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At his admission, I froze. Our eyes locked, but Sur continued to drill into me as if he just didn’t drop a bomb in me. He lifted up my leg and went crazy. I was too stunned to speak. How could he say something like that? What about Lai?

“Get out of your head, and fuck me back.”

I couldn’t though. I tapped Sur to get off me.

“Move.”

“Are you serious?” he questioned.

“Yes!” I spat.

Sur pulled out of me then helped me up.

“What’s wrong?” Lai quizzed, handing me my sheer designer robe.

“You and Sur. That’s what’s wrong. You two are ruining our relationship.

Lai, you can’t even have sex with yo’ own husband now that you’re getting consistent pussy.

You didn’t foresee how your sexual identity would affect him?

” I turned to Sur. “And you. How can you even say that you see me as your wife when you’re already married? Shit is getting real sticky now.”

“What?” Lai probed, looking at Sur then to me.

“I’m not done. It’s as if both of you want me for yourself. That’s so unfair because I love you both.”

“I’m still stuck on the fact that you want to marry Dom,” Lai stated. Her voice trembled after every word she spoke.

Sur slipped into his joggers then pulled on his tee. He walked over and stood in front of both of us.

“Let me tell you both something. I matter. My fucking feelings matter. When will I ever matter to y’all?

” Sur turned to Lai. “You want the title of being a wife, yet all of sudden, you can’t fuck me anymore.

Lai, it’s your fault I fell in love with Dom, not hers.

” He turned to me. “I love you. I’m in love with you, Dom.

It’s time you realize and accept that. I’m going out for a drink. I’ll be back later.”

I stepped forward because I didn’t want him to go. Why couldn’t he just go up to our room and relax?

“Sur, please don’t leave. We all need a minute to regroup. A lot of things were said, but you don’t have to leave, baby. I love you too,” I announced, grabbing onto his hand.

He shook his head. “You sound concerned… like woman who’s in love.”

Sur kissed my forehead then walked past us.

My heart broke with every step Sur took away from us.

I didn’t know about Lai, but I didn’t want him to leave.

I loved him so much. When the garage door rose, my heart ached for my man.

Sur was right. He did matter, and so did his feelings.

I cleaned up the backyard and sniffled with every move I made.

Today was not a good day. It turned out to be a shitty day.

“What do you need me to do?” Lai inquired.

“Do whatever makes you feel good, Lai.”

I finished up the backyard and walked past her and into the house.

“Dom. Dom! Wait!”

I stopped in my tracks and faced her. We stood in the living room and stared each other down. Tears continued to run down my face.

“What, Lai?”

“What did I do so wrong? How is me wanting to live in my truth wrong?”

“There’s nothing wrong with it, love. It’s how you’re going about it.

You have a husband that loves and supports you unconditionally, but you don’t want him.

You’re leaving me to fulfill him while you indulge on me.

That shit ain’t fair. I don’t only love you.

Sur is my love too. I think it’s time you look in the mirror and own yo’ shit.

Decide what you’re going to do because none of us can live like this.

We have a child coming into this world. All three of us have to be healthy mentally, emotionally, and physically for our baby,” I ranted.

I dropped the folded blankets on the floor and walked to my room. I was tired and sad. Every part of me wanted Sur back. I sent him a few messages when I made it inside. He’d respond sooner or later.

While I showered, I cried. I hated that I rejected him earlier.

I was scared and shocked at his admission.

Sur had my heart… my whole heart. I wanted him in every capacity that I could have him in.

When he came back, I’d let him know that.

It was never my intention to fall so deeply in love with Lai’s husband that I refused to stand up.

I had no desire to. I’d fallen in love for the first time. This space felt so damn good.

I handled my hygiene. When I was done, I stared in the mirror.

It was my turn to face the woman in the mirror.

I loved Lai sincerely, but the hard truth was I was in love with Sur.

The taste of pussy would always be a flavor I enjoyed, but I refused to let anything come between me and the man that made my stomach flutter like a butterfly resting on a petal.

I climbed under my covers with my E-reader and read Theirs to Own by Wynta Tyme until I dozed off.

I didn’t know how long I was asleep before there was a dip behind me.

Light kisses peppered my exposed back and neck.

Strong hands caressed my body, pulling my nightie up until I was completely naked.

Sur’s fresh soap scent filled my nose. My heart fluttered, and chill bumps broke out along my skin.

I felt complete again. My love had returned and found me.

Sur turned me on my back and hovered over me.

It wasn’t pitch black in my room. There was a sliver of light from the moon that streamed through my balcony doors.

Sur’s eyes were red. I wasn’t sure if it was from crying, drinking, or a cigar.

The redness made me yearn to protect him from what bothered him.

My eyes roamed over his fade, beard, and muscular build.

Sur was so damn fine. It was evident my baby was hurting, but I was ecstatic he was home. I had just the remedy he needed.

“I’m sorry, beautiful. I never should’ve left,” he expressed in a deep yet solemn tone. Sur nudged his dick against my opening until he’d slipped in me.

“Fuck,” I cried out in a pant. Sur’s strokes were like no other. “Baby, I’m sorry too. I never should’ve rejected you. Earlier was a lot to take in. When I did process it, I realized that I’m in love with you. I want everything you want to give. A life with you and our baby is all I desire.”

“You mean that?” Sur questioned, giving me deeper strokes.

I clenched my pussy muscles on him, making us tense from the pressure.

“Yes. I do mean it, Surtain.”

“That’s my girl. You’re mine, Dom. All mine. You hear me?”

“Ooh. Ahh! Yes! I do, baby.”

Sur and I made love until the wee hours of the morning. I wasn’t sure how we’d make it right with Lai. What I did know was that I was not giving up this good man.