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Kai

F uck her.

Fuck her.

Fuck.

Her .

And all her shitty looks and her smile and her gasps and the way her eyes lit up when I thrust into her.

Fuck her brandy scent, and her moans, and fuck everything else.

I didn’t even want to say her name because it hurt so fucking much.

Even though it had been so fucking good to hold her and sink into her slick heat as she widened her legs for me and—

“Kai!” Sin cried out, and my eyes shot open.

I instantly snapped my mouth open and yanked myself back, bumping into Sin’s chest as I let him go.

I groaned as blood dripped down my chin and stained my bedsheets.

We were lying on my huge bed in my nest, completely naked, absolutely glued together as my alphas sandwiched me. And I’d made sure we stayed that way since we’d all got back from work.

Sin leapt up, pulling away from me, leaning over the side of my bed to grab a black towel. He quickly wrapped it around his finger to stem the bleeding from my bite.

I turned just as Caspian sat up, leaving me lying on my back looking up at their hard gazes.

My throat closed up as they moved away.

They couldn’t abandon me. They couldn’t leave me. They had to stay with me or I was going to lose them forever.

I needed my alphas to drown me with their scents so I could stop thinking about the bite that had driven me mad with need ever since she’d left us six whole fucking days ago.

Sin quickly came back, making sure to stay close even though the middle finger on his left hand seeped.

It was the exact same place Brandy had bitten me.

Sin had just been gently stroking my chest as Caspian told me about his day in his relaxing mellow voice. Both of them were hard, and they were both totally down to fuck. But Sin had lifted his hand to my mouth and all I could think about were her lips parting with pleasure and the rush of light that burst between us as she bit me.

And I’d just fucked everything up for us by biting Sin too hard.

It wasn’t like I hadn’t bit him before. It was why his hands were so messed up. But I needed her so badly I was going insane. Just sitting around with an incomplete bond was tearing me apart and exposing all the ugly bullshit I thought I’d dealt with.

I wasn’t just some slutty male omega. I had scent matches, I had a pack, I had alphas who loved me.

That’s how it was supposed to be.

And then the Brandy disaster.

And I couldn’t fucking cleave because it felt like I was going to die every time I found our bond and tried to cut through it. Even just throwing up a wall between us so I could stop feeling the clawing need suffocated me.

I had to bite.

Not her. My mates. The alphas who were supposed to love and treasure me and not fuck other omegas right in front of my fucking face when I was in heat and couldn’t make any decisions.

“I’m sorry,” I said, reaching up for the towel. “Let me help.”

“I can do it myself. You don’t have to move,” Sin said as he drew his hand away.

I knew he was just being practical, but his face was so blank that I flinched.

It was like he was rejecting me.

“But I want to,” I nearly whined. “It’s my fault you’re like this. This entire thing is my fucking fault.”

Cas’s brow furrowed, and pity wound through from Sin.

“That’s going to take fucking weeks to heal, you idiot,” Caspian growled, instantly reaching for Sin’s hand and snatching the towel away.

Caspian pulled Sin’s hand to his lips, taking his finger in his mouth, spreading his spiky aura over Sin’s skin.

“Like that’s going to heal him,” I scoffed. Even though guilt surged through me, it wasn’t the first time I’d bitten either of them like that.

A current passed between them both, their concern beating straight into my heart.

They were still worried about me. They were thinking about me. They were right here with me, their omega.

“It’s okay,” Sin reassured me, sweeping my hair back from my sweat-stained forehead.

He bent to drop a kiss there, my omega instincts fluttering with happiness from even the slightest shred of attention.

I was pathetic.

“It’s not fucking okay,” Caspian growled as he pulled Sin’s finger from his mouth. “What are you going to do if you can’t work for ages because our horny omega got too fucked up again?”

They both looked down at me, and I hated that I wanted to cry.

It was just my fault. Everything was my fault.

Sin hissed as Cas wrapped the towel over his twisted hands.

Sin never told me no, not like Cas. Sin let me do whatever I wanted to him because he loved me so much. That’s why he let me bite him so hard all the time. But Cas wouldn’t let me bite him like Sin did because Caspian still loved Camille.

