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Delaney

One Month Later

“Laney,” Talon says as he gently shakes me.

“Mmmm,” I groan. “What?”

“Your mom is calling,” he says.

“What?” I ask, my eyes snapping open. “Mom?”

“She’s called four times already. Figured I’d let you decide if you want to answer,” he says as he hands me my phone. Jude sits up with me and Talon sits in front of me as I answer.

I am surprised she is calling. I haven’t spoken to her since before I left Logan. We texted a few times over the last three months because she was keeping me updated on Dad’s cancer, but that’s it. “Hello?” I answer. My eyes are mostly closed because I am exhausted, and it’s two in the morning.

“Delaney? Oh my God, baby. Your dad. He’s gone,” she says through quiet sobs.

“What? He’s…”

“Baby, I don’t have much time. Okay? I love you so much I am so sorry for not protecting you better. I’m so sorry, Delaney,” she says with a hushed tone that is bordering on hysterical.

“What’s going on, Mom?” I ask, placing the call on speakerphone. “What do you mean Dad is gone? Did he die?”

“He… he killed him. I ran, but they’re looking for me, Delaney. You have to stay safe, okay? He’s not going to give up. I am so sorry, baby. Please forgive me. Please. I don’t have much time.”

“What are you talking about, Momma?” I ask as I start to panic. “Momma? What’s happening?”

“L-Logan and V-Vince,” she whispers. “They’re h-here.”

“Momma, get out of the house, okay? You need to get out of the house,” I say as I start to cry. Talon is already on his phone and seconds after he sets his phone down, Rogue, Knox, and Torch come into the room. “Momma? Are you there? Please, keep talking to me.”

“I love you so much, Delaney. Never ever forget that. Your dad was a cruel man, but I should have fought harder for you. I shouldn’t have let him hurt you,” she says tearfully.

“Where are you, Momma? I can come to you. Just tell me where you are,” I cry.

“No,” she says firmly. “You stay away. He will hurt you. Let those boys take care of you.”

“Momma,” I sniffle. “Are you at home? How did they kill Dad?”

“They shot him. You weren’t supposed to escape them. You have to stay away from them, baby,” she says tearfully. “They’re coming.”

“Momma, I’m coming, okay? Just hide. Please hide, okay?” I say as I jump up. None of the guys hesitate to spring into action with me. I don’t know why I want to save her when she never saved me, but I have to try. I pull on shorts and we all rush out of the room. “You there, Momma? You’ve got to hide.”

“They’re getting closer,” she whimpers.

“Hide, Momma. Don’t let them find you,” I say as I start crying.

“I’m so sorry, Delaney. You deserved better than me,” she says quietly. “I love you, baby. Always.”

“No, Momma. Please hide!” I yell at her. All of a sudden, she starts screaming as I hear the phone drop to the floor.

“Oh fuck,” Talon says as we get into the SUV.

“Momma!” I scream at my phone. “Stop it! Goddamn it, stop!” Jude pulls me to his chest as Talon speeds down the road, but my phone starts making a noise to tell me that a video request is coming through. I immediately accept it but keep my camera off. “Please, don’t kill her. Please.”

The video loads and I nearly throw my phone when I see a man in a mask holding my mom down on her couch. Her screams are muffled as her face is pressed into the cushion. I recognize Vince right away as the man. “Her blood is on your hands,” a deep, almost distorted voice says.

“Please don’t hurt her, Logan. Please,” I beg.

“Stop! Please. Don’t. Please don’t,” Mom screams as Vince yanks her pajama pants down.

“Hold still, bitch,” Vince growls. I would know his voice from anywhere.

“No!” she says with a shrill scream as Vince slams into her and starts violently raping her anally. Rogue takes my phone, and I am in hysterics as Jude holds me tightly. I can still hear the sounds of skin slapping against skin, but it’s when her screams are gargled that rage slips in. I surprise myself and Jude when I abruptly go quiet. He pulls me back to cup my face and he understands.

“They will pay for this, Laney. I promise,” he says softly, and I nod.

I motion to Rogue to give me my phone back and I confirm that they are both raping her. She hasn’t stopped fighting once. They both finish and get off the couch to grab the phone that seems to be propped up on something. I don’t know which one is holding the phone, but they move over to the couch where my mom is on her back now.

I involuntarily scream when they suddenly shove a knife into her abdomen. Her scream is shrill as they twist and dig deeper before slowly dragging the serrated blade out of her. Tears are streaming down my face as hers drains of color. When the video abruptly ends, I am speechless for a moment. When I do manage to talk, my voice filled with rage as angry tears stream down my face. “They will fucking die for this,” I growl.

