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Lilith

Day Three

A small beam of sunshine is streaming through the small broken window in the corner of the room. I noticed the vines growing through the broken glass, creeping into the concrete room. It looks like it’s grown a little since I’ve been stuck here. Yesterday, Zypher and Morwen didn’t touch me. Morwen never even came into the room. Zypher brought in that flavorless slop for us but hardly said anything to us. I fully expected him to rape me again when he told me to lie on the table, but all he did was check the marks on my back that he made.

I haven’t risked healing myself because I don’t know if I can single out just the discomfort. If I end up healing everything, it will instantly give away the fact that I can still do magic. For now, I just have to suck it up and let it heal on its own. Thankfully, it feels much better today than it did yesterday.

I talk to the guys through our mind link basically every waking moment so we can keep one another sane. It’s boring sitting here doing nothing all day, so we talk in our minds while we pretend that we aren’t. We are careful about facial expressions, and we don’t really even look at each other often. We know they are watching.

Judging by the sunlight coming through the window, I’m guessing it is about mid-afternoon. When the door comes open and I see Morwen walk in with Zypher, I know my luck just ran out. I’m about to get assaulted again.

“ I don’t have to act like I want it from Morwen, do I?” I ask my mates through our mind link.

“ No. Just Zypher. He won’t give a shit what you say or do to Morwen, as long as you don’t cross any major lines,” Daemon says.

“Miss me? Morwen asks.

“No,” I deadpan. Zypher motions for me to get off the table and come closer to him, so I do so without hesitation. He turns me around to look at my back. It takes everything in me to not flinch or pull away at his touch. Morwen is smirking at me, but I keep the same annoyed look on my face until Zypher turns me back to face him.

“Are you going to fight us today, Lilith?” Zypher asks simply.

“What’s the point?” I say honestly.

“At least you’re learning,” he replies simply. I half expected him to get pissy because I didn’t say a solid no. It would be suspicious if I instantly flipped to make him think I was consenting. I have to ease him into this or else I’ll get us all killed if he knows I’m trying to trick him. “Go bend over the table.”

Once again, I do as I am told without hesitation. I want nothing more than to punch him in the face, but I would rather not get whipped again. I’ll let them think that being whipped forced me into compliance. In reality, all it did was fuel the rage inside of me. It’s feeding my plan to kill him.

I bend over the table and try to calm myself. “ Morwen first,” Kael warns me.

I close my eyes and try to prepare the best I can. I hear his zipper first before I feel his hands on my waist. As I expected, Morwen buries himself inside of me with one thrust, and I scream and tighten my fists into balls. The guys are talking to me and keeping me from fighting him, but nothing is taking away the pain he is causing. Eventually, I fall into just whimpers and cries as he forcefully fucks me. He is grunting and sweating as he steals his pleasure from my body. When he finishes, he groans loudly as he drains himself.

Morwen steps away, and I am still crying. I don’t move because I know that Zypher is about to take his turn at raping me. I have to appear to be more willing with him than I was last time. I want him to think I am warming up to him.

Zypher grabs my hips and slowly pushes into me. It seems like he’s going to take the creepy route and try to make me come again.

“ He’s going to try and make me come again ,” I tell my mates.

“ Just close your eyes and picture it’s one of us, baby. We will talk to you the entire time,” Callum says.

His pace is slowly quickening. Soon he is pounding into me. I focus on my mate’s words and moan for them, not Zypher. Zypher would never be able to make me feel the way my mates do. I intentionally tighten my muscles around him, and he groans. I think it’s hilarious that my simplest of actions give such a large reaction. I am trying to get the hang of using the energy I am drawing against him rather than storing it. I am starting to recognize what it feels like when I pull from someone. I then simply focus on them. I don’t think I am causing too much stress on Zypher, but when I try to turn it on him, he groans and pushes into me harder.

“ You’re doing so good, baby,” Daemon says.

“Let go, baby,” Kael encourages.

