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Nex

I don’t know what made me invite Brenden and Audrey to dinner. The question kind of popped out before I really had a chance to think about what I was doing.

I wasn’t lying when I said I missed them and that being away from them was killing me. It had been easier when I saw Audrey in my classes than when I was avoiding her and the rest of her mates.

But there’s a reason I was avoiding them. I just can’t seem to recall it right now.

Dinner was amazing—not just the food but the company as well. I’m just not ready to say goodbye yet because I know I still can’t have them.

The last few hours with them haven’t changed my situation. As much as I’d love to believe Audrey’s the cure to my curse, I can’t take that chance. I can’t hurt either of them like that. What if being with me ends up with her dead?

She wouldn’t be the first of my lovers to end up dead.

And if not her, then what if it’s Brenden? I can’t watch her lose him. Anyone with eyes can see how much he means to her.

But couldn’t I mean just as much to her if I just tried?

I shake my head, trying to push away those thoughts. Having hope is only going to end up with someone hurt. I thought I gave that up a long time ago, and I don’t know why it’s suddenly trying to rear its head. I know better than to hope for anything. All it does is lead to pain—a pain I caused myself.

My eyes find Audrey as she laughs at whatever Brenden just said. I hope she doesn’t find herself in a similar situation as me after she kills Michael.

Wren’s final is in two days, and I know their plan was to do it then. I don’t know if that’s changed at all now that I’m no longer being included in it. Nor should I be after the way I spoke to Audrey.

I’ve been fucking terrible to her. I hate myself for every single foul word that fell from my mouth, but it did what I set out to accomplish—sending her far, far away from me.

It’s why I’m surprised that she was the one to agree to dinner. I also hadn’t expected Brenden to threaten to kill me. Or the way my cock throbbed as he did so, flashing me his fangs.

I’ve spent a lot of time wondering what it would feel like to have them buried in my neck while he fucked me with his cock.

Shit. And there goes my dick again.

It’s been hard practically since I saw the two of them, but that’s nothing new. Even when I pretended to want nothing to do with her, the sight of her always had me growing hard. It’s a little embarrassing to be popping a boner like a teenager again, but there doesn’t seem to be any way to avoid it.

My body wants what it wants, even if my mind knows we shouldn’t go there.

“So, ummm…” Audrey looks nervous as she glances from me to Brenden and back again. “This is awkward.”

“I missed something, didn’t I?” I shake my head, an apologetic grin on my face. “I’m sorry. I was just thinking about something and just quit listening.”

Brenden arches his brow. “Oh? Care to share?”

Hell no, I don’t care to share, but somehow, the words just fall out of my mouth. “I was thinking about how hard I got when you threatened to kill me. Then I was imagining you biting me while you fucked me. After that, I was thinking about how inconvenient it is to pop a boner every time I see either of you.”

I stare at them, bewildered over why I told them that. Those were inside thoughts, not outside thoughts.

What the fuck?

“Brenden! Did you just make him do that?” Audrey slaps his arm.

The asshole doesn’t even bother to look repentant as he smirks. “Maybe.”

“I guess I deserve that.” I shake my head. “So, what were you saying?”

Audrey looks nervous again. “We’re staying in the city tonight. We have a room at The Hellfire Lounge. I thought you might want to come over and have a drink with us?”

All I can do is blink at them as my brain implodes.

They’re inviting me back to their hotel room? And I don’t think they’re inviting me for a nightcap.

My first response is to say no. I know I’m playing with fire here, but I don’t want to say no.

I want to say yes more than anything else.

“Are you sure? I don’t want to take advantage or whatever.” I shake my head, feeling like an idiot.

Audrey bites her lip as she nods, and when my eyes find Brenden’s once more, he also nods.

Gods, this is such a bad idea. I should say no, but I’m so weak when it comes to the two of them. Staying away from them has been the worst kind of torture.

“Then, yes. I’d love to.”

I’m an idiot, and I know I’m going to regret doing this, but I don’t have it in me to deny them tonight. Whatever they want, it’s theirs—at least for tonight.

We take care of the bill quickly before Audrey grabs both of us and shadow walks us into the hotel lobby. Brenden heads for the front counter while she drags me further into the dark corner we just exited. She pulls on my shirt and loops her arm around my neck, yanking me down to kiss me.

I forget every reason why this shouldn’t happen the moment her lips touch mine. It’s never felt like this when I kissed someone before. It’s euphoric.

My hands fall to her ass, lifting her and pulling her against me as I deepen the kiss. There’s no way she’s missing how hard my cock is as I rock her against it.

“As hot as it is to watch the two of you dry hump in public, everyone’s watching. Not that I mind. I’m all for some exhibition from time to time, but I do have our room key.”

