Page 14 of Conveniently Theirs (Viva Las… Oh, Sh!t)

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Devin

M aybe traveling two hours away from the city was a bit much, but towns and points of interest aren’t necessarily close together in the wilds of Nevada.

I needed for us to feel that distance from the concerns of real life while we discuss the options for our new real life.

Josh fell asleep only about fifteen minutes into the trip so Keni and I kept our conversation on unimportant topics.

When I slow for the town of Beatty, he wakes, declares his headache gone, and nearly presses his nose against the window to stare at the town. “Hey, this reminds me of that movie with the cars. The town I mean. It looks like from the movie. ”

“It does,” Keni exclaims. “No wonder it feels kind of familiar.”

I know the movie but have nothing to add so find a parking spot and we exit the sedan, stand on the sidewalk to stretch out the kinks.

By unspoken agreement we don’t talk about the wedding or the tension simmering between us.

The sexual tension. I have one hell of a time keeping my cock at rest as we explore the small town and Kendall is near.

Or across the street. Or simply in my thoughts.

I’m in a shitload of trouble.

Josh has had to make subtle adjustments as well. Keni seems oblivious to her effect on both of us. Or perhaps not. She brushes against me far more times than the narrow aisles of the historic downtown or avoiding groups of tourists would account for.

It’s a relief to leave town and head toward Death Valley.

We stop at a place called Hell’s Gate and get out of the car to admire the view of the valley spread before us.

Keni takes pictures with her phone and I attempt to stay out of most of them.

Then it’s my turn to take pictures of them, claiming they’ll be able to use them as honeymoon memories.

Excluding myself from the photos increases the pain in my chest. If I don’t confess my feelings soon, I may never be able to. I watch the two of them walk hand in hand toward another overlook spot. Maybe it’s already too late.

“I wish I had a better camera,” Keni says when they return to where I’m waiting by the car. “This area is amazing and deserves clearer photos than my phone takes.”

“We’ll come back better prepared, darlin’.” Josh lifts her hand to kiss her palm.

I can’t watch so I stare at the road. “Ready for the next stop? It’s getting late and I’d like to find a good place for star watching before it’s too dark. We can enjoy our picnic as the sun goes down.”

Keni bounces in her seat so much she fumbles with her seatbelt. Reaching over, I make sure she’s secure then force myself to clutch the steering wheel with both hands.

“I can’t believe you remembered I wanted to see the stars without the city light pollution.”

“I remember… everything,” I mumble. She doesn’t hear but Josh must because he reaches over the seatback to touch my neck. Unfortunately I don’t find any comfort from his caress.

It’s tempting to simply drive back to Vegas and forget about my confession, but I’ve promised Keni the stars.

So I take my planned turn off and we travel up a well-maintained gravel road to an observation point.

Because Keni refuses to sit on the ground once it gets dark, we eat our sandwiches while sitting on the car hood.

I watch her face as she watches the stars appear.

Josh hands her binoculars I’d encouraged him to purchase in town and she scans the sky.

“It’s amazing. So vast, so many stars. Now I really do wish I had a good camera.

Or maybe a telescope. A camera mounted on a telescope. That’s it. That’s what I want.”

“Then we definitely will come back with better equipment,” Josh says.

She lowers the binoculars and kisses Josh’s cheek. “Thank you.”

I should move away when she turns toward me, but anticipation holds me frozen in place. “And thank you, too, Devin.” Her lips are warm. Soft. I physically ache for more.

If I don’t speak now, will I ever be able to tell her what’s in my heart? “Kendall, sweets, I need… need to tell you something.”

Josh slips from the hood. “I’ll just?—”

“Stay.” The word is a desperate command and I soften my voice. “Please stay. You need to hear this, too.”

Instead of returning to his place, he moves around the vehicle so he stands between Keni and me. “What’s up, hon? You’ve been… off lately.”

I could talk my way around this for hours and never get to the point. Is it better just to spit out the words and see what happens? I choose the instant reaction. “Josh told you about how we’d talked about the possibility of adding a woman to our relationship?”

She nods but offers no other encouragement.

“And that he wanted it to be you? Because he loves you?”

