Page 23 of He Is Ours (Lovers in Crossfire #2)

Chapter twenty-three

Rachel

Pregnant.

Olivia is pregnant. My emotions are everywhere.

I am not sure how to feel about it. I love that for her.

I love that for us, but it makes me miss my baby.

Yes, I know I told her that this baby is mine also, and it is.

I will treat it as my own, but nothing will replace the baby that Andrew killed.

That baby will always have a special spot in my heart.

I am sitting on the couch when I hear footsteps coming back down the stairs. I already dumped out the coffee and made sure to clean the pot so that the smell is gone.

I look over my shoulder and I see Olivia curled into Alex's arm while they walk downstairs.

"You ok, baby girl?" I ask Olivia, who looks better, but you can tell she feels like shit still.

"Yeah, I am good. I'm sorry. Apparently, the baby doesn't like coffee." She giggles. That sound is the most beautiful sound in the world.

"Well, that's going to make for a long nine months for a coffee lover like yourself." I shoot her a wink to let her know I'm playing. I remember how much my emotions were going crazy during my pregnancy.

I stand up and walk up to her when she makes it to the bottom of the steps, wrap my arms around her stomach, and drop to my knees.

"I hope you can hear me, little bean; I love you so much already. I wish I had your sibling with us, but know I will love you as my own, even if you are in your mommy's belly." When I finish my speech to the baby, I kiss her belly and look up at Olivia, who now has tears streaming down her face.

"I love you, baby, I love our little baby, and I love the family we are making. It has been a struggle, we have been through some shit, but this is home and we will make it the best home for our baby."

"Rachel, I am so sorry. I can't imagine what you're going through with me being pregnant and you having lost your baby. I am so sorry. I feel like such a shit person."

I stand up, grab her face, and kiss her as deeply and passionately as I can. I need to pour everything into this kiss to show her that this isn't her fault, and even if it was planned, I am not going to think that she is a shit person.

"Baby girl, look at me. Losing my baby wasn't your fault; it was one hundred percent Andrew's fault.

Do I miss my baby? Yes, I do, deeply. But unfortunately, that baby would have had a terrible life with Andrew as its father.

That baby would have seen its mommy as a weak human, as a punching bag, as a hole that gets used when their daddy wants.

That's not the life I want for my baby. So, maybe it was a blessing on its own.

" I am now in tears also. Olivia wraps me in a hug and holds on tight.

"Your baby will always be a part of this family. It was our first baby and always will be. It just was too beautiful for this ugly Earth." Now I am sobbing from her unexpected words.

Alex walks up behind us and wraps both of us in a hug, like he always does. We both snuggle into his arms and lay our heads on his shoulders. This is my favorite spot in the whole world, in the arms of both of my people.

"I love you two," I say through a hiccup.

Olivia kisses my forehead while Alex kisses the top of my head.

"We love you, too, princess." Oliva reaches out and grabs my hand.

"Usually, people only get one person in this lifetime. How the fuck did I get so lucky to get two?" Alex squeezes us just a little tighter.

"Because each of us is the perfect missing piece to the other." I look at Olivia, "And this baby will be another piece to our puzzle."

"Alright, my beautiful women, I think we all need to get to work, or we will be late." Alex kisses our heads and then goes and grabs his keys, helmet, cover, cigarettes, and sunglasses.

"You know you are going to have to quit that nasty habit for the baby?" Olivia looks at Alex with her eyebrow arched in challenge.

"I know Azúcar." Kissing her head again. "I will quit for the baby."

These two beautiful people are the perfect pieces to my broken soul.