We break apart, panting. Brenden’s smirking as he leans against the wall beside me. It takes a moment for his words to register.

I clear my throat. “Right. Yes.”

“Room number?” Audrey asks as she lays her hand on his arm.

“1369,” he says, still smirking.

He barely gets the number out before we’re traveling through the shadows and directly into our room.

“Now, where were we?” she asks before attacking my lips once more.

Everything gets a little blurry from there. It’s hard to think when she’s kissing me like this and grinding her cunt against my cock.

Eventually, I find myself on the bed with both of them, all our clothes discarded as they kiss.

I groan, squeezing my cock as I watch them run their hands over each other’s bodies. Individually, they’re both beautiful, but together? Together, they’re a fucking masterpiece.

I’m not sure how to slot myself in with them. They’ve been together for months—nearly a damn year at this point. They share a familiarity that I don’t have.

Fuck. I’m happy just to sit here and watch the two of them fuck if that’s what they want. It certainly wouldn’t be a hardship.

“Why are you all the way over there?” Audrey asks as they break apart.

“I wasn’t sure…” I trail off. “Yeah, I’m just not sure.”

Audrey tenses. “About this? About us?”

“No. Not that. I just don’t know how to do this.” I snort. “I’ve never had a threesome.”

Brenden smirks. “An incubus who’s never had a threesome? Well, that definitely needs to be remedied. I have an idea. Why don’t I share what I’m thinking, and we see what the two of you think?”

“Okay. Yes,” I say quickly, which only makes his smirk grow as Audrey nods.

“What I’d really like to do is fuck you into Audrey.” There’s a predatory look in his eyes as a shiver runs through my body.

I just nod frantically, which makes him chuckle.

“He’s enthusiastic about that, Brenden. I think that’s a brilliant idea,” Audrey says as she scoots up the bed to settle against the pillows before curling her finger at me.

I move to her eagerly, pausing when Brenden curses. “What?”

“I don’t have any lube.” He shoots me an apologetic look. “I haven’t really needed to carry it with me.”

I toss him a smirk before continuing toward Audrey. “I guess it’s good that incubi are self-lubricating then, huh?”

Brenden groans. “Fuck, yes. I’ve always wanted to fuck a cubi.”

Reaching Audrey, I cage her in with my arms and body as I crawl over her. I lean down and kiss her, mumbling against her lips. “Fuck. There are so many things I want to do to you—with you. Both of you.”

“There’s plenty of time. We have forever.” She says it hesitantly as if she’s afraid I’m going to change my mind.

I give her a small smile. “Yes, we do, don’t we?”

Her face lights up as she drags me down for another kiss. My cock slides between her slick folds, and I can’t help thrusting against them. I’m too desperate for her—for them.

“I can’t do slow or drag this out,” I admit. “I’m so desperate for you.”

“Fuck me, Nex.”

Well, fuck. If that isn’t a turn-on, I don’t know what the hell is.

Reaching between us, I grasp my cock and notch it at her entrance before slowly pushing into her. My head falls forward as I bury myself in her. Nothing has ever felt so right in my life. She’s so wet, so tight, so perfect.

This right here is where I belong—my cock buried in her pussy.

I kiss her once more as I draw out of her before ramming into her once more. I love the way her tits bounce as I do it again and again.

And the sounds she makes? They’re fucking heaven.

I freeze when a hand runs down my back, having completely forgotten that Brenden was here.

I’m such a fucking asshole.

I bite back a groan as he presses a finger into my ass, then a second. I grind into Audrey as he fucks me on his fingers. It feels so fucking good—his fingers in my ass while I’m in her pussy.

Fucking hell. I’m never going to last.

“Mmmm, this self-lubricating thing is amazing. You’re always ready to be fucked. A guy could get used to this.” Brenden laughs, sounding a little manic as he removes his fingers.

Then his hard cock is pressing against me, easily slipping inside me and filling me to the brim.

I lied earlier. This is where I belong—between the two of them, with my cock in Audrey and Brenden’s in me.

When he pulls out and slams back into me, Audrey and I both moan. It feels fucking amazing as he fucks me slow and deep—except it isn’t enough.

I thrust my hips back to meet his before plunging back into Audrey, essentially fucking myself on his cock as I fuck her.

Yes. This is what I need. This is what I’m desperate for.

Surprisingly, Brenden allows me to take control as I fuck them both faster and harder with each movement of my hips.

My fingers are clumsy as they reach between me and Audrey, but I find her clit with no problem. Sending out a burst of pheromones, I smile as they both moan and buck against me. All it takes to send Audrey over the edge is one little pinch to her clit.

Her back bows off the bed as she screams, and her pussy grips my cock. My movements grow more rapid and less controlled with each passing moment as I feel Audrey’s magic brush against mine.