Now she smiles with her nod. “Works out good since I love him, too.”

“You’ve always been my friend…”

She covers my mouth with her fingers. I curl my lips inward to keep from doing something stupid.

“Devin, this sounds like the start of a break up.” She presses the back of her hand dramatically to her forehead.

“An ‘it’s not you, it’s me’ speech.” Serious again, she holds my gaze.

“You’re not going to say anything like that, are you? ”

That might be easier. But… no. I continue where I left off when she interrupted. “And I was willing to accept you as the third of our throuple. Then something changed.”

“What? ”

“I fell in love with you.”

Confusion mars her beautiful face. “That doesn’t make sense. Shouldn’t that make everything easier?”

“It should. But you’ve just learned about Josh’s feelings. Adding mine might be too much.”

“Listen buster. I get to say when something is too much.”

“And I don’t want to intrude on your time with Josh.”

She plants one hand at her hips. “Didn’t we establish that you wanted to be with us this morning? And that I wanted you there. Because… well, if it’s confession time, I’ve fallen for you, too.”

Josh leans over the car hood in between us. “Fuck. You two are in love, too?”

“Don’t be mad.”

“Darlin’, how could I ever be mad when the two people I love most in the world are also in love with each other. This is the best.”

He grabs my shoulders and kisses me hard, then repeats the action with Keni. “I love you both. So fucking much. I was sick of holding everything in. Now we don’t have to. I love you, Keni. I love you, Devin.”

Keni slaps her hand over Josh’s mouth. “Shut up for a bit, will you please?” She waits until he nods before removing her hand.

“So to sum everything up… Josh loves Devin and me. Devin loves Josh and me. I love Josh and Devin. We all want…” She scoots closer to me. “You do want to add sex to this discussion, don’t you? Because I sure do.”

“Yes, I desire you,” I say softly although the words are loud in the quiet night.

“This isn’t just because of Josh, is it? You thinking you want me?”

“It’s not. If I can only be with you when he’s there, I can be content.

But you need to know this, Kendall. I want you along with Josh as the three of us make love together.

I also desire the opportunities to be alone with you.

Just as I long for time alone with Josh.

What I feel isn’t all or nothing. I want every bit, every part. Every option.”

Josh takes my hand. “Sounds perfect, hon. You’ve put my thoughts into words.” Then he lifts Keni’s hand to his lips. “How does all this loving sound to you, darlin’?”

“Yes, perfect,” she sighs. “It will be fabulous.”

Tugging until Keni and I slide off the hood, Josh gathers us close. “How about some kissing to seal the deal? ”

Sometime later, we ease apart. Discovering the best ways for three people to kiss is interesting. We’ll need more practice. A lot more practice. I’m more than willing to put in the practice time.

Keni smooths her fingers through her hair. “We should go back to the hotel.”

“It’s a couple hour drive,” Josh says.

She slides her hand down the front of his shirt and I shiver in response. “Good for the anticipation.”

“I’ll drive,” Josh states and we make sure we’ve picked up any trash from our meal before heading back toward Vegas.

About an hour into the drive, he pulls over and glances at me in the rear view mirror. “I think Keni needs to keep her hands to herself and learn about anticipation. I’m sending her to the back seat with you. Know what to do?”

“I have a few ideas.”

“Hey, don’t I get any say in this?” is her token complaint as she unfastens her seatbelt. She gifts me with a huge smile as she settles in the back seat.

“Come here, sweets.” I pull her onto my lap. I’ve been battling a hard on since we started home and I know she can feel it. This is going to be torture for both of us. I glance into the reflection of Josh’s dark eyes. For all of us.

I push up her shirt and suck a lace covered nipple into my mouth. Thank god she’s wearing stretchy leggings, giving me reasonably easy access to her clit. It’s not long before she’s writhing against me. My fingers are damp with her arousal. The sensual noises she makes are driving me wild.

She wants more. I want more.

Josh clears his throat and I pause. His eyes in the mirror are heavy lidded and dark with passion. “Devin, love,” he says, the sexual rasp in his tone demanding I listen. “Do what you want, as much as you want, just don’t allow her to come.”