A few minutes later, we get to my parents’ house. I jump out and run to the door before anyone can stop me. There aren’t any cars in the driveway, so I assume no one is here. That might be an ignorant assumption to make, but it doesn’t stop me from nearly kicking the door in. Talon and Jude are right behind me as I rush to Mom who is lying on the floor.

“Momma, I’m here. I’m right here, Momma,” I say as she slowly drags her eyes open. “We’re gonna get you help, okay? You’ve got to hang on for me.”

“I won’t make it,” she chokes out. “I’m so sorry, baby girl. I’m sorry.”

“Are they gone?” I ask Rogue when he steps back into the living room.

“House is empty. Knox is calling for help,” Rogue says.

“Okay,” I say as I take my scarf off and press it to the wound on her abdomen. She grunts in pain but doesn’t speak. “You have to live, Momma.”

“Baby,” she says weakly as she brings her blood-covered hand to my cheek to wipe away falling tears. “I’m sorry I didn’t protect you better. Your father only recently admitted to what he had done to you… I was so wrapped in my own misery that I didn’t protect you.”

“It’s okay, Momma. I forgive you,” I say as I move from my knees to sitting on my bottom so I can pull her head into my lap. I gently stroke her hair, fully understanding that I’m about to lose my mother. I can deal with the emotions later, but I want to comfort her as she passes. I don’t want her to go with any regrets.

“Those boys good to you?” she asks softly. “You look h-happy.”

“They are,” I say with a forced smile. “I love them so much.”

“Good, baby. That’s good,” she says, rapidly weakening. Jude is the one trying to control the bleeding, but the damage is too severe. Her insides were shredded with that knife, and I know there is no coming back from this. There is blood everywhere and she is steadily losing more. “I love you… so much, Delaney. I wish I had been a better mother for you.”

“You did the best you could, Momma,” I reassure her. “I love you too. I’m sorry I never recognized that he was putting you through just as much.”

“I tried to hide the worst of it from you,” she sighs. “The will… it’s… We changed it… you get everything. Logan doesn’t know… Get it. You have to… Get it.”

“Momma, talk to me,” I say when her eyes flutter closed. When I lightly smack her cheek, she opens them.

“You get everything, baby. Get it before…” she says, but stops talking as she starts coughing. Blood oozes out of her mouth and more tears roll down my cheeks. I do my best to wipe her mouth to make it easier for her. “He’s going to come after you… Save yourself, baby.”

“I will, Momma,” I sniffle. “Don’t you worry about me. I have these boys to keep me safe.”

“Good,” she smiles weakly. “You aren’t required to be respectful of your dad.”

“What do you mean?” I ask.

“Cremate us,” she chokes out. “Put us together so I can haunt him in hell forever.”

“I will,” I say, trying to control my tears. “I love you, Momma. I’m right here. Okay? I’m not leaving you.”

“I love you too, baby,” she says as she starts to fade.

“I forgive you, Momma,” I say, hugging her to my chest. I am gently rocking us, trying to let her pass as peacefully as I can. When her body starts to relax and go limp in my arms, the tears flood out of me. Talon and Jude are at my side, rubbing my back as I sob. Nearly an hour passes before we hear approaching sirens. Clearly, they were not in a hurry to a save a dying woman. It all makes sense when Andrew and Katy walk into the house.

“Can I check her,” Katy says carefully as she squats down in front of me. I shake my head and hold onto Mom’s body tighter. “Delaney, I need to see if we can help her.”

“She’s dead,” I snap. “Forty-five minutes. It took forty-five minutes. You could have helped her before.”

“Delaney,” she says softly. “I need to check her.”

Talon and Jude gently take my mom from me before they make me stand up. “Where is he?” I ask.

“The kitchen,” Knox says.

“You can’t go in…” Andrew starts to say.

“Shut the fuck up,” I snap at him before continuing to walk into the kitchen. When I get in, I immediately find that my dad is lying on his back in the middle of the kitchen. He has a small bullet wound to the center of his head and blood is everywhere. “Jesus.”

“Too bad he didn’t suffer,” Talon remarks.

“He should have. I was looking forward to watching him slowly die of cancer,” I add. We walk back through the living room and there is a flood of police officers here. They take me out onto the front porch to sit down and the detectives join us.

“What happened?” Katy asks me.

