she let out had me ready to ruin her.

But I didn’t want it to be over already. I wanted to drag this out for as long as possible.

Maybe if I got her to feel as good as she made me feel, she’d want to do this again…maybe then she’d think of me as more than someone she needed to take care of.

Frankie tried to take control again, raising herself up and then down. I let her think she had the upper hand as I watched her, sliding my hands up her body so I could rub my thumbs over her nipples.

She was still so skittish. I couldn’t do anything without freaking her out. Not yet. She needed to relax. She needed to understand this wasn’t about me.

It was never about me.

She was the one who forced me into this rut. She was the one who had me losing my mind over some stupid alpha who wanted her so badly he’d willingly become an omega for her.

I may not understand their relationship, but I did understand how badly he wanted her.

He wanted her the way I had her right now.

I bent my head and ran my tongue over her nipple so she couldn’t see the possessive insanity that had to be leaking from my eyes and pores.

Wrapping my arms around her waist, I tightened them just enough she was pulled up a bit and her tits ended up in my face.

Unlike in the gym, I didn’t have to hold back. I didn’t have to stop myself from rubbing my face in her softness. Her scent was strong here too and I used my arms to push her down on my dick, making her nails dig into my shoulders again.

My eyes were open but I couldn’t see a thing. I was too lost in her, in the way she pulsed around me like she wanted to milk every drop of cum from me I had.

I may not be experienced, but I wasn’t ignorant. I liked to read and obviously I had to take everything I learned from romance books with a grain of salt, but the basic principles were there. I could use them to see what it was Frankie liked and needed.

She was so responsive too. Fluttering around me when I rolled my hips to grind her against me. The clitoris was her most sensitive spot, but she liked having me inside her nearly as much.

My knot was also something she wanted. Even though she was an alpha. I didn’t know why or how it would work, but if that’s what she wanted, I had every intention of giving it to her.

Rocking her against me did more than thrusting, but she was starting to get antsy so I eased up and she started sliding up and down my shaft again.

It was so fucking good I couldn’t help myself. I grabbed her hips and helped her ride me until I was about to fucking come all over again.

She was too good at this.

Between her practiced movements and the way she kept squeezing me, I was a goner.

“Come with me,” I practically begged, looking up to find her watching me again. “Please, Frankie. Let me feel you.”

She trembled above me as if she were still holding back and I felt a growl escape me again.

Pressing my thumb to her clit wasn’t a conscious thought. It was the only thing I could do that wouldn’t scare her but would still give me the results I wanted.

Frankie tried to push my hand off her, but I refused to move.

Rubbing against that little bundle of nerves, keeping time with her movements, I watched as she started to fall apart above me. Her head tipped back and her nails sliced into my flesh, but the sounds of pleasure she was making were exactly what I needed.

I needed to see her like this and know I was the one making her feel good enough to let go – to relax and enjoy herself.

Her lavender scent grew stronger, wrapping around me like she wanted to choke me to death before I could accomplish what I wanted, but I don’t think she understood that her pheromones were the reason we were in this mess in the first place.

“There you go,” I managed as I stroked my thumb over her again and again. “I can feel how close you are…hah, you make me crazy .”

I shoved her down and sank my teeth into her arm as I came, unable to hold back anymore when the scent of her desire was all around me. I didn’t stop moving my thumb though, stroking her through a violent orgasm that felt like she was going to rip me apart.

The pleasure felt so good it actually hurt and I groaned against her chest, jerking up into her over and over again.

I couldn’t stop. Didn’t know how. All I knew was I had to keep going. I had to chase this fleeting sensation until I was satisfied she had every piece of me I could give.

No shower could wash my scent away when I was done with her. Nothing could undo the way my pheromones affected hers until we were finally one. Then the whole world would know she didn’t need anyone else.

Just me.

No beta or alpha or omega would walk past her and think she was available.

They’d all smell me .