“Fuck,” I say in a hushed tone as my body tenses up and a weak orgasm ripples through me. I moan softly and push my hips back slightly to see what he will do. This simple gesture turns him feral, and he starts slamming into me harder and harder. He moves me up so that my hands are on the edge of the table, and it gives him the opportunity to reach around and rub my clit.

“ That’s not what I intended to happen,” I tell my mates.

“ You’re still learning, and he has a point to prove. Let him get you off, ” Callum says.

“ This is so fucked up, ” I say to them, but outwardly it’s a groan.

Zypher is determined to make me come again. He is assaulting my clit while he drives into me. Though I keep pushing back against him to give the illusion that I want this, but subtly. Zypher slows his pace, but I know he’s not done with me.

“You’re going to come while I fuck this tight little hole,” he says as he pinches my clit and sinks into my ass. A deep groan slips out of me unexpectedly, and Zypher surges into me harder when he realizes he’s feeding that unwilling pleasure.

“ Fuck. I don’t want to come for him. I want my mates,” I complain to the guys.

“ I know, baby, but you’re a succubus. Use it. Drive him crazy and use it against him,” Daemon says . “When we are out of here, we will replace each and every orgasm he makes you have. We will make you feel better, I swear it.”

Zypher is rutting into me harder and harder. I close my eyes and picture that it’s Kael, not Zypher. I imagine that it’s Daemon pinching and rolling my clit between his fingers. It’s Callum groaning, and it’s my mates making my legs tremble

I can feel the energy. I turn it on him and fuck him back by moving my hips to push him deeper. I fall into a pattern meeting him with force while he pinches harder. My mates continue to feed me encouraging words to help me keep up this fantasy that I’m building in my head. Their words are louder than Zypher’s demands that I come.

“Oh, Gods,” I moan and tighten my muscles. “Fuck…” I nearly cry out for my mates, and they scream at me in my head to not do it. I cover up my near mistake with whimpers.

“Come, Lilith,” Zypher croons. “Come for me.”

“Fuck, Zypher,” I moan softly. My words are nearly inaudible because moaning his name makes me want to vomit. I keep using the pulling energy from him anyway, and it makes him go harder. I am doing this to myself at this point, but it will weaken him. He’s panting and his muscles are shaking with every thrust. “Oh, dear Gods. I’m gonna come.”

It reaches a peak, and I can’t hold it back. I moan loudly and steal my pleasure back from him by pushing back more and more, forcing him into his orgasm. He groans deeply as he goes off inside of me.

“ Good job, baby. He looks more than exhausted,” Kael says.

“Fuck, woman,” Zypher says as he pulls out of me. “If your mates didn’t want to kill me before, they sure do now.” He chuckles and swats my ass.

“Now it’s time for some more fun,” Morwen says with a sickly sweet grin.

“I’m going to enjoy this part,” Zypher says as he turns me to face him before lifting me up to set me on the edge of the table. “The kings are going to come clean up their queen.”

“W-what? You said…?”

“I know what I said, but watching them eat our come out of you is worth letting them touch you this once,” he says.

“I don’t understand,” I frown.

“Take it as a sign of good faith,” he says. “Lie back.”

“Which one?” Zypher asks Morwen.

“Daemon,” he says without hesitation.

“Great. Daemon, stand up,” Zypher says as he watches me. I love Daemon, and I crave his touch, but this feels like a setup. Daemon stands up and walks closer. My body relaxes having him move closer to me. “You all are going to clean her with your mouth, and you are not to make her come.”

“Zypher,” I say quietly.

“What, Lilith?” he says.

“They’re my mates. None of us are going to be able to stop it,” I say. “Making them do that… it’s going to happen.”

“If they make you come, I’ll make sure it hurts when they fuck you,” Zypher says with a warning in his tone. I avert my eyes from his, not wanting to challenge him. I don’t know if I want to know what that means, but something tells me I do.

“Okay,” I say softly. He points for me to lie back, and I do as I am told.

“ I’m so confused,” I tell Daemon.

“ He’s trying to humiliate us, baby. This is our punishment,” Daemon says. Zypher tells Daemon to begin and he obliges him by stepping closer to me. Zypher moves my legs so that I am opened up to Daemon.