“Mom called me in a panic. She said that they killed my dad, and they were going to kill me. She was hiding, I guess. She was apologizing for how terrible he was to me growing up. She remarked that they were getting closer to her. A few seconds later, she started screaming and the phone dropped. We had just got into the car when a video request came through.”

“Video?” Andrew asks.

“Yeah. She already had told me it was Logan and Vince. I couldn’t actually see them because they had masks on, but I recognize Vince’s voice when he started raping her and told her to stay still. The phone was propped up on something while they both violently raped her. They got the phone back and I watched as they stabbed her. It was a serrated blade and they twisted it inside of her. I knew the damage was bad but… I didn’t expect there to be so much blood when we got here. I was trying to keep pressure on the wound, but she was fading fast. I knew she wouldn’t make it, so I just held her. One of the guys checked the house to make sure they were gone,” I explain.

“Where were you at when you got the call?” Andrew asks.

“At home. I was asleep,” I say.

“And the others?”

“With me,” I say with a frown.

“Can you account for where they were the entire time?” he continues to question.

“Yes,” I snap. “You are not going to try to fucking pin this on anyone other than who did this. Vince and Logan Reid did this. She said they did it and I heard Vince.”

“We will look into it, but…” Katy starts to say.

“I swear to Christ, if you two idiots don’t do anything other than your goddamn job, I will make you fucking regret it. Vince and Logan did this,” I growl at her. “I don’t give a shit how much they’re paying you or what they have over you. They deserve to be punished for what they’ve done.”

“They have a history of violence,” Katy says. “You don’t think Talon would wipe out everyone you know to make sure you cannot escape him?”

“They didn’t do this,” I say angrily.

“Maybe not, but they have plenty of people working…”

“Stop it!” I scream at her. “I just held my mother while she fucking died. My rapist father is missing half of his goddamn head in my childhood kitchen. I am losing everything that I’ve ever known, and it hurts no matter what I do. You two have the fucking audacity to come here and try to blame them for this? I’m sitting here telling you who fucking did it. I heard his voice. She didn’t hesitate at all when she told me they did it. Either do something about it or I will.”

“Is that a threat?” Katy asks.

“I’ll show you a goddamn threat,” I snap. I go to stand up, but Jude quickly wraps his arms around my waist and sits me back down.

“We are going to take her home. You know where we live, and we aren’t leaving town,” Talon says. “We will get the medical examiner’s office the information on where to send their bodies when they are released for the funeral.”

“We will be in contact to interview everyone separately,” Andrews says.

“Our lawyer will be in touch,” Talon says before standing me up and pulling me off the porch.

“I don’t have a good feeling,” Torch says as we get into the SUV.

“Me either,” Talon says. “Get the will?

“Yeah,” Rogue says. “It was out on his desk.”

I am out of it by the time we get home. I am numb but also still angry. It’s a weird mix of feelings and I just want to relax. Jude pulls me out and into the house. “Take her up to the bathroom,” Talon says.

“Can we come up with you guys?” Rogue asks.

“Absolutely,” Talon says. “Is that okay, Laney?”

I nod and turn to the stairs. When I get to the bathroom, I just stare at myself in the mirror. I’m covered in dried blood. It’s on my face, neck, chest, arms, clothing, and hands. It’s everywhere. It’s proof that even in life, the dead linger. I don’t know if I’m sad that she’s dead or not. I never had a great relationship with her, and she clearly condoned a lot of awful things, but she didn’t deserve that. I’m glad that I was able to bring her a little peace before she died. I’m glad she didn’t die alone, but I’m fucking thrilled that my dad is dead. It doesn’t stop the anger because the only reason they are dead is because they did not fight that I’m with Talon. For the first time in my entire life, they accepted the decisions I made for myself and allowed me to live peacefully, and it killed them. My happiness killed my parents.

Talon turns me around so that I cannot see myself. He and Jude start undressing me while someone else starts the shower. Talon and Jude undress and get me into the shower and the hot water relaxes me. I look down and a sea of red is flooding down from my body. Jude lifts my chin to keep me from seeing it, but I close my eyes instead. They both take to thoroughly washing my body. I’m so mentally exhausted that I can’t function. I’m so goddamn angry that I feel like crawling out of my own skin. I know the pain that my mom experienced with that rape and there are not many people that I would wish that on.

Once the three of us are clean, they get me out. I’m surprised that Rogue is the one to dry me off, but it’s nice. I love how caring they all are being right now. Trauma makes me unbelievably horny, apparently, so it is admittedly fucking with my head to have them here right now.

“Look at me,” Talon says as he cups my face. “We are going to do something to help you relax, but I want you to speak up if you are uncomfortable.”

