Page 128 of The Governess Who Stole My Heart

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“But how is that possible?”John asked in uttershock.

He stood up from his desk and walked over to Susan who had just come into the library and announced that Daniel was stillalive.

Susan relayed the story, and added, “It’s come as the most astounding surprise, as you canimagine.”

John was so astonished he didn’t know how to respond. He turned from Susan and went to the window to find some calm by looking out at thepark.

“And I expect he has renewed his suit to you?” heasked.

“Yes,” Susan answeredsoftly.

“And what about us? Do I have any chance with you at all?” he asked, still staring out thewindow.

Susan came over to him from behind and put a hand on hisshoulder.

“John, I am in utter turmoil. How can I deny what I feel for you? How can I deny what I feel forhim?”

John turned to her, both terrified and furious—not with her but with the situation. “But Susan that’s a decision you’re going to have tomake.

“I knowthat.”

“And what about Elizabeth? Have you given her welfare any of your consideration?” heasked.

“Oh, John, you know I have. But please be patient with me. I can’t make such an important decision until I get over the shock of his return, and until I come to some peace and understanding withinmyself.”

John felt his only hope with her was to be patient, and he asked with apprehension about the answer, “Answer me honestly, do you still have any feelings for me atall?”

“Oh, my dear, John. You know Ido.”

“And I hope whatever you decide will not affect your care for Elizabeth and your work on theschool.”

Susan hesitated. “If I were to marry Daniel, I would most likely need to move with him to Portsmouth where his new business islocated.”

“Oh, Susan… all that we’ve planned together…” He was too overwhelmed to say anymore.

“John, my dearest…” she put her hand on his arm and hung herhead.

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It wasmid-afternoon just before Elizabeth’s nap time and they were practicing writing printing letters when Standish came to the door, knocked andentered.

“Miss Susan,Captain…”

But he was interrupted as Daniel pushed past him into theschoolroom.

“Susan, please, I must speak with you immediately,” hewailed.

He was no longer wearing his uniform but was dressed casually—his hair tousled and unkempt. His eyes had dark circles and he wasunshaven.

“Daniel, I’m in the midst of teaching.” She checked the clock. “I shall be finished in half an hour. Please wait for me in the drawingroom.”

Standish attempted to lead Daniel away, but he brushed Standishoff.

“Now, please. I must speak to younow.”

“Very well.” She turned to Elizabeth. “We’ll have our nap time a little early today, mydear.”