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“Let me know if you need me to have someone look into that case, but I’m good.

I’m dealing with multiple cases of perctanyl popping up over the city.

This substance is spreading like wildfire, and it’s hard to stop it.

Every time we raid one drug house and lab, another grows up like a weed.

If we can just bust the middle man or main man, that will slow the substance down. ”

Sur exhaled. “That is tough, baby. You’re a great officer, and I know when the time is right, you’re going to catch your perp.”

I smiled and tossed him a kiss. “Thank you, baby, and you’re going to get the answers to your suspicions. I appreciate you for checking in on me. Things are looking up for us, wouldn’t you say?”

He nodded with a wide grin. “I would surely say that. I mean, I’m still growing to trust you like I once did, but I’m not rushing it. Healing takes time, you know?”

This time I nodded. “Yeah, I do, love. I just want to reassure you that I have not cheated on you since then, my love. There is no way I can hurt you like that again. I refuse to, but there is something that I want to speak to you about before next week’s therapy session,” I professed.

Sur drank a little more sake then gave me his full attention. “I’m all ears, pretty.”

I exhaled. “Sur, there’s a side of me that’s not being fulfilled, baby.

I’m working overtime to prove to you that I can be trusted again, and to save our marriage, but I visit Lucid’s Titty Bar sometimes after work.

It’s the only time I feel like the other side of me can partially be fulfilled.

I don’t touch any of the women there or pay for private services, but I like to watch them.

I enjoy it a lot, my love. Last night, I was there, and I met a server named Domaneek, but she said to call her Dom.

We didn’t do anything but talk. I can’t lie to you and tell you that I didn’t want to touch her because I did, but I refrained.

During our conversation, an idea came to mind.

Just knowing the man you are, I know you are opposed to an open marriage. ”

“You damn right I am. I’m not about to sit back while you fuck different women, knowing I want you all to myself. I can’t sleep around on you, Lai. I ain’t that kinda man. I took my vows seriously,” he admitted.

I nodded my understanding. “Sur, I know, baby. That’s why I have another idea in mind.”

Sur rolled his eyes to the ceiling and chewed on another roll. When he swallowed, he looked back at me. “Lay it on me, Lai.”

“How would you feel if we have a poly marriage? It’s where we both agree on a woman to bring into our marriage, and we both have sex with her and experience any other pleasures with her and her only.”

“And I take it you want it to be this Dom woman?”

“I would like for it to be.”

Sur shook his head. “I’ll never be enough for you. I used to be but not anymore.”

“Baby, this ain’t just about you. It’s about me.

I’m so sorry that I didn’t reveal my full self to you.

I’m sorry that I’m attracted to women just like men.

I can’t help that I’m this way, but you know now.

Sur, I need you during this trying time.

I don’t ever want to let you go, but I can’t keep suppressing this other side of me.

For once in my life, I’d like to be fully complete and live in my truth.

I can no longer pretend anymore. I just can’t. ”

My hands covered my face, and I sobbed quietly. I really was sorry for hurting him, but if he couldn’t see things my way, then I’d leave him before I hurt him again.

Out of nowhere, I felt myself carefully lifted before Sur sat in my chair while I sat on his lap.

“Stop crying, baby. You know I hate to see you cry or be sad.”

I sniffled and wiped my face with the cloth napkin he handed me.

“Lai, I can’t even pretend to understand how you feel.

I don’t know what’s it like to hide a part of yourself from everyone you love and know.

I’ve lived in my truth all my life. You were the only woman I’ve ever loved.

I knew the first day I saw you that I wanted forever with you, your pretty brown eyes, and kindness.

Look, I can’t say yes right off the bat to this poly lifestyle because I’ll feel like I’m cheating on you.

What I can say is that I’ll feel this woman Dom out for you.

You deserve to be fully happy like me and the next person. ”

I looked into his eyes and smiled. “You really mean that?”

He nodded and kissed my lips. “Yes. I mean that.”

I grinned then hugged him tightly. Sur held me back. I knew I married the right man. Thank you, God, for him and his heart. This was the first step in the right direction.

We parted and he looked at me. “When can I meet Dom?”

I beamed. “I’m glad you asked. She sells her treats at the farmer’s market on the weekends, and tomorrow is Sunday. It’s the perfect day for you to meet her and get a feel for her. I’m telling you, baby, you’re going to like her.”

“We’ll see tomorrow.”

He kissed my lips, and we went back to eating and drinking. The conversation started off rocky, but it ended on a major high note. Things looked up for my husband and me.