“Shit,” I sigh and try to relax when Daemon grabs my thighs and pulls my ass to the end of the table. Dear Gods, how I have missed his touch.

“You’ll look that relieved at my touch when I become your mate?” Zypher asks.

“It’ll be instinctive,” I say honestly.

“Go on,” Zypher says. “Clean her.”

Daemon digs his fingers into my thighs as he spreads me further for him. I try to stifle a moan when his mouth meets my pussy. Behind it is a wave of panic. “No, no, no,” I whimper. Daemon pulls back.

“I didn’t say stop,” Zypher snaps.

“She’s going to panic if you don’t let him talk to her,” Kael says simply. “Or at least you talk to her.” My mates almost encouraging Zypher to talk to me, has him abandoning staring down Daemon and turning to me.

“What’s your problem?” he asks.

“Nothing. I’m sorry,” I say tearfully. I am shaking uncontrollably while memories of that witch stabbing me flood my mind.

“Gods… Just talk to her,” Zypher says with a sigh.

“Really?” Morwen asks.

“If I want her to agree to stay with me, that means having compassion. Not everyone can be devoid of emotion like you, Brion,” Zypher snaps at him.

“What’s going on?” Daemon asks me softly.

“I can’t get it out of my head,” I whimper.

“Be more specific so he understands, sweetie. What’s going on?” Daemon asks softly.

“That witch. I can’t stop thinking about what he did. It doesn’t matter who’s touching me. It makes me feel like I’m going to get hurt again,” I explain.

“What witch?” Zypher asks.

“One of the witches that was working with you. He hurt me.” I say.

“What is she talking about?” Zypher asks my mates.

“This reaction is coming from a witch who used some kind of fog to paralyze everyone. He came into the tent and ate her out while none of us could move. After, he ended up stabbing her, and she almost died. She was healed, but she got real close. He basically tortured her, and no one could help her,” Daemon says.

“I was hoping you were triggering her,” Zypher says honestly before turning to me. “No one is going to stab you or torture you, Lilith. You’ve not done anything deserving of that right now.”

I nod. “I know. Thank you.”

“Go again,” Zypher says. I’m slightly less panicked when Daemon brings his mouth to my pussy. His tongue dives into me, and I moan softly. Daemon does as he is told and uses his tongue to clean me. His tongue feels like heaven as it slides into my pussy and ass. He can’t help but tease my clit and suck on me.

“Oh Gods,” I gasp. Zypher suddenly turns me on the table and forces Daemon to move with me. My head dangles off the edge, and Morwen steps up and thrusts his dick down my throat. He starts to face-fuck me as Daemon pulls an orgasm to the surface. My groans and whimpers are driving Morwen crazy. I turn that energy against him and suck him down hard. I can feel him weaken, so I suck harder as Daemon pulls a deliciously intense orgasm out of me.

“Kael,” Zypher says as Morwen steps away. Kael comes over and replaces Daemon. Zypher supports my head and pushes down my throat as Kael starts to eat me next. I moan loudly around him, and he thrusts harder. Zypher pinches and twists my nipples, making the orgasms my mates give me more intense. I suck on him as hard as I can and use it to drain his energy. I know that I’m getting punished for having an orgasm, but it’s so fucking worth it. Having my mates touch me is possibly the worst mistake he could’ve made. Reminding me of what they feel like and how they make me fall apart for them will only make me want to fight harder to get free.

I don’t see how he could possibly make them fuck me in a way that would hurt me considering how my body automatically reacts to them. I will play whatever role I need to make him believe that he’s winning, though.

At a certain point, Zypher gets so lost in fucking my throat that he’s not noticing that my mates are intentionally making me come now. Callum is the last to have his mouth on me. Knowing that it may be a long time before I feel their touch again, he absolutely ravages me with his mouth. He alternates between sucking on me hard while also sliding his tongue into my pussy to tease me that way. As my orgasm fades away and Zypher forces me to drink his release, Callum kisses my thigh.