That’s what it was. That’s what my fucking omega brain decided it was, so it had to be true and there was no way I was making that shit up because I was a jealous fucking child .

Which was why I bit them. To make our bond grow even stronger.

And that’s why Cas and Sin were covered in fresh teeth marks since Brandy left, from their ankles right up to their collarbones. I’d been scattering bites all over them during and after my heat.

Every time they moved, I could feel the sting of the bites on their bodies through our pack bond, and I knew we were still connected.

And then my shithead alphas wouldn’t leave me for a new omega.

I fought all the fucking time to make sure Cas never abandoned us for Camille, and then suddenly he was fucking Brandy as soon as she showed up.

All the memories kept flashing through my head of how he didn’t even hesitate as he flew straight from the bed. He’d slammed her against the door and made her come and kissed her and fucked her so deeply he made her scream.

But fucking hell. Her scent, and her cries, and the need that pounded through her when she gave herself to us.

A whine poured from me as I looked up at my alphas, who were doing a shit job at stopping the bleeding.

“Come here,” Cas said, rocking back on his knees and dragging me with him. I sat up and he wrapped his arms around my back, pulling me so hard against his chest that he almost pushed the wind from me.

My knees landed either side of his hips, my ass on his thighs.

His chest rubbed mine with hot caramel as he notched his chin on my shoulder, instantly dousing me in his messed-up aura and sending a shiver of pleasure through me.

“Why are you both so fucking annoying?” his growl rumbled through me. He was glared at Sin as well.

“You’re the one that caused the most trouble,” I instantly bit back.

His whole body stiffened, and that stupid omega part of me that always wanted to please my alphas froze in panic.

But he instantly groaned against me as his guilt flooded the bond.

“We’re not going anywhere,” he mumbled against my neck.

“I didn’t say that,” I replied, lifting my chin, still haughty as fuck.

Even though I was going fucking crazy with anxiety, I wasn’t showing my dumb alphas how hurt I really was.

We could hide stuff from each other in the bond if we focused, and I’d been practicing for years. It was only Brandy’s bite I couldn’t do it with.

“You don’t have to,” Caspian answered, stroking his hand along my back to press me even closer. “But we’re not leaving you. I meant what I said. We’re not bonding with anyone, we’re not biting anyone. So just calm the fuck down, okay?”

But that was the problem.

Cas was holding me, Cas was sinking into me, Cas was opening his fucking heart to me, and I could feel it was all totally true.

But he’d still shoved his cock inside her while I was in heat. Just like I did. Just like Sin wanted to.

And Sin wasn’t saying a single word. He just sat silently behind us, his finger absolutely burning from the bite.

It was their fault as well. Because these two bastards were thinking about her all the time as well. They just wouldn’t fucking admit it.

Sin had been pining like an absolute loser whenever he was by himself. And Cas had spent so much time at work punching the shit out of the security teams he trained with that both of them had left me all alone in the house all day.

Even though I still had to go into work and arrange details and confirm the script for a pre-Selection episode of my show next week, it didn’t fucking matter.

I just had to keep them in my nest when we were home, and all this shitty anxiety would go away.

Cas kept rubbing his nose along my neck, scent marking the fuck out of me.

“You’re my omega, Kai,” he growled. “That’s never going to change.”

I loved it when he said stuff like that because I knew how embarrassed it made him.

“You’re so shit at being romantic,” I snorted.

“Yeah, but I’m trying. And you know why?”

He pulled back to look at me, his wild irises tinged with flecks of red from all the times he’d gone rogue.

“Tell me,” I demanded, even though I wasn’t planning to forgive him.

He narrowed his eyes at me as I dug my nails into his shoulders.

“Caspian Risler, I swear to God, if you don’t tell me, I’m going to gouge your fucking eyes out.”

“Because we love you,” Sin’s smooth voice flowed over me as his cold chest pressed against my back.

“Because I love you,” Caspian followed with a scowl. I thought my heart was going to burst.

“That’s all I fucking ask,” I grumbled, like I hadn’t been absolutely dying to hear that since Brandy left.

All three of us had been so fucked up on her we’d forgotten the most important thing about being a pack.

Sin dropped his lips against the back of my neck as he held me, his towel-wrapped hand itching my waist.

