Page 20 of Resisting Your Love

I was depressed and had nobody to blame but myself.

How did I lose my man and my best friend right before Christmas?

I didn't care too much about losing Mimi since she flipped the script and turned her back on me.

Since she got with Joel's cousin, she'd changed big time.

When I needed her the most, she sided with Joel with her boyfriend.

That was something I never saw coming. She was at my wedding as my maid of honor.

Now, who else did I have? Nobody — I was all alone.

I was held up in a hotel, not wanting to go back to my father's house. He'd probably ask a million questions about what was going on. Those were questions I didn't have the answer to or wanted to answer.

My cell phone rang as I relaxed across the bed, flipping through channels, trying to find something to watch. Nothing held my attention. The only thing on was Christmas movies, and I wasn't in the Christmas spirit anymore.

I reached for the phone that was on the pillow and checked to see who was calling me.

Surprise hit me when I saw my caller was Zyanna.

She'd sometimes call about an event, but I knew we didn't have anything until next year.

With it being Christmas time, I thought we'd have something, but I was happy we got to rest a bit.

I knew as a community they had festivals in Skyeville.

I wouldn't be attending either of them. Without anyone to go with me, what would be the point?

"Hello?" I answered.

"Hey, girl. I'm calling to check on you. Levi told me what happened."

I had a feeling he'd confide in the two people he was the closest to — River and Zyanna. They probably had a lot to say about me.

"Yeah, we stopped talking to each other." I didn't have to beat around the bush, especially when it came to someone calling to let me know I was wrong.

"Yes, he told me, and I wanted to let you know I don't agree with the way he's handling things. Levi doesn't think when he does things. Once he flips out, that's it."

Zyanna wasn't telling me anything I didn't know already about her cousin. Levi was ridiculous when he was mad.

I sat up and yawned, covering my mouth out of habit.

"Yeah, well, it is what it is. I am hurt by it, but I'll find a way to get over it.

" I got out of bed and went to the refrigerator to see what I had in there to eat.

Hopefully, I had something in there. If not, I'd have to go out even when I didn't want to.

"It's not, though. Y'all going to be miserable in a house and not talking. If word gets out that you are in a hotel, hell is going to break loose."

Zyanna had a point. "I won't go anywhere that I'm not welcome," I insisted, closing the refrigerator back. There wasn't anything to eat in there. "If your cousin wants me back, he has my number. I am pretty sure he knows where I am right now since he has my location."

She mumbled something about two stubborn people, causing me to smile.

"Look, I can't make you go back, but can you at least try?"

I shook my head as if she could see me and took a seat on the couch. "No, I won't. I can't say I don't miss him because I do. If we are able to make things work, I'll be happy. If we can't, then I don't know. I want to reach out to him but don't know how he will react."

"You won't know until you try."

I gnawed my bottom lip and sighed deeply. "That's true, but I don't know."

I hated talking about Levi or even thinking about him when we weren't on good terms.

"I wish it was something I could do," she sadly stated.

I smiled. "You can't, but it's fine. Thanks for calling."

When I hung up the phone with her, I had to fight back tears. I wished my mother were alive. She would have known what to do in this situation. Right now, I was lost and needed her more than anything.

My cell phone rang, causing me to jump. I eyed the number, seeing that it was unknown.

I answered. "Hello?"

"Well, it's about damn time you answered my calls," the voice said on the other end of the phone.

I growled. "Joel, I want you to listen to me and listen to me good.

You didn't want me, so why the hell are you calling me now?

Don't even answer that. I want you to leave me the hell alone.

I've moved on from you, and I suggest you do the same.

It's over and done with and has been for a long ass time. "

I didn't give him time to say anything else before I hung up the phone. If I didn't get my phone number changed as soon as possible, I'd lose my mind. Joel was doing too much.