“ We love you, baby girl,” Callum says.

“ I love you guys too,” I tell him.

“We will be back later,” Zypher says. “Remember the rules.”

“I will,” I say. Morwen leaves the room first. “Zypher.”

“Yes?” He stops and looks at me.

“Thank you,” I say.

“You’re welcome, but there are still consequences for coming,” he says simply.

“I understand,” I say.

“Rest. You’ll need it,” he says before walking out.

“ What did he mean when he said he’d make it hurt when we fucked you?” Kael asks.

“ Hell if I know. I have no idea how he could make you guys hurt me.”

“He seems pretty confident,” Daemon says. “ Whatever it is, we will do our best to keep you calm.”

“Just don’t forget that we would never intentionally cause you harm,” Callum says.

“I understand. We can just decide now that if he somehow manages to make you hurt me, it’s just kinky stuff or something,” I say, amused .

“ Yeah, and we will make up for ever we do when we can,” Kael says.

“ He fucked up,” I say. “ Him letting you guys touch me just gave me more of a reason to want to kill him. Reminding me of how wonderful it is to have you three touching me is only giving me the drive to try harder to get a hold of my magia. I’m getting better at turning that energy on him. Tonight, I’m going to try to get into his dreams.”

“Yeah?” Daemon asks.

“ Yeah. It’s going to take time, but I’ll have better luck weakening and manipulating him from his dreams,” I say.

“How does that work? You just go fuck him in his dreams?” Kael asks.

“Basically, I think. I’ve never done it, so I know I’m going to struggle, but it’ll be easier for me if I get him while he’s vulnerable.”

“Can you, like… get him to do things for you? Like… can he hurt somebody?” Callum asks.

“ Yeah, I think so. It’s just like a trance. I’d have to plant the seed and keep feeding it to him so that it seems like his idea. If I come on too strong, he will suspect something,” I explain.

We go silent for long enough that I doze off to sleep. I haven’t been sleeping for more than at most an hour at a time. I’m not sure if the guys are sleeping at all. If they do, I haven’t seen them sleep. When I fall asleep, it’s out of pure exhaustion. In the last three days, I have had no more than maybe four hours of sleep total.

When I’m trying to sleep, it’s the only time I let myself think about my family. I can’t imagine what they are going through right now, especially Dad. My brothers are probably being obnoxious while Leli takes care of… well, everything. She’s good at leading but really shitty at addressing her feelings. That means that she’s going to be the most likely to be able to keep stuff running. The entire country is likely in chaos, so who knows how everything is going on that front.

I am woken when the door comes open, and Daemon’s voice in my head tells me to get up. I look up at the door and see three people come into the room. It is dark now, but I can make out Zypher and Morwen. It’s not until Zypher turns the blinding light on that I see her.

A woman about my size walks in behind them. She looks to be in her mid-fifties. She has blonde hair and pale skin. It takes a second for it to register why she looks so familiar. When it hits me, I get off the table and move away from everyone. Morwen chuckles at my reaction.

“No,” I say, shaking my head.

“ What’s going on? Who is she?” Daemon asks. I ignore him, but my mates keep asking. I put up a mental block so I can’t hear them. I am staring at the woman, but there is no way.

“I know you’ve never met, but let me introduce you to Ashara Deverell,” Morwen says with a mischievous grin.

“No. There’s no way,” I say. Zypher is watching me closely but doesn’t say anything. “You killed her.”

“Did I?” Morwen asks. “She looks alive to me.” Behind everyone, I see a slightly transparent version of my mother in the form that I am familiar with.

“Dad felt her die,” I say quietly. I have now backed myself into a corner. The spirit version of my mother looks disheveled with tears running down her face. Whoever is with Morwen may look like my mom, but I know it’s not.

“You can say I converted her,” Morwen chuckles. The woman walks over to the guys and touches their foreheads, one by one. A flash of blue seeps into their skin, and their eyes begin to glow. As she steps back, my mates stand up. I immediately take my mental block down.

“ What the fuck are you doing? You’re going to get us killed ,” I hiss at my mates.