I wanted to knot her. I wanted to knot her so bad I might just die if I didn’t.

Sliding my thumb into her was stupid, but she didn’t freak out over the intrusion even though my dick was still inside her.

“Soren…what are you doing?”

I looked up to see her eyes were closed. She was still shaking and pulsing around me, but she didn’t seem annoyed or afraid. She just looked exhausted.

“Did you think we were done?” I slipped my thumb out and rubbed my cum against her clit in slow, smooth strokes.

She was the one panting now, holding on to me for dear life.

I don’t know how I managed it, but I held completely still as I watched her shaking and shivering above me as I kept the same pace, rubbing her just right based on her response.

“Does it feel good?”

Her eyes opened and the way she looked at me was different from before.

“It feels good,” she murmured, jerking against me when I pressed my thumb down on her clit. “You feel good. So good .”

The way her pheromones danced with mine had my mouth watering.

“Do you think you can come again?” I wanted her to, but I didn’t know how this worked with two alphas.

She wasn’t an omega who could come like it was nothing and she wasn’t in rut, but I could still try my best to make her come as many times as possible.

I wanted her to feel so good she’d want me even when my rut was over.

Her breath caught when I started rubbing her clit again and she pressed against me. “Maybe…I think? Ugh, Soren. I—I want to move.”

I forgot I was holding her down. I must have been using more strength than I thought but I couldn’t say I was upset about it when it made her act like this.

“Come for me,” I whispered, looking up at her like a man seeing god for the first time. “Come for me and you can do whatever you want with me.”

I was throbbing all over again, ready to come without moving just from the way she looked so drunk with the pleasure I was giving her.

“Anything?” she asked.

“Anything,” I confirmed, pressing down on her clit again and holding my thumb there.

I didn’t expect her to cry out or try to get closer and it had me fucked up .

“Okay, maybe not anything,” I muttered as I slid my thumb inside her again. “You’re making me stupid, Frankie. So stupid I’m convinced you can take my knot.”

“Oh god,” she whined, her pussy clamping down on me when I stretched her just a little bit more to see if it was even possible.

I gripped the back of her neck and forced her to rock against me, driving up into her every time her hips hit mine.

Wrapping my arm around her waist held her in place and I fucked up into her like a man possessed. I don’t know if it was supposed to feel like this with another alpha, but she just felt so fucking good I never wanted to stop.

The sounds between us were loud and obscene. All her sweet slick slid out of her with every thrust and my cum kept oozing out, covering me in our mixed fluids.

“Soren…please.” She grabbed my hair and held onto me so tight I knew she was close again. “I want it. I want your knot.”

I bit down on my wrist instead of her neck as I came again, filling her up like I hadn’t just done this.

The scent of my blood seemed to affect her almost as much as my pheromones and this time, she screamed .

Frankie screamed my name as she came for me, looking so fucking pretty I couldn’t stand it.

I shoved her hips down and there was only a little resistance before my primary knot slipped inside her.

It was so tight. So good. She surrounded me in every possible way and I couldn’t get enough of it.

“Fuck, you took me so well,” I murmured against her shoulder. “You feel so good, Frankie. So perfect.”

She was shaking, but there didn’t seem to be any pain.

Kissing her throat, I slid my hand up and down her spine, trying to soothe her. “Are you okay?”

Frankie pressed her forehead against mine and blinked heavily before finally focusing on me. “I’m okay. Are you?”

Her lips were so full, just begging to be kissed.

“I’m fine,” I promised, rubbing my nose against hers instead of kissing her like I wanted to. “Why wouldn’t I be?”

“I’m an alpha,” she reminded me. “It can get a little…tight in there.”

“Are you going to lock me down?” My dick pulsed at the thought of it.

She gave me a sleepy little smile. “Why does it sound like you want it?”

“Because then you can’t get away.” I kissed one cheek and then the other, wishing she’d just ask already.

