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'The Freud I knew was eaten by a bear,' Arbuthnot said.

'No,' said Frank, 'the Freud you knew was a hero.'

'Not the Freud I knew,' old Arbuthnot argued, petulantly. His nurse caught some spittle dribbling off his chin and wiped him as absentmindedly as she might have dusted a table.

'The Freud we both know,' I said, 'saved the Vienna State Opera.'

'Vienna!' Arbuthnot cried. 'Vienna is full of Jews!' he yelled.

'There's more of them in Maine than there used to be,' Frank teased him.

'In L.A., too,' I said.

'I'm dying, anyway,' Arbuthnot said. 'Thank God.' He signed the documents on his chest and his lawyer handed them over to us. And that was how, in 1965, Frank bought the Arbuthnot-by-the-Sea and twenty-five acres on the coast of Maine. 'For a song,' as F

ranny would say.

An almost sky-blue mole was sprouting on old Arbuthnot's face and both his ears were painted a vivid purple with gentian violet, an old-fashioned fungicide. It was as if a giant fungus were consuming Arbuthnot from the inside out. 'Wait a minute,' he said, as we were leaving -- his chest made a watery echo of his words. His nurse plumped up his pillows again; his lawyer snapped a briefcase shut; the cold of the room, from all the purring air-conditioners, made the place feel, to Frank and me, like the tomb -- the Kaisergruft -- for the heartless Hapsburgs in Vienna. 'What are your plans?' Arbuthnot asked us. 'What in hell are you going to do with that place?'

'It's going to be a Special Commando Training Camp,' Frank told old Arbuthnot. 'For the Israeli Army.'

I saw Arbuthnot's lawyer crack a smile; it was the special sort of smile that would make Frank and me later look up the lawyer's name on the documents that had been handed over to us. The lawyer's name was Irving Rosenman, and despite the fact that he came from Los Angeles, Frank and I were pretty sure he was Jewish.

Old Arbuthnot didn't crack a smile. 'Israeli commandos?' he said.

'Ratta-tat-tat-tat-tat!' said Frank, imitating a machine gun. We thought that Irving Rosenman was going to throw himself into the air-conditioners to keep himself from laughing.

'The bears will get them,' Arbuthnot said, strangely. 'The bears will get all the Jews, in the end,' he said -- the mindless hatred in his old face was as old-fashioned and as vivid as the gentian violet in his ears.

'Have a nice death,' Frank told him.

Arbuthnot started coughing; he tried to say something more but he couldn't stop coughing. He motioned the nurse over to him and she seemed to interpret his coughing without very much difficulty; she was used to it; she motioned us out of Arbuthnot's room, then she came outside and told us what Arbuthnot had told her to tell us.

'He said he's going to have the best death money can buy,' she told us, which -- Arbuthnot had added -- was more than Frank and I were going to get.

And Frank and I could think of no message to give the nurse to pass on to old Arbuthnot. We were content to leave him with the idea of Israeli commandos in Maine. Frank and I said good-bye to Arbuthnot's nurse and to Irving Rosenman and we flew back to New York with the third Hotel New Hampshire in Frank's pocket.

'That's just where you should keep it, Frank,' Franny told him. 'In your pocket.'

'You'll never make that old place into a hotel again,' Lilly told Father. 'It's had its chance.'

'We'll start out modestly,' Father assured Lilly.

Father and I were the 'we' Father meant. I told him I'd go to Maine with him and help him get started.

'Then you're as crazy as he is,' Franny had told me.

But I had an idea I would never share with Father. If, as Freud says, a dream is the fulfillment of a wish, then -- as Freud also says -- the same holds true for jokes. A joke is also the fulfillment of a wish. I had a joke to play on Father. And I have been playing it, now, for more than fifteen years. Since Father is more than sixty years old now, I think it's fair to say that the joke 'came off'; it's fair to say that I have gotten away with it.

The last Hotel New Hampshire was never -- and never will be -- a hotel. That is the joke I have played on Father for all these years. Lilly's first book, Trying to Grow, would make enough money so that we could have restored the Arbuthnot-by-the-Sea; and when they made the movie version, we could have bought back the Gasthaus Freud, too. Maybe, by then, we could have afforded the Sacher; at least we could have bought the Stanhope. But I knew it wasn't necessary that the third Hotel New Hampshire be a real hotel.

'After all,' as Frank would say, 'the first two weren't real hotels, either.' The truth is, Father had always been blind, or Freud's blindness had proved to be contagious.

We had the debris cleaned off the beach. We had the 'grounds' more or less restored, which is to say we mowed the lawn again, and we even made an effort with one of the tennis courts. Many years later we put in a swimming pool, because Father liked to swim and it made me nervous to watch him in the ocean; I was always afraid he'd make a wrong turn and head out to sea. And the buildings that had been dormitories for the staff -- where Mother and Father and Freud had once resided? We simply removed them; we had the wreckers come and drag them away. We had the ground leveled, and we paved it. We told Father it was a parking lot, although we never had very many cars around.

We put our hearts into the main building. We put a bar where the reception desk had been; we turned that lobby into a huge game room. We were thinking of the dart board and the billiard tables in the Kaffee Mowatt, so I suppose it's accurate to say -- as Franny says -- that we converted the lobby to a Viennese coffeehouse. It led into what had been the hotel restaurant, and the kitchen; we just knocked down some walls and made the whole thing into what the architect called 'a kind of country kitchen.'

'A huge kind,' Lilly said.