“It’s not us. We’re not doing this,” Daemon says pleadingly.

My mates are slowly stalking toward me while their eyes still glow brightly. I can see that their arousal is growing as they get closer to me.

“ I swear to the gods, this isn’t us,” Kael says. “I can’t make it stop.”

“Relax. It’s okay. I know you’re not trying to do this,” I say reassuringly .

“ He’s trying to make us hurt you, ” Callum says.

“ You won’t hurt me, ” I say. “ Just trust me. I will play the part they want, but I want to feel my mates using me.”

“I don’t like this,” Daemon says .

“ I’m going to like this ,” I say honestly. “ Please relax. I want this from my mates. You’re not going to hurt me.”

My mates get to me, and Daemon grabs me by the hair, and I yell when he drags me down to the ground. I fight against him as he pins me to the ground. I am on my belly and he is pressing me against the cool concrete floor. When Daemon thrusts his cocks into me, filling me, I scream. While it may sound painful, it’s anything but. He is brutal in the way he takes me. Daemon pulls my arms behind my back and pulls me up to my knees so he can push in deeper.

When Kael kneels down in front of me, Daemon lets go of my arms and pulls me back against him so that my legs wrap around him and rest on his calves. I tighten my legs around him to support myself as Kael grabs my face. I put my hand on his thighs to keep myself upright as he starts to fuck my throat.

My screams are muffled as they both pound into me. I can’t catch my breath as Kael gives me no reprieve from his mercilessness. Their pace is unrelenting and fucking amazing. My orgasms come out as screams and it only benefits the facade that they are assaulting me.

Callum takes Kael’s place and is more vicious than Kael is. They’re in my head talking and praising me while their bodies try to destroy me from the inside out.

Their assault lasts for several hours while they alternate fucking me in every way possible. My body is sore and overused. Despite how amazing it felt in the beginning, they have caused real damage. I am bleeding from the friction of the relentless fucking. Their voices in my head convey their remorse even though they are not in control. They have been repeatedly apologizing since Daemon partially shifted and he dug his claws into my hip. The scream that came out of me scared them mentally but only made them more aggressive physically. I have deep claw marks on my hips and waist, and my scalp and throat are tender. I have bruises wrapping around my throat from the hold they had. While they fucked my throat as though they were wild animals.

I am curled up in the fetal position in the corner of the room. My body is trembling from the pain. My mates are back in their area of the room, and they are audibly sobbing and apologizing on a loop. They are traumatized and spiraling.

“ I’m so sorry,” Daemon cries

“ Baby,” I say softly. “I need you to believe me when I say I don’t blame you. I know you guys didn’t want to hurt me.”

“Please don’t reject us,” Kael pleads . “I promise we will make up for this. We didn’t want to hurt you like that.”

They have fallen into this helpless state, and I can’t help them. They aren’t listening to anything I am saying, but I understand why. All they see is their mate curled up on the floor bleeding because of how hard they fucked her. They can’t see past my injuries. I don’t have a choice but to heal myself. I refuse to let them continue to see me like this so that they can keep blaming themselves. Zypher will see and question things, but their sanity is more important to me at this point. I need them to survive this with me.

I peel myself up from the ground and move closer. They watch me move to the middle of the room and kneel beside the table. They try to get control over their tears when I sit back on my heels and close my eyes.

“ What are you doing ?” Daemon asks.

“ Healing myself. Let me focus ,” I say.

“ He will catch you ,” Kael says.

“ I don’t care ,” I say simply.

I envision myself healing and the pain fading away. The gashes on my sides close up, and the blood stops seeping out of my wounds.

“ You’re glowing yellow, ” Callum says hurriedly. “ Stop, Lilith. He’s going to come in here.”

“Do you trust me?” I ask .

“Of course,” Daemon says .

“Then relax and just trust me,” I say. They stop distracting me and let me focus. I go back to focusing on my injuries and all of the pain. I can feel my wounds healing when the door opens. I glance up when my concentration is broken and see Zypher storm into the room.

