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Story: Star (Wildflowers 2)
"I had that problem for a long time after I was supposed to. Momma even took me to the doctor once and he told her it wa
s all in my head. She got mad at him and called him stupid because it was all in my panties not in my head. He wanted me to go see a psychiatrist back then and Momma called him nuts and dragged me out of the office, screaming she wasn't going to pay no quack a penny. She vowed she'd cure me and her way was to force me to wear wet panties, even when Daddy complained about the stink"
"Ugh," Jade moaned. "That's disgusting. Can I get a glass of water or something, Doctor Marlowe?"
"Sure. How about the rest of you?" She smiled at Misty. "Want milk9"
"No thanks," she said quickly, looking like she was holding breakfast down. "I'll just have water, too:'
"All right. Let me get a pitcher of ice water for now. It's so humid, isn't it?" Doctor Marlowe looked at me and I thought she looked pleased. I guess she wanted me to shake up our little group after all.
She rose. Cathy said she had to go to the bathroom and left with her. Jade and Misty turned to me.
"Do you see your mother much anymore?" Misty asked.
"No. I'll talk about all that when they return," I said. "Otherwise I'll just be repeating myself and these things aren't things I like to talk about, much less repeat:'
She nodded. They were both quiet for a moment, but I could see Jade's mind working.
"It's not really my business," she said softly, "but under the circumstances, how can your grandmother afford Doctor Marlowe? I mean, I know what it's costing my parents," she added, looking to Misty, who nodded.
"The court told some agency to pay for it. I don't know all the details, but no one asks me or my granny for any money. If they did, I wouldn't come back. That's for sure. We got better places for Granny's money."
They both looked sorry for me.
"Don't worry about me," I told them sharply. "I'm not looking for anyone's pity or charity and I'd really rather not come here, but I got to."
They both nodded, trying not to look too sympathetic so I wouldn't get mad at them.
Cat returned first and avoided my eyes.
"You look nice today," Misty told her. "You oughta cut your bangs, though."
"You have split ends, too," Jade told her. "Where do you go to get your hair done?"
"My mother does my hair," Cat said.
"So, just tell her to trim it more," Misty said with a shrug.
She ain't so bad, I thought. At least she don't seem as stuck up.
Doctor Marlowe set the tray with a jug of ice water and glasses on the table.
"I've got a surprise for you all today," she said. "Since we started a little later this morning, I decided it a real lunch break, so I'm having some pizzas brought in?'
"Maybe I won't take that long," I suggested.
"Then Jade will get started:' Doctor Marlowe quickly replied. Cat looked relieved knowing she didn't have to be next. When her turn came, she would definitely fail to show up, I thought.
Doctor Marlowe poured everyone a glass of water. Then she nodded at me to continue.
"When I was nearly nine years old, Momma got pregnant again:' I said."I thought she was never going to have another baby. She had kept from getting pregnant for a long time. I didn't know it until much later, but Momma had been pregnant before. She had lost a baby when I was only two, lost it in our bathtub."
The three of them froze in anticipation of me describing how. I thought about it for a few moments and decided not to. When I talked about the next pregnancy instead, they looked very relieved. It almost made me laugh out loud. I was beginning to enjoy the grimaces, looks of shock and disgust on their faces.
Doctor Marlowe could see that in my face, too. She gave me a look that told me so and I wiped the smug smile off my face quickly.
"For a little while after my momma became pregnant, things settled down in our house. Momma actually cut back on her drinking because the doctor told her she could hurt the baby. She did a better job of cleaning our house. She cooked again and Daddy got more work. We had a little money and did some nice things together, like taking trips to Magic Mountain and once to Knott's Berry Farm. We went to visit Daddy's cousin Leonard in San Diego, too, and went to the zoo.
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