“What is it?” I ask.

“We are going to give you a massage, but it’s going to be a bit more… intimate,” he says. “I am including Chris, Adam, and Tony for this.”

“Oh. Government names. I see,” I say. He smiles and takes the towel from me before pointing to the bed. “Face up or down?”

“Depends on what you want everyone massaging,” Jude smirks. I smile before opting to lie face down. I have my arms down by my sides, and I turn to face Talon. Jude pulls my legs apart slightly as Talon drips something in my lower back.

“What is that?” I ask.

“It’s massage oil,” Talon tells me. “It is vanilla scented and flavored.”

“Oh, is that where this is headed?” I ask coolly.

“It’s headed wherever you let us take it,” Jude says.

“Be careful. I’ll make you all fuck me,” I mutter as I open my eyes to see everyone looking at me. “The way Chris, Adam, and Tony’s eyes lit up tell me they were lying about the whole sister thing.”

“Brat,” Chris says.

“The fact that you just called them by their name is pretty indicative of where your mind is,” Talon says as he flattens his palm on the small of my back before spreading the oil up my spine to my shoulders.

“Am I that obvious?” I ask.

“What is Ripper’s real name?” Jude asks.

“Fuck if I know,” I laugh.

“Exactly,” he smirks. “Just relax and let us take care of you. Things will go wherever you want them to, just slowly.”

“Mkay,” I sigh.

I close my eyes, and everyone puts their hands on me. They spread the oil all over and I don’t know who is who. Someone is massaging my shoulders, my upper and lower back, as well as each leg. I groan as I relax into the bed. Hands move to my ass and the hands on my thighs move inward and up to my pussy. I moan softly as I move to rest my head on my arms. The touches are indirect, but it’s close enough to drive me insane. They are rubbing and pressing on the outside of my pussy, but one of them has a much colder oil on their hand as they start rubbing my clit. It instantly creates a sensation that makes me hypersensitive.

“What… the fuck is that?” I gasp.

“Arousal oil,” Jude says.

“Holy fuck,” I groan.

They continue to massage me with indirect touches to my pussy while the others massage my body. After a few minutes, one of them slips a blindfold on me before rolling me to my back. More oil is dripped onto my skin as they continue. This time, I openly moan when they knead my breasts, lightly play with my nipples, and anywhere else their hands can touch.

“Let’s play a game,” Talon says softly.

“I like games,” I reply.

“Guess who is touching you, and they’ll make you come. Guess wrong, they edge you,” he says. “There will only be one at a time.”

“Okay,” I say.

“First up,” he says. A few seconds pass before anyone puts their hands on my breasts, gently kneading them. I know it’s not Talon, because he would go straight for my pussy but Jude is a tits kind of man.

“Jude,” I say.

“Good girl,” Jude says as he slowly pushes his fingers in my pussy. His palm rubs my clit, and I moan.

“Long deep breaths and relax,” Talon says. I nod and relax as he starts fucking me with his hand. The others resume massaging my body and I continue moaning softly as he finds an unrelenting speed.

“That feels so good,” I groan. “Fuck, that’s so good.”

“Come for us,” Jude encourages.

My thighs are shaking, and my breathing is labored. I have never in my life felt something like this before. I am so damn close to coming, but I am somehow so relaxed. “Oh God,” I moan as I involuntarily rock my hips. Jude places his hand on my lower belly and presses down hard as he curls his fingers inside of me. “Fuck, I’m gonna come.”

“Come for us, Little Flower,” Talon encourages. When it breaks, my arousal floods out of me. He doesn’t stop until he has milked every single moan out of me that he can.

“Next up,” Jude says sweetly. I groan because I can’t focus. I feel hands on me, but I can’t figure out who it is. “Who is it?”

“Fuck,” I groan. “I don’t know. Chris?”

“I should be offended,” Talon laughs.

“No. I’m sorry,” I frown.

“If you think for a second that I didn’t do that intentionally, you’re wrong,” Talon laughs and pushes my legs apart.

“What are you… oh fuck,” I moan when he flicks his tongue across my clit. “No, that’s not fair. You can’t put that crap on me, knowing I’m overly sensitive, and then torture me.”

“Shhh,” Jude says as he starts rubbing my temples. Talon pushes three fingers into me and starts sucking on my clit as he fucks me hard with his hand.

“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck,” I pant. “Oh, please don’t edge me. Please.”

“Excuse me,” Talon asks.

“Please, Daddy,” I whimper.

