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“You know, if you did want to kiss Coach Trent again, you could. Just maybe not where I could see, because it’s a little weird and yucky. But…I don’t want you to be lonely just because I saw something you don’t think I should see.”

“God, Aiden.” I blink back tears. “It’s not that. It’s…” I don’t have anything to finish that statement, though.

Aiden does, apparently. “It’s complicated?”

I laugh. “Yeah. Exactly.”

“Everything is complicated,” he mutters, sounding irritated at adults in general.

God, that kid.

I love him so fiercely it hurts. I want to protect him, shelter him, let him stay innocent as long as he can. And I’m afraid I’ve already messed that up, that he understands things he shouldn’t have to understand at eight years of age.

Will you ever stop loving me?

Do you want to kiss Coach Trent again?

I don’t want you to be lonely…

Yeah…it’s complicated, all right—too complicated. There are so many pitfalls and landmines.

But I can’t make myself wish I’d never met Jamie, because the memories of our night together are some of the most amazing and sensual of my life, but…if this is how it’s going to be, trying to navigate being Aiden’s mom and figuring something out with Jamie…

Then I can’t see how anything can happen with Jamie.