Page 34 of Mine to Keep (Bloody Desires #10)

It takes a few tries to swallow past the lump in my throat. There’s so much I want to say. So much I want to tell them, but all that comes out is, “Okay. Let me clean up and we can lie down.” I check their reactions to see if they want me to lie down with them. I’m relieved when they both nod.

As if I can’t help myself, I grab Talon and pull him close, kissing him deeply. I nearly sob when he returns it, his small hands on my biceps, but carefully avoiding my wound.

When I’ve plundered his mouth, hoping to put all my pain, hurt, gratitude, and love into it, I do the same to Javier.

How did I manage to fall in love with two men in less than a week? I’ve never been in love before, but it’s supposed to take longer, right?

Somehow, the two of them burrowed their way under my skin, into my heart, making it hard to think about letting them go.

My dick is hard as a rock, being so close to them and all their smooth naked skin. All I want to do is make love to them, to show them that they’re mine as much as I’m theirs.

With strength I didn’t know he had, Talon climbs up my body, wrapping his legs around my waist as he plants his lips on mine.

“You scared me,” he whispers, kissing me again. “Don’t do it again.” His voice is hard, though it quivers with fear.

“I won’t, little one. I swear it.” Javier steps beside us and I bring him in for a kiss. “I promise, baby boy. I’m so sorry.”

“Make me feel it. Convince me that you mean it,” Talon demands. Any other time, I would scold him for giving me orders, but am I still his Daddy? I don’t know where we stand right now, other than knowing I need to let him know that I’ll never hurt him again, and I’ll never let him go.

Javier passes me a bottle of conditioner and I quickly coat my finger and stretch Talon. Then I lube myself up and glide into him, burying my entire length into his waiting body.

He cries out and shivers, rolling his hips down on me.

My arm and hand are protesting, but the pain won’t stop me from making him feel how serious I am about him, about both of them.

I get a better hold on Talon and reach out for Javi, dragging him in close. I kiss him as I thrust into Talon. My little one’s blunt nails scramble across my back, moaning his pleasure.

Javier pulls back from my mouth, putting his back against the shower wall. “Let me watch you with him. He needs you…Daddy.”

My heart squeezes and tears blur my vision. They still want me to be the one that takes care of them. They still trust me.

I drag Javi in for one more kiss, then drop my hand under Talon’s ass and fuck him in earnest. I press his back to the shower wall and thrust up into him while moving him down on my dick. He takes all of me, whimpering every time I surge up.

“Yes, Daddy,” he murmurs, biting his plump bottom lip. “Feels so good. Don’t…please don’t hurt us again.”

“I won’t, little one,” I say through gritted teeth as I roll my hips. “I won’t. Please don’t leave me.”

Javier steps closer and kisses first me, then Talon, his hand on his cock moving quickly. “We won’t. We’re not going anywhere.”

The orgasm I didn’t know was right at the tip of my dick shoots out of me at his words and into Talon, coating his walls. He’s not far behind, pitching over the cliff only a second or two later. Javier’s nut joins ours as he comes on a loud groan.

We all stand there, breathing heavily, and wrapped up in the newfound trust we just established.

I’ll never leave them. I’ll never let anyone hurt them. They’re mine, and if anyone tries to hurt them, I’ll kill them slowly.

I gently pull out of Talon and help him to his feet. He giggles sweetly when he stumbles. “My legs are like jelly.” He gives me a sweet smile, then places his hand on my face. “You’re bleeding again, Daddy.”

They help wash me up, Javier carefully cleaning my arm wound as Talon gets the remaining blood from my face. I leave my hands lazily on their waists, wanting to touch them. When I have my hands on them, I know they haven’t left me.

After I’m clean, I take the time to wash them both, cleaning Javier’s and Talon’s own cum from his skin, then turning Talon around and cleaning his hole that’s leaking my seed.

It’s a sexy fucking sight, but I don’t try to shove it back into him.

Our peace right now is too fragile. I won’t do more than they’ll allow me.

Shutting off the water, I get out and help them both dry off.

They look dead on their feet, the adrenaline from the shooting and the news of who I really am seeming to drag them down.

But I don’t see fear when they look at me anymore.

Maybe some apprehension, but they don’t look as if they’re only allowing me closeness because they think I’ll harm them.

When we step back into the room, I see that Olivia has gone to the car and gotten our bags, leaving them beside the bed. I help my men get dressed and tuck them into bed, where they lie together, Javier spooning Talon.

I sit on the edge of the bed looking at both of them, my heart brimming with more love than I can even fully understand for two men that I've known for such a shorttime. “I need to talk to Olivia,” I tell them. “Then I’ll come back and lie with you two. If that’s okay.”

A sleepy Talon nods. “It’s okay.”

“Why?” I ask, though I don’t elaborate. They know what I mean.

Talon looks back at Javier and Javier nods, kissing his cheek.

Meeting my eyes, Talon says, “It sounds crazy, we know. Hell, it’s crazier for me because I just got out of a relationship.

This could be a whole rebound thing, but I don’t think so.

We don’t think so.” He pauses and says, “We love you. We fell in love with you, Knox.”

The nervous breath I was holding bursts from my chest. Sliding closer to them, I take first Talon’s face in my hands and kiss him, then crush my lips to Javier’s. How could they love me, even after knowing what I do?

“Does this mean you’ll stay with me?” I ask, though I have no right.

“Yeah, we will,” Javier says.

“I need to tell you one more thing,” I say, placing a hand on my chest to ensure my heart doesn’t explode from the overabundance of love. “My name. My real name…is Koda. It’s the name I was born with. No one but Patience knew that. Now, you two.”

“She doesn’t?” Talon asks, his eyes flicking to the door.

“No. She knows me as Knox. Knox was…Patience’s last name. So I made it who I am. But for you two, I wanna be Koda again.”

“Koda,” Talon says, rolling the name around in his mouth. “I like it. It suits you. Can we…do we not call you that around her?”

I shrug. “You can. Or you can keep calling me Knox. I don’t care either way.”

“I like Koda,” Javier says. Then he smiles at me. It’s small and tentative, but it’s enough. “But can we still call you Daddy?”

Sighing with a smile I can't hide, I kiss them both again, gently, sweetly, with all the gratefulness, and reverence I can pour into them. “Yes, baby boy, little one. You can still call me Daddy.” I kiss them one more time. “Get some sleep. We might be leaving tomorrow.”

They nod and tuck themselves closer together and shut their eyes.