Page 12 of Conveniently Theirs (Viva Las… Oh, Sh!t)

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Kendall

A muffled groan sounds from the bathroom.

I think I understand what Devin might be going through.

What his thoughts might be. Learning Josh is in love with me could be emotional enough but then discovering he also desires me?

Even when I’m not the gender I believed he wanted?

I hold back a sigh. He’s proven otherwise tonight.

And changed my world. I know that sounds maudlin or trite, but it’s true.

In one day—really just in one conversation followed by a night of pleasure, the universe made my dreams come to life.

Most of them anyway .

The old dreams. Not the newest ones. Not yet anyway.

When did I start including Devin in my fantasies? Hell, I guess it makes sense. I’ve been in love with one gay man for as long as I can remember. The feelings I have for Devin have been growing no matter how often I’ve berated or told myself I’m being twice the fool.

I know Josh has always cared for me. That’s why it was so easy to accept his confession last night. Devin and I are friends. Good friends. Is there something deeper than that between us as well? Can there be?

I hope so. With all my heart. I want Devin, too. As long as anything between us doesn’t affect Josh’s relationship with him. Or with me. No matter how I feel, I won’t be a wedge between them.

But Josh is right. There’s only one way to get past this stalemate. I smile at him and nod before speaking. “Devin, please. Come talk with us.”

The door opens slowly and he takes tentative steps into the room. He’s usually so confident and determined. I’ve never seen him so unsure and lost. He stares at the floor. “I’m sorry. I apologize. I shouldn’t have…”

Even though he can’t see me, I hold up one hand and shake my head. “Devin, stop. There’s no need to apologize.”

His head lifts and he holds my eyes for a brief second before dropping his gaze again. “There is, Kendall. I intruded on a private moment. I should have stayed away.”

Curious, I tuck the sheet around myself and ask, “Why didn’t you? You weren’t in the suite when got back after the ceremony. What changed?”

His shoulders drop lower as though he’s trying to make himself smaller. To somehow hide within himself. “I couldn’t.” When he stares at me again, his eyes hold a tortured darkness. “I know how deeply Josh loves you. How long he’s hoped the two of you would become lovers.”

Josh takes my hand and holds out his other to Devin. “A secret I was unable to keep. Not when my man knows me so well.”

Devin’s soft snort seems to deny Josh’s statement. Finally he crosses the room to perch on the end of the bed but ignores Josh’s hand.

I’m not sure how or where to start this conversation and from the silence of the two men, they’re just as clueless. Somehow that seems to make the situation feel less strained. A question pops into my brain and exits my mouth before I think about it. “Did you enjoy watching us?”

Devin bites his lip and shifts to stare across the room to the open door to the rest of the suite.

A glance at Josh shows his wide eyed surprise.

Guess neither of them expected me to ask such a direct question.

Tightening the sheet over my breasts, I settle in to wait.

I’m not going to let him get away with not answering.

Before long he shifts again, this time to face me. “Yes.”

Even after the night of sex with Josh, my lady bits go wild. Hoping my voice doesn’t tremble, I ask my second question. “Did you want to join us?”

This time he doesn’t turn away. His light eyes go dark and his lids drop half way to cover his expanding pupils. “Yes.”

The wrinkled sheet covering me rubs over my nipples and my inhale becomes a soft gasp. I glance at Josh. His expression remains surprised. I don’t know if he’ll approve or feel rejected by my next words. If I take time to ask, the moment could disappear. Maybe forever.

Patting the mattress at my side, I hold Devin’s gaze. “Then join us. ”

His eyes close. He shakes his head. “No.”

“But…”

“Keni.” He holds one hand to me, the other toward Josh. “I’m not denying you, sweets. We do need to… talk.”

I cross my arms and jut out my lower lip. Josh gives a soft chuckle, and Devin rolls his gaze to the ceiling. “Darlin’,” Josh says softly. “I don’t think that cute pout is going to work this time.” He faces his lover. “So, talk.”

“No. Not here. Not like this. We need to… I have a couple ideas for the day that will give us time enough to talk. Once the two of you are cleaned up and dressed.”

The clearing of Josh’s throat draws my attention and reluctantly I release Devin’s gaze.

Josh slides one hand up his arm to rub his shoulder. “You’re right, hon, we can’t talk here. And I can’t… um… clean up in the same room as Keni. We’d never leave.”

Unconcerned with his nudity, he stands, winks at me, and rests one hand on Dev’s shoulder. “Did you see the donuts we brought home? You have got to try one. Or two. While I shower. They are fabulous. ”

Bless Josh for diffusing the sexual tension surrounding us. Until the three of us are honest with ourselves and each other, the best action should be to keep everything light and easy. Devin’s shoulders have relaxed and I don’t feel quite so jittery, so the tactic must be working.

Then he jerks Devin to his feet and into a tight embrace.

Their mouths crash together as Josh fiercely claims a kiss.

A low, near growl, rumble from his chest as he nips at Devin’s lip.

My lady bits reignite. They’re not going to get much of a rest around these two.

I’ve seen them kiss many times before and been titillated.

Never like this though. Not this powerfully.

And, until recently, I’ve never wanted to share in the moment.

Their kiss ends and both men stare at me but I have no clue why.

Josh arches his brows and gives me a sultry, wicked grin.

Dev’s eyes close as he licks his lips. Then his mouth moves as though he’s tasting something.

Savoring a lingering flavor. Oh. My. God.

Josh had gone down on me and given me a glorious orgasm right before I’d straddled his hips.

The kiss he shared with Devin couldn’t have tasted… like me. Could it?

Josh grabs his lover’s hand. “Come on. The sooner we get going…” He leaves the statement unfinished but I’m sure each of us understands what he means.

The sooner we can all be together.