“How can I deny you when you beg so pretty, Little Flower?” he asks, flicking his tongue across me again.

“Please,” I beg. “Please, Daddy. I’ll do anything.”

“Anything?” he asks.

“Yes,” I cry out.

“Okay. We get to make you our little fuck toy. Anything goes. We say when enough is enough,” Talon says.

“We?”

“All five, Little Flower. You think we are rough? Chris will have to get you last or we will all be fucking you limp,” he says.

“Yes,” I say. “That. All of that. I’ll sort out the feelings later.”

Jude pulls off my blindfold and Talon cups my cheek. “Are you absolutely sure?”

“I’m not Katy. I’m not going to put myself into a situation like this only to turn around and be a cunt about it,” I say. “I want it all. Please eat my pussy. Please.”

“Fuck, I love you,” he says, kissing me hard.

“I love you,” I smile. “You’re the one who will have to watch all your friends run a train on your wife. Four months ago, you would’ve murdered everyone.”

“So much sass for a girl who wants to come,” he says.

“I’m sorry. Please,” I laugh. He moves back down, and I nearly buck off the bed when he starts sucking on me again. I watch as Tony and Adam start biting and sucking my nipples. Chris has his hand pressing on my low belly as Jude rubs my shoulders.

When my orgasm breaks, I see stars. My body stiffens and twists when he doesn’t let up. One blends into two. Two blends into more. He doesn’t stop or slow down. I reach a point where Jude has my arms restrained above my head to keep me from pushing everyone away. It feels so fucking amazing, but I’m cussing at them through my orgasms. So much anger is flooding out of me and I’m realizing that what they are doing is highly calculated. They’re giving me an outlet in a way that they know I already cope.

When Talon finally stops, Jude yanks me up and pushes me to lay across Talon. They take me by a complete surprise as they both start to force their way into my pussy. “No. No. No,” I yell out. “Fuck. That hurts. Oh my God.”

“Relax and let us in, Little Flower,” Talon groans.

“Fuuuck, it’s too much. Too slow,” I whine.

“If you want something, say it,” Jude grunts.

“Hard… and fast,” I choke out. “Slow hurts. Please.”

They don’t question me or hesitate to both slam inside of me, forcing an unhinged scream from my throat. They’re stretching me wide and pain ripples through me with every thrust. The very moment that I relax, Jude pulls out and slams into my ass. “Fuck, Jude,” I scream at him.

“Fuck toys don’t talk,” Jude growls as he pulls me up. He lays me back against his chest before forcing his fingers into my mouth to hold my bottom jaw. This puts me in a position where my mouth is wide open, and I have absolutely no way to try to hide any of my noises. They are both fucking me so hard that I can’t see straight. Another scream racks from me when my nipples are twisted but an ear ringing orgasm explodes inside of me.

“Scream, fuck toy,” Jude growls. They all adjust so that Tony and Adam can grab the backs of my knees and pick me up while Jude keeps a tight hold on my waist.

“Fuck. No. No. No,” I yell when they both force their way into my ass. Tears roll down my cheeks as the pressure builds in my belly. Chris presses something against my clit that violently sucks on me and I instantly relax.

“There ya go, Little Flower,” Talon groans as he continues to help Jude fuck my ass. I am conscious but completely limp as they chase down their orgasm. Right as I think they are about to come, they stop.

“Noooo,” I whine when they lay me on the bed. “You’re going to torture me again.”

“And again,” Jude whispers in my ear. “And again…”

“Adam,” Talon says.

“I know. Don’t hurt her,” he laughs.

“No, I was going to say you can but pay attention. She will noticeably flip when she’s reaching a hard limit. We want to overstimulate her, not traumatize her,” he says.

“Listening to that, Rogue?” Tony laughs.

“Yeah,” Chris says.

“I regret everything,” I complain as Adam pushes my legs apart to settle between them. “You’re all monsters.”

“Monsters?” Adam asks, hooking his arms behind my knees.

“I thought I was your sister,” I whine.

“Turns out… I really want to make my sister scream with my cock buried in her,” he says with a sarcastic grin. I open my mouth to retort, but I moan loudly instead when he surges into me, folding me in half. He has much of his body weight pressed into me as he starts to aggressively pound me into the bed. I can’t form words, and he is moving so fast that I can hardly breathe. I know I’m coming, but I can’t focus on anything. The world starts to tunnel a bit and I can tell that I am about to pass out.

“No. Don’t do that,” Adam says, smacking my cheek. It snaps me back into reality and a near feral moan floods out of me. “There you are, fuck toy. You’ve got to stay awake and scream for us.”

