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even go to his funeral.

"I expect you know about his death of course,

but you will have known it only as a family tragedy

and not, as you now do, as the death of the man who

was your true father

"The tears are rolling off my cheeks so fast, I

think I have to stop for a while. I wanted to tell you

about our wonderful night together, the one in which

you were created; however I'll save that for the next

letter

"Love can be so painful sometimes that I envy

Geraldine for being so hard. She once told me bitterly

that she didn't need to love anyone or have anyone

love her I know she was just speaking out of anger

and disappointment that she had never met anyone

who loved her dearly, passionately, but there are

times when I wish it had been true for me.

"And then I think how lonely she must be and I feel absolutely dreadful for her. The truth is every time I look at her I think of my own guilt. I am partly responsible for her misery and all the beautiful music and true feelings in the world can't erase that from my

heart. It's a scar

"You, you are the only hope I have for

redemption. Be wonderful, be someone full of love

and compassion, and never stop searching until you

find someone who fills your heart with so much joy

you can hardly breathe without him beside you. "I'd like to know I was responsible for that. "For now, Mother"

I put the letter down and looked at Misty. She

was wiping the tears from her cheeks.

"That was beautiful," she said. She sat up and

gazed at the letter. "So now you know who your

father is or was, I should say. What do you know

about him?"