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Why am I suddenly shy? I’ve never been shy about sex.
Oh, I know why.
Because I’ve never been in love while having it.
“I mean, I want to respect you. I only want you, so do both you and Grant have to fuck my vagina? One after the other? You know, with your penises until you both ejaculate inside me?”
“Well, shit.” He chuckles. “Way to getrealspecific.”
“Uh! You said to.”
“I know. I know,” he grumbles, laughing. “And yes, that’s what the other queens have done. It’s like receiving two husbands on one wedding night. That’s the tradition, but now we do it with condoms and consent.”
“But not Zar,” I plead my case. “He doesn’t have a vagina, so on his wedding night, his ass received Nick, then Sire, right?”
“Damn,” he marvels. “When I said take a specific inch, you took a very vivid mile.”
“Answer my question, your honor. Are asses up for initiation?”
“Apparently, so. Yes.”
“Then let Grant initiate my ass so I can save my pussy for you. Only you.”
“Again,” his laugh is so deep, I feel it inside me, “you’reaware my penis is still inside said pussy while we’re having this conversation?”
“I’m very awareeverytime your penis is inside me, and it seems apropos.”
“Oh.” He winks. “Objection. That’s a Carolina Law word.”
“Answer the question, please, and settle this case. Can we do it that way so I don’t have to worry anymore?”
“Were you worried?”
“Yeah, I was.”
Silence. Heavy, unlaughing silence.
“Ruby, we won’t do it if you don’t want it. I’m the first king. If you want, I’ll insist we make you a queen another way.”
Here we go again: Axel melting my heart with his icy eyes.
He’d rearrange his world for me when all I want is to be in it.
“But I want to be like the other queens. It’s like what Nick said when we were in Greece. I don’t want to be different. I grew up that way. I was bullied for it. And I trust Grant. I’ve done it before. I heard how much Nash and Jace made Vale like her initiation, her DP, and?—”
“They didn’t DP her,” he explains what I didn’t see. “That’s not what they wanted. Nash held Vale while she was on top of him, rubbing her clit on Nash’s cock while Jace initiated her pussy and I think they got off on rubbing their cocks together, too, and?—”
“God,” I sigh, “that’s hot.”
“Not for me. Nash and Jace aren’t brothers. But I’m not doing that with mine and?—”
“I get it. And I only want you in my pussy. So let Grant DP me with you, and I know it will be special.” Yes, I hear myself. “As special as a DP can be and—” I sigh, “You get the idea.”
“We’ll stop,” he assures, “at any moment, if it’s not what you want. I promise. I’ll kill a brother if he hurts you.”
I believe him, and I’d never let him do it. Axel’s family means too much to him. To me, too.
“Itiswhat I want.” Gently, like a mouse to a crouching lion, I kiss him. “Because I kind ofreallylove you.”