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Chapter 3

Secrets we go through the motions of all the clean-up.

It’s not until hours later that I’m sitting in front of my computer, watching the video footage from the last five days, trying to find the person responsible for Dario’s death. I watch as we all come and go, but what intrigues me is Spade fucking Jade against my truck, then busting a load along the side of my door panel. That mother fucker. Then he gives the camera the finger. I’m going to fuck him up. Fucking prick.

A yawn hits me, and I call it a night. I’ll finish looking through the footage more tomorrow. It’s been a long night and I need to go check on my girl.

Powering down my laptop, I leave the room, shutting the light off as I go. Heading down the hallway, I hear soft moans coming from Ryders' room, and I just shake my head, walking by and heading to Jade’s. Opening the door quietly, I step in and see her curled into a ball on Dario’s side of the bed. I strip out of my clothes, down to my boxers, lift the sheet and climb into the bed, pulling her body into my chest and wrapping my arms around her belly, rubbing it softly.

“I love you, Princess. So fucking much. Please don’t go dark on me because if you do, then I will follow and we saw how that worked last time,” I whisper as she grips my hands over her belly.

“I won’t, Jamie, but know that I am not okay. None of this is okay, and I’m lost without him. I know that sounds horrible because I have you and Spade, but I just got him back. He’s a huge piece of my heart and life. I’m not sure if I’ll ever find my way without him. I’m sorry,” she whispers, telling me the god’s honest truth and I respect the fuck out of her for it, even if it stings deep in my chest. But I understand, we will all feel it for sometime. I just don’t need her to spiral, especially while carrying our babies.

“I know, baby, just remember you have two humans that are a piece of him growing inside you, and most of all, remember how much he loves you. He wouldn't want you to go off the deep end over him,” I say, kissing her shoulder.

“I promise I won’t go dark, but let me mourn my loss; our loss. Let me feel everything with no remorse.” She sniffles. I squeeze her tighter, burying my face in the crook of her neck.

“I’m so sorry, baby. I wish I could bring him back to us,” I say as the door creeps open and Spade steps in. He strips down to his boxers, lifting the sheet in front of her, and slides in. His eyes meet mine and I give him a sad look and a half smile. He lifts her chin, forcing her to look at him.

“Wife. I love you. Jay loves you, and most of all, Ri loves you. We are here and we aren’t going anywhere. I need you to rest tonight, and tomorrow we will take over the world. Okay, baby?” he says sternly, and I almost want to laugh, but now is not the time.

“Don’t think you’re going to go all daddy on me now, Spade. Ain't going to happen,” she says, and now I chuckle. Spade sighs and smirks.

“Well, fuck, at least I tried. Damn you, Jade.” He laughs, snuggling into her.

“I love you both so fucking much and these babies. I just know I’m going to be lost, but please, for the love of god. Don’t give up on me,” she begs, and I growl.

“Never, Princess,” I say as Spade places a gentle kiss on her lips.

“I’m not going anywhere. We will get through this,” he promises, and suddenly I feel a kick.

“Holy shit. Did you feel that?” I ask, completely taken back.

“At least he got to feel them kick.” She cries as they continue to beat on her belly.

“Is that why you ran out after him?” Spade asks, and she nods as tears pour down her face.

“Yes, and I’m so glad I did, but I’m also glad you both are here with me as they do flippies inside me. I’m going to start running out of room soon.” She hiccups, and Spade laughs.

“This is so fucking cool. I can’t wait to meet our girls, and then once you’re healed, I'm planting my seed next,” Spade says, and I snort.

“Not if I get to her first,” I say, and she smacks both of our chests.

“Um, hello, I’m right here. I get a say in this, assholes, and no, we will wait a year and see how taking care of twins is like for us. Did you both forget we are criminals, and this world isn’t safe for any of us, especially the ones we love? Think with your brains, not your dicks. Idiots,” she huffs as we both laugh.

“That’s why we will have a live-in nanny and security for the kids,” Spade says, and she huffs again.

“Live-in nanny. Get fucked. I will not come home to A. my kids missing, or B. one of you fucking the hot nanny. Not happening, because I will turn this house into a massacre,” she spits, and I laugh so fucking hard.

“Baby, I only have eyes for you,” I admit, and she laughs.

“Lies,” she says, and I bite down on her neck.

“I may have needs when it comes to men, but women? Not interested. Only you baby,” I say, and I can feel her rolling her eyes.

“Did she roll her eyes at me, Reid?”

“She sho did, Jay,” he says, and she gasps.

“Snitch,” she says, calling a spade a spade.

“Bros before hos,” he says, raising his fist, in which I bump.

“You two are ridiculous, you know that?” She yawns.

“Yes, Princess, we are well aware. Now rest, and tomorrow I’ll make you some bacon to feed the ninja babies,” I promise, and she snuggles into Spade’s chest as I rub my nose along the column of her neck.

“I love you both. Goodnight,” she whispers as we murmur our love, and soon enough, sleep takes over.