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Chapter 23

Drive-Bys & Lies

Spade

“Jesus fuck, Ry,” I hiss as his tongue swirls along my piercing. We’re supposed to be heading home, but this motherfucker had other plans the minute we left the drop spot. He was slightly annoyed that I didn’t go to bed with him last night since I’ve been away for a few days, but he also understood. I told him to come to bed with us, but he went off on his own.

I press his head further down my length as we sit at a red light. Laying my head back against the seat, he sucks my cock deeper down his throat, swallowing around me. “Mmm, you feel so fucking good.” I groan as the light turns green. “Maybe I should pull over somewhere because the way you're sucking me I do–Fuckkkk, Ry. Jesus Christ.” I groan as he gags long and hard, causing my body to shudder. He pulls up only to slam back down, and I growl. “Someone definitely missed me.” I moan as his hand cups my nuts, squeezing them gently. “Ryyy,” I warn, and he lifts his head up, releasing me with a pop as a string of saliva leaves his mouth. We come to another red light and he slams his mouth against mine, kissing me like his life depends on it. His tongue fights mine for dominance, and then he pulls away before I can deepen the kiss.

“I fucking want you, Reid. Like right the fuck now,” he growls, deep in his chest, which only makes my dick fucking twitch against the steering wheel.

“Damn, Ry. I do too.” I admit, as I try to find somewhere we can go, but the back window shatters and we both duck as Ryder’s side of the car gets lit up by bullets. The car speeds past us, but I don’t get the make or model, just the color black. “What the fuck!” I shout, putting my hard dick away. “Ry, you good? Are you hit?” I yell, as his hands cup my face.

“Na, I’m good, Ace,” he says as I check him over. He laughs at the concerned look on my face.

“It’s not funny, Ry. I’ve lost too many people, and today ain’t gonna be the day I lose you, so shut the fuck up,” I yell, but he slams his lips against mine, kissing me like a madman. He pulls away, leaving me breathless. “You really are madness under that cut,” I whisper, pressing my lips against his as I run my hands through his long hair. He growls, pulling me closer, causing me to moan as he bites my bottom lip. I pull away and he frowns. “We gotta get out of here. Call Zayn. Make sure the kids are alright,” I say, and he nods, taking out his phone and making the call. Who the fuck could have been shooting at us? The fucking list is getting longer and longer by the day, and we need to put a stop to this. I know Jade wanted to wait until she gave birth to Prince, but time isn’t on our side.

“Everything is wonderful at home. No alerts for any intruders. All is quiet,” Ry says, and I nod.

“What is going through your head, Ace?” He asks, and I sigh.

“Do you really want to know?” I reply. He doesn’t want this life. How can I continue this relationship when he’s not all the way in? He says he loves me, but he wants nothing to do with the club. There’s no difference between our family and club life. It’s all the fucking same.

“I do,” he says, and I shake my head.

“Ry, why do you care? You don’t want this life for yourself, but yet you're still fucking here,” I say, and he growls.

“I’m here because I love you, and no matter what the fuck is happening in the underground, it doesn’t fucking mean I’m leaving you,” he states, and I laugh.

“That’s bullshit. You tell me all the time that you don’t want to take over the club. This isn’t the life you chose, but my life with the others is the same one you don’t want,” I snap as we drive down the deserted road in the middle of the day. Jade should be almost to the warehouse by now, and I’m already on edge because of that whole situation. It’s like everything is coming at us at all ends, non-fucking stop.

“You’re right, Reid. I don’t want this life, but if that means losing you because of it, then fuck it. I’m all fucking in. Just please don’t give up on me. I’m still working things out in my head that have nothing to do with how I fucking feel about you,” he says as I turn onto our block.

“I won’t force you to be here because you love me. I want you to be here because you choose to be,” I declare, pulling up to the gates, punching in the code and waiting for them to open.

“Look at me, Ace,” he says as the gates open and I press the gas, taking us up the driveway. Putting the car in park, I look over at him. He cups my face as I look into his eyes and see nothing but love and sadness. It’s like he’s waging a war within himself, and I hate that. “I’m here, baby. I’m not going anywhere. Whatever happens, we will get through it together,” he states as he leans in, pressing his lips to mine. Leaning my forehead against his, I take a deep breath.

“Do I make you happy?” I whisper as he presses his lips softly against mine, then pulls away.

