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It had been a couple of weeks since the meeting with Poetic and Tatum and I was feeling refreshed. I had been going to therapy ever since that day and I felt like it was time to talk to my mama since all of this was going to come out in the open real soon. After that intense session we had we thought it would be better to chill for a couple of weeks and continue to get things brewing so when we came we came hard enough to put this bitch away for years. We knew she was going to go down for real since Tatum’s mama had Trent’s boxers he wore that day put up in a safe place where the DNA could still be used. So, his letter, the DNA sample, and our stories were sure going to bring more victims out along with putting her ass away. Poetic and I also decided to do one of our series episodes on what happened to us after the story is released. I was sitting out in front of my mama’s house trying to get up the nerve to get out the car. Symphony wanted to come with me but I told her no. I needed to do this one alone. The sound of my phone vibrating bringing me from my thoughts grasp my attention. I looked at it and saw it was Symphony.

My Heart:

Baby, get out the car you got this.

Me:

Lol, how you know I’m in the car?

My Heart:

Because I know you.

I shook my head, hit the lock button, and got out of the car. I stood in front of the door and stared for a moment, then all the sudden it opened.

“Hey son, come on in.” My mama was standing there looking beautiful as always. I swear my baby girl looked just like her. I swear she better be lucky I’m trying to be a better person because of my wife and kids. I wouldn’t be here today if it weren’t for them.

“Hello Donna, how are you?” I asked while heading in the door. She stood there staring at me with sad eyes. She already knew how I felt about her, so that wasn’t new. She would often send messages home by Symphony hoping one day I would give in to talk to her. Between the therapy sessions, long talks with my wife and us coming to close to getting Carol Peterson put away. I felt like it was time.

“Can I get you something to drink?”

“No, I just want to get this over with. I want you to know that I’ll never forget what went down. The only reason I’m going to forgive you is because of my kids. The fact that you took the money and ran instead of making sure that bitch paid for what she did hurts me to the core. Especially when you telling could have saved some other lives, because that bitch kept going she kept hurting people.”

“I’m sorry Dashawn, I didn’t mean for all this to happen.”

“Why didn’t you go report it?” I asked.

“Baby, I was young and dumb back then only worried about money. I was a single mom and never wanted to be broke. Your daddy denied you and went on with his life and left us struggling. So, when you started acting it saved us from being poor and homeless and I never wanted us to go through those things ever again.”

“So, you let your son go through the darkest time of his life so you wouldn’t have to work ya ass off to keep us out of the poor house.”

“I said, I’m sorry son, I don’t know what more you want me to say.”

“I don’t need your sorry and I’m good on you. I’ll never forget but I’ll forgive you for my kids. Now all that getting together and stuff like that it’ll take time but I’ll try for my babies. Are you going to therapy?” I asked.

“Yes, that was one of the things that Symphony made me promise to do in order to see my grandkids. I’m not even going to lie what I did was some crazy shit to do to your kids. I know you’ll never forgive me and I fucked up our relationship, but I’m trying my best to be there for my grandkids the way I need to be. I know I wasn’t your protector and I once again apologize for that. I’ll forever be my grandkids protector if you allow me to be.”

“I’m already allowing you to be in their lives and maybe one day they’ll be able to experience all of us in one room together for a holiday or something. I don’t know when or if it’ll happen but I do know it won’t happen overnight. You have to give me time to process trying to make this work.” I said being honest.

“I owe you that and more so I won’t complain at all or rush you. I’ve been meaning to tell you; you did good with Symphony son. One thing about her is she don’t play about you and your wellbeing and I love that for you. She set me straight the minute she met me she tore me a new ass hole. I thought she was going to beat my ass the way she came over here to talk.” Donna giggled causing me to do the same.

“Yeah, I definitely got the prize when it comes to my wife.” I chuckled still thinking about Symphony beating her ass. I was finally warming up to being here after she told me she was going to therapy and my wife had already checked her about being with me. These things made it easier to be here. Me and Donna talked some more about whatever came to mind. I knew I would never forget what she did, but I thought about it a little more while being here. I guess it wouldn’t hurt to have my mama back in my life. It would still be from a distance. After what she did to me I will trust her to a point, but not all the way around the board.