He was acting like I hadn’t just mauled him. But he did that every time I bit him too hard.

And biting him there had just made Brandy’s bite sting, and my need for her pound even stronger.

“Did you hear that?” Caspian said. “Did you hear how much that means to us?”

I still narrowed my eyes at him. He was the worst offender out of the two of them.

“You still fucked her,” I mumbled. It burned to even say it out loud.

“Do you know how sorry I am? I couldn’t stop myself, okay? It was my rut.”

“That’s such a shit fucking excuse. You’re just acting like a cliché alpha now.”

“You fucked her, too.” His growl sent shivers down my spine as he brought himself close to my lips. “And you let her bite you. And you know what, Kai?” His brow scrunched up and pain scattered through our bond. “We’re both hurting each other right now, and we need to stop this shit before it gets even worse.”

“I never knew you could be so mature,” Sin teased, amusement curling through the bond as he reached out to run his other hand over Caspian’s collarbone.

“Fuck you,” he snapped at our mate, even though desire sparked in his eyes.

“I was hoping you would say that.” Sin actually fucking purred as he leaned even closer to me, rubbing his chest hard against my shoulders to make sure his scent got nice and deep.

Laughter rippled through me as I bent towards Cas, dragging him into a rough kiss. And all his growly bullshit floated away as he sank into me.

Sin sighed softly as he pressed closer, making sure I was totally loved.

“You’re everything we need, Kai,” Sin insisted, kissing the curve of my neck.

I had to make sure I absolutely covered them in amaretto so no one would even think of getting their sticky little brandy-flavoured paws into my alphas.

“We belong to you as much as you belong to us,” Sin said before he softly dug his teeth into me.

And I wanted to believe him so badly that I was totally willing to let him lie to me just so I could chase away the pain.

We could stay like this for the rest of the night, and I’d be totally happy. Just the three of us curled up so awkwardly that I was already getting pins and needles in my ass. But I wasn’t going to move until they did.

I thought it would be enough. Peace settled between us as their hearts beat against mine and Sin’s finger gently throbbed.

Until Sin’s phone pealed from the bedside table.

I groaned, and the tension that we’d just settled flared through all three of us.

And all the crap that had been winding through me just poured out all over again. Because we never knew if it might be her.

My anxiety sky-rocketed as Sin instantly hurled himself off me and swept his phone.

I should have just told him to leave it off like he did during my heat, but we were each too important to avoid our work.

Sin shot up, ramrod straight as his heart gave one massive thump.

“Melanie?” he asked breathlessly. “What’s wrong?”

And that single name ricocheted through us as my entire fucking soul plummeted and soared at the same time.

A whimper poured from me, my whole body tense as absolute dread wound its way over me like a fucking noose.

Panic flared, and I desperately reached for the phone to wrench it from him.

If I took her away, then they couldn’t have her and I’d be their only omega.

Sin instantly spread his aura over me, filling me with so much of his love that I grew dizzy.

I knew he was just using it to keep me placid, but it was fine as long as I couldn’t feel the hurt. He could mellow me out as much as he wanted, as long as I knew he still loved me.

Caspian crept closer, his hand tracing the line of my stomach to curve his hand around my cock.

I didn’t even realise I was still hard from our cuddling until he gave me a soft stroke, holding me closer and closer.

But I knew he was fucking pretending. It wasn’t me he wanted. He was doing it for her. To be close to her .

It was exactly why I snuggled back into Sin, so I could rub against him and his phone like I could fucking absorb her and get rid of her.

“I’m putting you on speakerphone,” Sin said, just as I grabbed his neck.

He pressed the button as I pushed at Caspian’s head, forcing him into my shoulder to make sure he was with me as I tugged Sin to my lips. If I could get them both to shut the fuck up, then none of us could talk to her.

But it was too late.

She was here. Right with us. Right in the fucking room.

I just had to pretend. I could keep pretending. My alphas wanted her, just like they lavished their attention on Camille, and I had to keep pretending it was all okay. I’d had five years of practice of hiding my emotions already. I could do it again.

But as soon as she started speaking, pleasure burned through the three of us, and I swore I would destroy her if I ever saw her again. I just couldn’t decide if it would be with my hands, or my cock.