“It’s not like I can go anywhere now.” Frankie closed her eyes and hugged me tight. “Are you sure this is your first time?”

I couldn’t stop myself from grinning even if I wanted to. “Yeah, I’m sure. Why do you ask?”

“You’re way too good at this.” Frankie sighed and rubbed her cheek against mine like she was scent marking. “It’s unfair.”

Unfair?

No, what was unfair was how she had me all fucked up and coming over and over again like a teenage boy. It was fucking ridiculous but she smelled amazing and the feel of her was just too fucking good.

“I read a lot,” I told her. “I promise you’re my first.”

Her eyes popped open and she suddenly drenched me with her pheromones. The lavender was so thick I could barely breathe but I didn’t want to. Why would I when she was feeling so possessive and territorial over me?

Frankie liked that she was my first.

“Do you want more?” She raised an eyebrow at me and wiggled her hips. “Or is that all you’ve got?”

I groaned and buried my face in her neck. “You have to wait for my knot to deflate.”

Tickling her scent glands with my lips had her shivering again and I slid my gaze to my nightstand, worried she might get dehydrated. “Would you like some water first?”

“No. I want you .”

I looked up and there was something weird about her eyes but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it.

“You have me,” I reminded her. “You can have water too. This isn’t a one or the other kind of deal.”

Leaning over to grab the water bottle off my nightstand made her whine and I froze.

Have I ever heard her make such a sexy, needy sound before?

Her pheromones were getting thicker and it was making me feel like I was about to lose my shit all over again. My thoughts got hazy and my skin burned with the fever of my rut. I couldn’t do anything with her knotted to me though.

All I could do was hold on to her.

“Frankie, I’m not going anywhere.”

The way she stared at me…

There was so much emotion in her eyes but it didn’t feel like she was really seeing me. I couldn’t be bothered to care though. Not when she held my face and looked at me the same way I imagined a lover would.

“Soren.”

The way she said my name with her velvety voice felt like a siren’s song. I was totally and utterly entranced. She was the only thing I could see and it felt like I was drowning in her big blue eyes.

They were so dark and deep it scared me a little, but it was also comforting. Peaceful.

Her nails dug into the back of my neck as she brought my face closer to hers. “ Deflate your knot, Soren .”

The alpha command washed over me like a wave and the current sucked me under.

I didn’t necessarily feel compelled to do as she commanded, but that look in her eyes…I wanted to obey. I was actually desperate to do exactly as she demanded just so I could see how pleased it would make her.

Getting my body to obey her during a rut might be physically impossible, but I was going to do my best and at least try.

I reached down between us and tried to wrap my hand around my base, but there just wasn’t enough space. I couldn’t force it down and the thought of not being able to do what she wanted had me all over the place emotionally.

Fear that she’d regret doing this. Physical pain when I tried to squash my knot. Anxiety that her patience was running out?—

“Shh.” Her arms wrapped around me, burying my face in her chest.

Her soft tits were suffocating, but I couldn’t think of a better way to go out.

“If you deflate your knot, I’ll get on my hands and knees for you,” she whispered. Her cool breath made me shiver. “So be a good boy and release me.”

“I don’t know how.” I pressed my face into her and bit down on one of her nipples, unable to help myself.

“Just relax.”

She pushed me down and I stared up at her, drowning in her deep blue eyes. Her expression was sharp and hungry. Her hair draped around her shoulders and covered her breasts, the messy curls making her look almost vengeful.

In that moment, it clicked. I finally understood what Leo was talking about.

My body would be forever changed thanks to her.

She’s altered my chemistry and I could no longer survive anywhere but the deep, blue sea.

I may not have realized it, but she’d ensnared me on day one, drawing me into a watery nightmare where reality bends and nightmares come alive.

My knot finally deflated and Frankie gave me a sharp, predatory grin. I realized then just how deep the water was. How peaceful it could be.

She held me close and somehow, I just knew.

I knew she’d never let me go.