Page 7 of Traitor

She’s got the wide, panicked eyes of someone afraid of death. I’d seen it enough in my own to recognize it in someone else. Who had hurt her? What had she been through to make her come to Nowhere, North Carolina? “Is everything okay?” The words are out of my mouth before I can stop them, and I regret asking the second I see her hands clench by her sides.

The fear in her gaze hardens and whatever ghosts she was remembering disappear behind her narrowed eyes. She pulls a pair of earbuds out of her ears. “Of course. I’m sorry, I didn’t hear you. Did you need something?”

I don’t miss that she takes a step back as I get closer and it’s a battle to keep myself from scowling automatically. In the years since I’ve been a civilian again, I’d gotten used to a variety of reactions. Hero-worship, disdain, disgust, but the one that really gets me is horror. If Peyton’s shoulders get any closer to her ears, she’s gonna create a spontaneous black hole and swallow herself. Her peaches and cream skin has gone ash-white. If I hadn’t seen her the day before, I would have thought she was sick or something.

She flinches when I thrust her wallet in her direction and this time I don’t bother holding back the scowl, which only makes her shrink into herself all the more. “You forgot this back at the lodge.” If my tone comes out harsher than I intend, I decide fuck it. Pretty little princess wants to play explorer, she’s got worse things to worry about than a beaten down former Marine like me. I may look like a tank, but the last thing on my mind is hurting anyone—especially a woman. Whatever happened to her in the past isn’t my fault.

It isn’t my fault.

I avert my gaze, the rush of memories, regrets, too much to bear. When I open my mouth, I find it’s gone dry, so I bite back the reminder for her to be careful.

She isn’t my responsibility. She can barely look at me without wincing. Maybe I am the monster the media made me out to be.

With that thought, and her frightened stare weighing down my shoulders, I turn on my feet and stalk back to the lodge.