Page 43 of Just my Puck (Love & Laughter #1)
JASON
“I grew up without my father,” Lucy says after I’ve had another orgasm that shifted my perspective on sex altogether.
This woman is doing things to me that I didn’t think were possible.
I didn’t know my cock would stand to attention to service her so damn fast. I’m insatiable around her.
Every second of not touching her feels like my heart is breaking.
Tracing a circle on her back, I let her continue without interrupting. Her voice is quiet but steady. “He left when I was three. I don’t remember much about him, but I do remember the lingering sadness when he was gone. My mom never got over it. “
She gazes out of over the bay. “Our lives changed after that. My mother was left to take care of us, and she did the best she could. But it was hard. She struggled to make ends meet, and we lived in a two-bedroom apartment that had seen better days. Most of her free time was spent giving attention to Jenna, my older sister. She got in trouble a lot, and my mother paid more attention to her and her misadventures than she did to me. The good daughter with her nose always in a book.”
Lucy pauses, her eyes still focused on the outside world. “When we both left home, she decided to move out of Coe Bay to Grove City so that she could make a fresh start. I haven’t seen her for a while.”
“Why not?”
She shrugs. “I don’t have a car, and public transport and I don’t get on. It’s an effort that I’m not sure I want to put in. It’s not like she comes down here to visit either, you know?”
“Yeah. If you ever want to go see her, I could drive you.”
She gives me a loving look but shakes her head.
“No, I’m not ready. It’s been too long since I last saw her, and I still don’t know what to say.
I’m not sure I’m ready to face her yet.” She sighs.
“Let’s talk about something else. Are you playing later?
I don’t know your schedule yet. I’m a bad girlfriend. ”
She draws in a horrified breath, her cheeks going pink.
“What?” I ask, mystified why she is suddenly embarrassed, but then it strikes me. “Do you want to be my girlfriend, princess?” I ask with a slow smile.
“No! I mean, if you want.”
“What do you want?” I know what I want. Fuck, I want her to be my girlfriend so bad, it’s taking everything I have not to blurt it out. But if she doesn’t want that, then I will fall in line with her needs. “Talk to me, Lucy. What is it that you want?”
“You, and Steele and Carter. But I’m scared. You are renowned for not wanting labels.”
“True, but that was before,” I say carefully.
“So what are you saying?” Lucy replies steadily.
“I want to be with you if you’ll have me. I need you to trust me, princess. My past is the past. It’s dead and buried now. I’m committed to being with you, but I need that trust from you. Do you think you can give that to me?”
Waiting for her answer is torture. She is weighing it up for too many passing seconds.
“Yes, I do trust you, Jason. I feel it here,” she places her hand over my heart. “We belong together. All four of us.”
“I feel it too, and you have made me so happy, giving me your heart and your body and soul. I won’t let you down, princess, ever.
You are mine; in whatever way you are theirs as well, you are mine.
My one and only. The depth of my feelings for you is staggering, and I know this is wild, but that’s my truth. ”
She smiles her response and cuddles into me, not feeling the need to say anything. We’ve said it, we’re committed to each other, and I’m shocked at how easy that was. The mere thought of it had me running scared only a few weeks ago, but now, I feel like my whole life has led up to this moment.
“We play tomorrow,” I murmur. “But we have practice later this afternoon. Do you want to come?”
“To practice?”
“Mm-hm.”
“Really? Like to cheer you on?”
“Like a girlfriend.”
She giggles that sweet, sweet laugh that makes me smile into her hair. “Yes, like a girlfriend. I would love to.”
Rising, I pull her to her feet, too, before diving in at her mouth and kissing her deeply. I want to savor the feel of our mouths together.
Pulling back eventually with a teasing smile, I say. “Come on, princess. What do you say we go work off some of this energy?”
She giggles back, slipping her small hand in mine as we jump into the pool, laughing loudly and splashing each other. I haven’t felt this relaxed in forever, and I fall into it, knowing she is the one.
This feels so right, so perfect. I have no doubt that my life will never be the same again.