Knowing we’re not ready for that, I yank my magic back into me, coming as it rolls through me.

“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.”

Brenden’s teeth sink into my neck as he pulls on my blood, and I come again—somehow even harder than the last time. I grind my hips against Audrey and she explodes for a second time as Brenden fills my ass.

I’m an incubus, so I know pleasure. I’ve experienced it personally, and I’ve felt it through others. But it’s never been like this. This is almost overwhelming with how good it feels.

I collapse on top of Audrey as Brenden releases me, his tongue sliding across the bite seductively and sending another shiver through my body. There’s just something so sensual about it.

I can’t help fucking into Audrey as I come again. I don’t know how I do it, but I drag Audrey right along with me on this one, too.

Once I still, I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to move ever again. I don’t think I want to move ever again. Maybe we can stay like this forever.

Yeah, that seems like a good idea.

I’m practically thrumming with energy after all those orgasms—both mine and theirs. Sex before bed for an incubus is a bad idea. We can’t help feeding when we’re having sex, so it leaves us high on power.

“As blissfully happy as I am at this moment, if the two of you don’t get off me, I’m going to pee in the bed.” Audrey pushes against my chest, and I lift off her as much as I can with Brenden’s weight pressing down on me.

“We definitely don’t want that, firecracker.” Brenden laughs as he moves off me, his cock slapping against my ass and leaving a trail of cum and lubricant in its path.

I shake my head as I sit up, biting back my own laughter when Audrey practically darts to the bathroom.

Brenden collars my neck with his hand and yanks me in for a kiss. My cock perks up, already hardening against my thigh.

“I’m going to take a shower. Are you two going to join me or just keep making out?” Audrey calls, and we break apart with a laugh.

Clearly, we choose to shower with her. None of us can keep our hands off each other, and we each get another orgasm. Well, Audrey gets three because I can’t stop eating mine and Brenden’s cum out of her pussy.

By the time we make it back to the bed, the two of them can barely keep their eyes open as they surround me on the bed.

“Thank you,” Audrey mumbles, her eyes already shut. “Love you.”

My heart wrenches in my chest.

“Love you,” Brenden returns, and I’m not sure if they’re only speaking to each other or me too. I bite my lip hard to keep the words from escaping my mouth, my mind already swirling.

It doesn’t take that long for the two of them to fall asleep as they cling to me. I envy the way they’re able to just fall asleep so easily.

Meanwhile, my brain is working overtime—reminding me why this was such a terrible idea. What we all stand to lose from my moment of weakness.

Or moments of weakness, if you will, because it wasn’t just one that led to me sleeping with the two of them. At least Audrey and I didn’t complete the mate bond. That would’ve been disastrous.

I lay there, agonizing over what a mistake I’ve made until I’m sure I won’t wake them when I disentangle myself from them.

This should never have happened. All it’s going to do is make everything worse.

Tears form behind my eyes as I slowly climb off the bed. A sigh of relief escapes me when they don’t wake up.

At least that’s one less thing to worry about. I’m not sure I could face them and tell them this was a mistake—that no matter how much I told them I wanted this, we shouldn’t have done it. That it changes nothing.

I’ve told Audrey on more than one occasion that there’s no happy ending in store for us. There isn’t.

I don’t deserve to be happy.

I don’t deserve them.

They’re going to hate me after this. I know they will, but I don’t have a choice. I have to do this.

It’s to keep them safe.

I’m not even sure if I believe my lies anymore.

Or is it that I don’t know how to separate my lies from the truth anymore?

Shaking my head, I find my clothes and dress as quickly as I can. The faster I get out of here, the better. Even knowing that, I can’t help pausing in the doorway to look back at them. They look so happy right now, but once they wake, they’ll be devastated.

Am I doing the right thing? Or am I just doing the only thing I know how to do?

No. I can’t worry about how they’ll feel when they wake up. I need to get away while I can.

I stumble into the seating area, my lungs constricting and pain coursing through me with every step I take away from them. I’m almost to the door when I see the pen and pad of paper on the table.

Without a thought, I change course. I scribble out a quick note, not knowing if it’s going to help or hurt things, but I can’t leave without saying something. I just can’t.

Audrey and Brenden,

I’m sorry. I never should’ve let this happen. Know it’s not either of you but me. I didn’t mean to hurt you, but I know I will. If I allow this to continue, it’ll just be worse. I’ll ask Wraith to reassign me to one of the other horsemen, so you never have to see me again.

Be happy.

Nex

It’s harder than it should be to force myself to stand up and walk away.

This is the best choice.

No. It’s the only choice.

I was meant to live a miserable life, but I wish I hadn’t dragged them down with me.

I should’ve stayed away.