Page 9 of Apricity (Devil Dogs of the Apocalypse)

Alessandra

Holy fuck balls that was amazing. The ropes, the blindfold, the headphones. I had no idea what was about to happenor what angle it was going to be coming from, let alone from whom.

I remember, once, a long time ago, when I went to an amusement park.

They had a roller coaster hidden in a giant building, completely in the dark.

I couldn’t see a damn thing. I had an idea of what was about to occur, prepared myself as best as I could for what was about to happen but nothing could have prepared me for what actually did.

The last half hour was exactly that times one thousand.

My blood, filled with adrenaline, was pumping so hard I’m lightheaded in the aftermath. Dizzy with lust. My brain feels like it’s swimming in my skull from over-stimulation.

“This is the best feeling ever.”

Cole chuckles but speaks softly. His words caress my ears and relax me even more into his chest. “That’s the adrenaline. I have a strong feeling that if we pushed you any further, you would have gone right into subspace and we haven’t had that talk yet.”

Subspace? There’s something beyond what I’m feeling right now? I can’t help but ask, “What’s subspace?”

Cole’s fingers drift lazily up and down my naked skin as he explains. “Subspace is almost like an out of body experience. Imagine the feeling of floating on a cloud or flying. It’s an emotional and psychological result brought on by an adrenaline and endorphin flood to the body.”

Like floating… adrenaline. I’ve felt an adrenaline rush before but nothing like what he’s describing.

“It can be a bit overwhelming for a person to experience before knowing it exists.” His arms come around me, hugging me from behind as he starts rocking leisurely. “It can also be dangerous. The sensations dull you to any other stimuli. Pain, sometimes, doesn’t even register.”

Both Jax's and Hawk’s heads shoot up at that, their protective natures coming to the forefront. Hawk tilts his head to the side. “That’s why you were watching her the whole time instead of joining in with us. If she went to this… subspace … she wouldn’t have been able to voice her safe words. ”

“Or even realize that she should….” Cole nods in return.

“You were protecting her... the whole time.” Jax grasps Cole’s shoulder, moving him back just enough until Cole looks up into his eyes.

They don’t speak. Not a word from either of them until Jax nods approvingly to Cole behind me. I hear Cole sigh in response.

“You too often put the responsibility of protecting all of us solely on your own shoulders. The heaviness of such an act can tear a person apart over time. Even lose themselves. I can’t let that happen to you.

To any of us.” Cole squeezes my arm before trailing his fingers down to mine, twining them together.

“I may not be the strongest like you, Jax. Or the fastest like Hawk is known to be. But I can sure as hell watch after my own. And my own is all of you.”

Jax drops his arm from Cole’s shoulder, looking back at Hawk then back to me and Cole. “But what if—”

“No, what ifs . Lay down your burdens, Jax. We’re a family for a reason.

But enough talking about you.” Cole clasps his hand around Jax’s shoulder in return, shaking it a little before letting him go and turning back to me, effectively ending that conversation for now and getting back to Cole’s original focus.

“We’re here in this moment to see what our beautiful woman thought of her sensory deprivation and I will not tolerate anymore derailments from the discussion's focus. ”

“Um, well…” I’m not sure where to start, still slightly overwhelmed. Not to mention, Cole’s hands keep ghosting over my skin and it’s very distracting.

“Use your words like the good Doc told you, sweetheart,” Hawk croons as he settles in between my bent legs, taking one of my feet in his hands and planting it in his lap, massaging as he speaks. Licking my lips, I focus and take a deep breath.

“I um, I really liked the ropes. Like… really liked them.”

“Details, baby. We need details. What was it about them that made you like it so much,” Jax asks from next to me as he takes my hand in his.

“Well… I guess it was because I didn’t need to think. I didn’t need to second guess what each of you might like. Didn’t need to think about what I should do next or overthink what one of you might attempt next. I just had to… be. It was freeing… if that makes sense.”

“It makes complete sense… and it further proves that you are, in fact, a sub or a bottom, in a sense.

You aim to please.And, by putting the choices in our hands, you're guaranteeing we'll do what we enjoy and want in the moment. I already know you have a praise kink. I’m pretty sure the guys know of it as well.”

He’s not wrong. I’m not sure if it’s because I wasn’t told good job enough as a child but just hearing one of the guys give me praise is enough to have me needing new undies. Come to think of it.. .

“I also liked being used... like a toy, being called your toy. It seemed to make you all happy and that made me happy, regardless of how demeaning it may have seemed.” I scrunch my nose. “Is that wrong?”