“Fuuuuck,” I groan through an orgasm as I tighten myself around his cock. Adam falls with me and quickens his pace as he pushes deeper. As soon as Adam pulls out of me, Tony grabs me. I am flipped to my belly and he fills my ass so fast that I start fighting him. The more I try to get out from under him, the harder he fucks me.

“That’s it. Fight me, bitch,” he growls in my ear.

I am so overstimulated right now that I don’t recognize the anger pouring out of me. “Stop” I scream at him. He laughs and digs into me deeper, almost mocking my emotions. I know what they are doing and I appreciate it so much more than I can express right now, but I can’t stop the rage. “Get off… off of me.”

“Get off of me,” he mocks.

“You’re hurting me. Stop,” I lie. I don’t know why I lied. I certainly don’t want him to stop. He laughs again as he gets a hold of my hips and jerks my body back so that I am forced up on my knees. He pushes deeper and the moan that comes out of me makes the others grunt their approval. I suddenly abandon my rage and push back, needing more of him.

“Fuck yes,” Tony groans. “Good girl, Laney. Fuck.”

“Please God, harder,” I beg. I push my hips back again and meet each thrust with as much force as I can manage. He matches and exceeds my pace, falling into a pace that has me screaming through an orgasm. I am crying by the time he shoves deep to come.

I hope for a reprieve, but I am offered nothing but more delicious aggression as Jude surges into my abused and now sore pussy the moment he gets behind me. This time, he isn’t as gentle. Every stroke into me is like sweet, blissful torture. He is desperate to come as his thrusts become unbearably fast and violent as he fucks me into the bed. At some point, he flips me to my back and wraps his hands around my throat before continuing what most anyone else would see as abuse. I am unable to breathe as an orgasm rips through me and lingers, eventually dragging him down with me. When he releases my throat, I scream as the remnants of my climax flood out.

“Fuck,” I whine when Talon grabs my ankles and pulls me to the end of the bed. My legs are shaky as he has me lay over a stack of pillows that Jude places in front of me. This makes my ass stick up in the air and my feet dangle off the edge. I grip onto the blanket when he fills my ass and finds the same pace that Jude had. Only this time, the angle is such that he is violently slamming into my G-spot. He pulls an orgasm out of me so fast that it drags up more anger. Something shifts in my head, and I start truly fighting. I have next to no energy, but it doesn’t stop me from trying to kick him. He simply pulls my wrists behind my back and drives into me harder. Eventually he has me nearly sobbing, but it feels so goddamn good.

When Talon finally comes, I am moved up to lie on my back. I have my arm draped over my face and I am panting, trying to catch my breath. The fact that Chris isn’t immediately jumping on me is concerning. “The fact that y’all are giving me a little bit of a break means I severely underestimated Chris,” I mutter.

“Yeah,” Jude laughs. “He’s working up the courage.”

“Why the fuck are you scared?” I ask Chris when I move my arm to look at him. He is standing beside the bed studying me closely. “I’m the one who has been brutalized.”

“I’m not scared,” he remarks with a smile. “You should be, though.”

“Give me something to be scared of and I will be,” I say.

Chris raises an eyebrow at me before stepping back. I watch as he undresses and the moment his boxers hit the ground; I am off the bed. They all chuckle as Chris closes in on me. “Wait. Wait. Wait,” I say as he shoves me against the wall with his hand on my throat.

“What is it?” he asks. “Scared?”

“Uh… Yeah,” I admit.

“Why?”

“You… are way too big, Chris. You’re pierced. You’re going to break me,” I explain.

“You understand that you consented to giving up consent, yes?” he asks.

“Yes,” I say with a small voice.

“You have two options, Laney. You can go back over to that bed and take my cock like a good girl… or I can drag you over there and I take your ass. I’m coming either way, so you get to decide where,” he says.

“Fuck. Okay. Please don’t fuck my ass,” I say.

“Then go back and lay on the bed,” he smirks. I scowl at him but do as he says. The others stand back, and I am shaking as I lay across the bed. Chris takes his time walking over and I cover my face with my hands when he gets on the bed.

“Hold on a second, Chris,” Talon says as he leans down and moves my hands. “You’re shaking.”

“Yeah,” I whisper.

“You’re scared,” he says, and I nod. “Are you done?”

“No,” I say.

“Are you saying that because you feel like you have to?”

“No. I want this I just… I’m afraid of it hurting more than I can handle,” I say.

“You trust him, right?”