“Yes, Ace. So fucking happy, and most of all, safe. You, Reid Rodriguez, are my safe place. Without you, I’d be dead already,” he admits. “I love you, Ace. Never doubt me or you will force me to fuck it out of you.” He laughs, bringing a smile to my face.

“I love you too, my biker bitch.” I chuckle. He presses his lips against mine once more, gripping my face tightly before pulling away.

“Tonight, after we put the kids to bed, you’re mine. You got that?” He growls, and I grin.

“That’s if we can make it until tonight.” I laugh, shutting off the car and climbing out. “Fuck! How much damage did those motherfuckers do to my baby?” I ask as he climbs out, taking a step back to assess. He places his hand over his face, then looks at me.

“Umm, let's just call Harley and see if he can take care of this,” he says, and I shake my head.

“I don’t want to see, do I?” I groan, and he laughs.

“Nope. So let's just keep it moving.” He laughs as he rounds the car, wrapping his arm around my shoulder as we walk up the cobblestone. “Remind me later to tell you about Teagan,” he says, and my face shoots up and over to him.

“What about Teagan?” I say, stopping in my tracks.

“I said later,” he retorts.

“You know damn well the way my mind works. Spill it now or I won’t stop thinking about it for the rest of the day and I’ll end up bugging you any chance I get, so fucking tell me now,” I say, and he sighs.

“Promise you won’t get mad?” he asks, and I nod. Fuck, this isn’t going to be good. “Words, Ace,” he growls, and I take a deep breath, knowing this is probably going to piss me all the way off.

“Fine. I’ll try,” I say, staring at him as he looks everywhere but in my eyes. Fuck.

“I’ve been meeting up with her,” he confesses, and I raise a brow while folding my arms over my chest.

“Interesting. For what?” I ask as I stare at him, looking for the deceit, which is written all over his features.

“She summoned me weeks ago for a meetup. Every time I said I was dealing with club shit, I wasn’t. I went to meet with her,” he admits as my heart rate begins to rise.

“So you’ve been lying to me and sneaking around with the enemy? Someone we’ve been warned to stay the fuck away from. But there you are, running around with her while lying to me, who literally worries for your safety when you're not with me,” I shout. He takes a step closer, but I push him away.

“Don’t fucking push me, Reid. Let me fucking explain.” He growls, but my rage is boiling over. I don’t like being fucking lied to, especially by someone I fucking love and trust.

“Why? So you can spew more bullshit my way? Is this a fucking game to you? Did she put you up to this?” I sneer as he takes a step towards me.

“No, I’d never fucking do that to you. Never. That’s not who I am,” he growls.

“Yea, well, the person standing in front of me is not who you are. I’ve never given you a reason to lie or be deceitful,” I spit, throwing the keys to my charger at him.

“Take it to Harley's. I need some fucking space.” I grimace, walking towards the door.

“Don’t, Reid. Let me explain!” he shouts, and I spin before reaching the front door.

“Your chance to be honest has come and gone. I need to fucking think and go take care of my kids,” I hiss, opening the door and slamming it behind me. My heart is in my throat as I walk through the front of the house to the kitchen. Opening the fridge, I grab a water bottle, twist the top off, then chug it, slamming the empty plastic onto the counter.

“Rough day?” Zayn says, staring at me from the back door.

“You could say that. How are the kids?” I ask as he walks in, leaning against the stove.

“They’re good. Both have been sleeping for about an hour,” he says, and I nod. “Wanna tell me why you look so pissed?” he asks, but I shake my head.

“Maybe some other time. Can you head to the warehouse to relieve Rafe? Just keep your distance from her. I don’t need to hear her mouth later if she spots you,” I plead, and he chuckles.

“Sure, no problem, Boss. I’ll head there now,” he says, taking off towards the hallway.

“Thanks man. See you later,” I say as he nods, leaving the house. I stand in the kitchen for what feels like forever. My phone vibrates in my pocket and I take it out, opening the text.

Ryder:

I’m sorry. I’ll give you the space you need, but I will be home later. I love you Reid. Don’t fucking give up on me yet.

Leaving him on read, I place the phone down and take a deep breath, hating the way I feel right now. I fucking love him just as much as I love Jade. Feeling betrayed by him is unbearable. I fucking hate it. I just hope we can get past this and the lies come to an end. He says I’m his safe place but yet he didn’t feel safe enough to confide in me. Fuck!

I just want to be happy with him and her by my side, but I won’t put up with the lies from either of them and if push comes to shove, he will leave me no choice but to walk away.