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"Yeth," she said, her small head bobbing. She sat with her short, strong fingers crushing her skirt in her lap, the way Garp had seen her daughter crinkle her clothes--the child would sometimes roll her skirt, like a window shade, right up above her panties (though Alice stopped short of this).

"Was it an accident?" Garp asked her. "Your speech problem. Or were you born with it?"

"Born with," Alice said. The car stopped at the Fletchers' house and Alice tugged Garp's arm. She opened her mouth and pointed inside, as if this would explain everything. Garp saw the rows of small, perfect teeth and a tongue that was fat and fresh-looking like the tongue of a child. He could see nothing peculiar, but it was dark in the car, and he wouldn't have known what was peculiar if he'd seen it. When Alice closed her mouth, he saw she was crying--and also smiling, as if this act of self-exposure had required enormous trust. Garp nodded his head as if he understood everything.

"I see," he mumbled. She wiped her tears with the back of one hand, squeezed his hand with her other.

"Harrithon is having an affair," she said.

Garp knew that Harry wasn't having an affair with Helen, but he didn't know what poor Alice thought.

"Not with Helen," Garp said.

"Na, na," Alice said, shaking her head. "Thumone elth."

"Who?" Garp asked.

"A thtudent!" Alice wailed. "A thtupid little twat!"

It had been a couple of years since Garp had molested Little Squab Bones, but in that time he had indulged himself in one other baby-sitter; to his shame, he had even forgotten her name. He felt, honestly, that baby-sitters were an appetite he was forever through with. Yet he sympathized with Harry--Harry was his friend, and he was an important friend to Helen. He also sympathized with Alice. Alice was alertly lovable; a kind of terminal vulnerability was clearly a part of her, and she wore it as visibly as a too-tight sweater on her compact body.

"I'm sorry," Garp said. "Can I do anything?"

"Tell him to thtop," Alice said.

It had never been hard for Garp to stop, but he had never been a teacher--with "thtudents" on his mind, or on his hands. Perhaps what Harry was involved with was something else. The only thing Garp could think of--that would perhaps make Alice feel better--was to confess his own mistakes.

"It happens, Alice," he said.

"Not to you," Alice said.

"Twice to me," Garp said. She looked at him, shocked.

"Tell the truth," she insisted.

"The truth," he said, "is that it happened twice. A baby-sitter, both times."

"Jesuth Chritht," said Alice.

"But they weren't important," Garp said. "I love Helen."

"Thith is important," Alice said. "He hurth me. And I can't white."

Garp knew about writers who couldn't white; this made Garp love Alice, on the spot.

"Fucking Harry is having an affair," Garp told Helen.

"I know," Helen said. "I've told him to stop, but he keeps going back for more. She's not even a very good student."

"What can we do?" Garp asked her.

"Fucking lust," Helen said. "Your mother was right. It is a man's problem. You talk to him."

"Alice told me about your baby-sitters," Harry told Garp. "It's not the same. This is a special girl."

"A student, Harry," Garp said. "Jesus Christ."

"A special student," Harry said. "I'm not like you. I've been honest, I've told Alice from the first. She's just got to accommodate it. I've told her she's free to do this, too."