“Yeah,” I say.

“He’s not going to hurt you, Little Flower,” he says before softly kissing me. “It’s probably going to hurt, but it’s not going to be painful. Does that make sense?”

“Yeah,” I say.

“Focus on just him and breathe,” he says. “I love you.”

“I love you too,” I sigh.

“Deep breath, Laney,” Chris says softly as he settles between my legs and places his hands to either side of my body. With tear-filled eyes, I do as he says and take a deep breath. When he slowly fills my pussy, I groan deeply and arch off the bed as tears roll down my face. The way he stretches me drags memories to the surface that have been long buried.

“I can’t,” I cry. “Please…”

“Look at me, Laney,” Chris says, resting on his forearms. He is deep inside of me and not moving now as I start to melt down. “Look… I’ve got you, baby girl. Okay?”

“Please,” I whimper. “You can’t go slow.”

“Baby, If I go hard, it will hurt,” he says seriously. “Going slow will give you time to adapt.”

“It reminds me of… Please… Chris.”

“Say it.”

“It reminds me of when my dad raped me as a kid. I can’t get the memories to shut up,” I admit.

“Keep your eyes on mine, understand?” he asks, and I nod. He starts to move his hips again, pushing as deep as he can. “You’re doing so good, Laney. I’m going to roll us, okay?”

“Okay,” I sniffle.

Chris rolls us so that I am on top of him. He has me sit up completely and he is pushing so deep that it hurts. “Sit still. Don’t move.”

“Why are you doing this?” I whimper.

“Because I want you to find pleasure before I do anything, baby. If I fuck you as hard as I want right now, it will push you past your limit,” he says. He starts rubbing my clit and I don’t feel anything. I snap my eyes open, realizing he’s right. Nothing about this right now is pleasurable.

“I’m sorry,” I say.

“Don’t apologize for being triggered, Laney. I have incredible self-restraint,” he says. I look over at Talon and he smiles.

“You’re doing well, Little Flower,” he says sweetly.

“I don’t know how to make it better,” I say.

“Rock your hips,” Talon says. “You are in control, so go slow.”

“I feel like an idiot,” I sigh.

“You are not an idiot because you are triggered. We knew that Chris would probably trigger you somehow, so we planned for this. Just relax and go slow,” Jude says. I nod and close my eyes. When I start to gently rock my hips, I wince when pain flutters in my belly. He is so fucking deep that it hurts. Chris has one hand on my thigh and the other gently rubbing clit. I quickly find myself chasing down something that I can’t quite feel yet.

“Oh God,” I gasp when Chris pinches my clit and rolls it between his fingers.

“There ya go,” Chris praises. “Good girl. Just like that.”

“How does it feel now?” Talon asks.

“Amazing,” I breathe.

Chris pulls me down to his chest and wraps his arm around my body as I bury my face in his neck. “Ready?” he asks me softly.

“Yes,” I whisper.

“I am so proud of you,” he says. “Just try to stay relaxed.”

Chris lifts his hips and starts to fuck me. It feels like my soul was being sucked out of my body as I cling to him. The noises I am making are erotic and mixed perfectly with all the sounds that we are creating together. He goes harder with every stroke into my body and soon he is fucking me so hard that I cannot breathe. This man is so goddamn big that I’m going to feel him for days and I don’t know if I can go on without ever wanting him to destroy me again. Soon, everything becomes unrelenting, and I am nothing more than a puddle as I lay on his chest. He moans deliciously in my ear as he pounds into me, but it’s not until he rolls me to my back and pushes my knees to my chest that I realize just how gentle he is being with me. When he slams back into my body, I see stars. He plays on that reaction and does it again and again. He has found something inside of me that has my body rigid and my eyes rolled back, but I’m silent as I move through intense orgasms. It feels like it’s going on forever, but I don’t ever want it to stop. How can something so fucking brutal feel so goddamn amazing? I can feel reality slipping away as the intensity chips away in my consciousness, and then he wraps his hands around my throat. It is a calculated move because a massive orgasm is building and he saw it before I felt it. When he squeezes my throat and cuts off my ability to breathe, everything builds to an unattainable peak. He grunts and growls as he fucks me hard and I’m starting to think that death by orgasm might be a possibility. When it finally breaks, it is going to be devastating.

Chris finally releases my throat as he starts to come, and it feels like someone detonated explosives in my mind, and body. When the orgasm stabs through me, an unhinged moan that sounds more like a scream comes out of me as my arousal floods from my body. He is still thrusting hard. The wet noises it creates sounds like it came straight from a porno. My consciousness starts to fade and I’m stuck lingering between reality and a sweet, blissful sleep. When he pulls out of me, I become so disconnected from reality that I can’t speak or move. Little bits of their conversation sneak through as they clean my body and the bed.