“Absolutely fucking not. You like what you like and that’s all there is to it. All we can do is determine if we want to join in your fun or not. But as far as calling you our little fuck doll... I’m enthusiastically willing,” Cole replies with a smile befitting his enthusiasm.

“Me too! Add that shit on my sheet, too!” Hawk jumps in, pointing frantically to himself .

Silly rabbit, did he think we were going to leave him out?

Jax takes another second before timidly agreeing as well. “Yeah... I can do that.”

“You can do more than do that, bro. Practically foaming at the mouth when Cole said all that shit,” Hawk says to Jax.

The jab earns Hawk a punch to the gut. “Ok, ok. I’ll stop,” he wheezes out as Jax continues to put him in various chokeholds.

Cole simply shakes his head at them and continues, his mind focused completely on my pleasure.

“What about the sensory deprivation?”

“I liked that too. Maybe not as much as the ropes but it did get my adrenaline going as you said. Or maybe that was just from the ropes. I’m not really sure. But not knowing what was coming next was definitely exciting.”

Cole nods at that. “And anything specific you’d like to share? ”

Ah fluff and stuff...well here goes nothing.

“Um... I liked it I when Jax choked me with his...” I raise my eyebrows, indicating without actually saying it but Cole won’t let that fly.

“Go on... say it. I know you can say the dirty words, beautiful. Be a good girl and do it for us. We’re dying to hear all the naughty bits."

Ah fuck, just spit it out you filthy bitch!

“I liked being choked on Jax’s cock.” All of a sudden, Hawk and Jax stop wrestling and simultaneously turn to me, eyes zeroed in.

“Well don’t stop now, sweetheart. You’re just getting to the good stuff,” Hawk says as he crawls back to me on all fours. Cole’s wandering hand starts to drift down to my core once again, playing with my clit as I speak.

“I liked the way it felt as it pushed to the back of my mouth and down my throat.”

He continues coaxing another orgasm out of me as the others look on and I’m powerless to his ministrations.

“The way I couldn’t breathe from it…” The same way I’ve lost my breath once again, on the verge of another cataclysmic event as Cole presses two fingers deep within my soaking pussy, not paying any mind that it's currently overflowing with Hawk's cum. “The sense that I’d lost complete control but trusted each of you entirely with how you were treating me.” My whole body seizes once again, head to toe, my release taking over my entire being as my ba ck arches and convulses to the rhythm of the pleasure Cole’s fingers pull from me.

“Fuck yes, beautiful. That was perfect,” Cole says, helping me ride the wave before bringing his mouth down to my ear, purring with temptation. “If you’re up for it, I, actually, have another rope tie I’ve been imagining on you. If you’d allow me, I’d love to wrap you up once again.

“Yes... please.” I practically beg for it but I can feel my eyes start to droop as my body melts further into Cole’s. I didn’t realize how tired I was from earlier but now that I’m finally able to breathe normally, my body feels like it's shutting down.

Cole notices like he always seems to do and chuckles softly. “Maybe another time, pretty girl.” He kisses the crown of my head. Even at my mild protests he tilts his head to Jax. “Hey man, do you mind grabbing me that brush and few damp washcloths from the bathroom?”

“On it.” Jax stands, kisses my forehead, and leaves our little circle to get the items.

“Such a good girl for us,” Hawk whispers, drawing my eyes to where his fingers circle the bones in my ankle, sending tingles everywhere.

He looks at me adoringly, the love we share for one another is showcased in his eyes as he drinks me in.

His little touches have become a regular thing lately and I love them as much as I do him.

“Here ya go, Doc,” Jax says as he returns. Cole takes the brush, as well as one of the washcloths while Jax keeps the others and works with Hawk to clean up the messes they left on me .

“Alright, beautiful. You did such a good job today.” Cole says softly, almost purring with his low, gravelly tone.

He quickly wipes his hands on the washcloth before he lifts the brush and starts to release the tangles in my hair.

The bristles send sharp zings down my spine with each pass, causing me to release a sigh as my eyes drift close.

“Love you sweet girl.” My hand is raised, lips faintly touching my knuckles.

“Love you baby doll.” He kisses my forehead, nuzzling a moment after.

“I love you my beautiful darling.” The whispers meant just for me stir the unruly hair around my ear just before he kisses the juncture between my neck and shoulder.

They each take their time, praising me, caressing me in their own ways as I slowly drift off to a blissful sleep in their arms.

“Love you…”