“I broke her,” Chris laughs. “Is she awake? I can’t tell.”

“Yeah. She’s just a bit disconnected. She can probably hear us, but that’s about it,” Jude says.

“So…” Adam says. “I think I fucked up because there’s no fucking way I’m going to be able to look at her and not want to fuck her now.”

“All I ask is that if you are with her, you are clean,” Talon says. “Also, she’s on birth control, but we are all fucking her raw. If she ends up pregnant, I very much expect everyone to be involved.”

“I would cut off my own leg to be able to get that woman pregnant,” Tony says matter-of-factly.

“We haven’t discussed if she wants kids,” Jude laughs.

“Yeah… I fucked up,” Chris says. “I was forcing myself to not let myself think about her. I was trying to convince myself that I didn’t feel the way I do, but I would be a fucking liar if I said any different. I want to do that and so much more to her.”

“Look,” Talon says with a sigh. “If there’s anything that I’m learning from the situation is that I trust you guys with her. I used to be so wrapped in my trauma that I refused to hear or see anything else outside of what I had convinced myself to be true. I was possessive of her to a fault and was very willing to control her entire life to keep her. I’m learning now that keeping her and letting her live are two totally different things. I know that she loves me. I know that she loves Jude. I also know that she has feelings for the three of you. I recognize it because she looks at you all the same way that she does Jude and me. It’s slow developing because she’s rejecting it so hard, but everything is different now. Now she knows what it would be like to be taken care of by the five of us.”

“Are you giving us permission to build a relationship with her?” Adam asks.

“I am. I don’t know where she stands on this, but I can make a good guess based on how easily she melted into you three,” Talon says.

I open my eyes and Jude is laying on the bed in front of me. He smiles at me when he sees I’m awake, but doesn’t alert the others behind me.

“I’m just worried I pushed her too far,” Chris says.

“He’s scared,” I mouth to Jude, making him smile.

“What?” Chris asks.

“Nothing. Sorry. I am sure she’s okay,” Jude says.

“She just has so much trauma… The way she begged me to stop was a bit heartbreaking,” he says.

“Scared,” I mouth, making Jude laugh again.

“What is your deal?!” Chris snaps.

“I’m sorry,” Jude chuckles. “She’s awake and being a brat. I was trying to keep her out of trouble.”

I laugh when I am rolled to my back and see Chris frowning at me. “What are you being a brat about?”

“I just said you were scared,” I smile. “I’m okay, Chris. I just didn’t expect those memories to come up. It was overwhelming, but you got me through it.”

“Did I hurt you?” he asks.

“You all hurt me,” I laugh. “But I’d do it again… honestly, I was a little sad that I might not ever get to experience all of you at once again. You all offer something that is… addicting. I don’t know how to split myself five ways, but I will if it means I get this again.”

“Honey, you don’t have to split yourself,” Jude says.

“You all live in different places,” I say.

“They’ve been here for four months,” Talon says. “They are practically moved in.”

“Nothing will change,” Jude says. “Other than three more people fucking you.”

“I’m going to need a wheelchair if y’all are going to keep fucking me like that,” I say, and Talon laughs. “You’ll still sleep with me and Jude. The others will probably steal you occasionally, but this is your room. They’re more than welcome to come up here too if they want to play with you.”

“Okay,” I say. “It’s a lot to get used to and I’m absolutely not promising I won’t melt down on occasion from being overstimulated, but I’ll get there.”

“You look exhausted,” Talon says. “Let’s all get some rest.”

“I guess I have a funeral to plan,” I say with a sigh.

“How are you with that?” Tony asks.

“I don’t know,” I say. “I’m glad that he is dead. I’m not devastated that my mom is gone, but she didn’t deserve that. She didn’t deserve to suffer. She wasn’t exactly mom of the year, but she’s not the one who raped me. I do believe that she was choosing to be ignorant out of self-preservation. It doesn’t make it right, but I understand, and I do forgive her. I just wish that she hadn’t suffered so much. I understand the pain that she went through with that rape. It is a psychological pain that you can’t get rid of. The first time Vince raped me… Logan did the same thing. He joined in and helped his father and then laughed afterward when I was curled up on the floor sobbing.”

“I can’t wait to kill him,” Talon says.

“I can’t wait to watch you kill him,” I say.