“What the fuck are you doing?” he growls at me as he grabs me by the hair and drags me up to my feet. Right away he notices that the gashes are almost healed and the bruising is gone. He shoves me against the wall and wraps his hand around my throat. He doesn’t cut my air off, but he squeezes. “Answer. Me.”

“Healing,” I say calmly.

“How?” he asks. I don’t answer right away as I think of an excuse. He slams my head against the wall again, and I wince in pain. “I swear to the gods, I will whip you again. Answer me.”

“I’m the High Witch. My powers are stronger, so the collar only dampened my magic. I can still heal myself,” I say cautiously.

“Did they know this?” Zypher asks, pointing to my mates.

“No. I only just figured it out when I tried,” I lie. “I’m sorry. They hurt me, and I was in pain.”

“ Lilith. We didn’t…” Kael starts.

“ Hush and trust me,” I say.

“Yeah,” Zypher says. “They did hurt you.”

“I just wanted to feel better. I’m sorry I broke your rules,” I say with feigned remorse.

Zypher pulls a pocketknife from his jeans and flips it open. “Give me your arm,” he says. I do as he says, and he grabs my arm. I wince when he cuts into my arm and steps back. “Heal yourself.”

“I need space,” he says.

“Go ahead,” he says as he backs up more. I resume my position on my knees and sit back on my heels. I close my eyes and focus on my arm and the cut closing. After a while, I open my eyes and look at my arm. The wound is completely healed. I look at the rest of my body and everything else is healed also.

“Is this how you were able to take everything I gave to you?” he asks, motioning for me to stand.

“Yes,” I say.

“Why didn’t you just say I was hurting you?” He asks, tilting my chin up to look at him.

“Because I didn’t want to disappoint you,” I lie. My face is expressing submission, but this moron doesn’t have the slightest clue about what I am doing. His grin is wicked and he is going to take it a step further, just as I hoped he would.

“So you want to be my good girl after all,” he says with the same wicked smile.

“Yes, sir,” I say softly. “I don’t like it when you’re disappointed with me.”

“This is your chance to show me just how much of a good girl you really are, Lilith,” he says before reaching around me and unhooking the collar from my neck. He tosses the collar to the metal table before pulling the knife out again. This time when he takes my arm, he cuts deeper. I cry out in pain, and he steps away from me. “Heal.”

I go through the same practice of going to my knees and sitting back on my heels. I close my eyes and picture the wound healing. Without the collar, it takes just a few seconds to heal myself. I smile up at him proudly, and he chuckles.

“Stand up,” he says. I get up, and he grabs me by the back of the neck, then pulls me against his chest. “I’m going to have fun with you, little girl.”

Zypher shoves me to the table before bending me over. He grabs a tight hold of my hips and buries himself inside my ass with enough force that it causes me to scream out in pain. I could very well have my magic protect me like it did all of those years with him, but it has to be genuine. He has to actually hurt me so that he will then tell me to heal so he can do it again. The more I let him hurt me, the more practice I get.

By the time Zypher gets done raping me, hours have passed. I made sure to never once allow myself to show how repulsed I am by him. Although I was screaming in pain nearly the entire time, I didn’t beg him to stop. I remained calm because I have a plan now. I am done wallowing in self-pity. My mates have their own trauma to deal with right now, so it’s not fair for me to make them deal with mine also. They stayed silent the entire time per my request because I needed to concentrate while I turned as much of that energy back on him as I could. Even though he managed to last just as long as he has in the past, he is utterly exhausted by the time he pulls out of me.

“Heal yourself and go to sleep,” he says with clear exhaustion in his voice. He walks to the door, and I stand up from where I was bent over the table for the last several hours. When he shuts the door behind him, I kneel to heal myself. I bow my head to keep the camera from seeing my smile. I can’t help but be happy. Zypher is a fucking imbecile.

“ Are we allowed to talk to you now?” Daemon asks.

“ Yes. Thank you. I just needed to focus, although I wish I was able to hear your voices at the same time as that bullshit,” I say.

“Why did you do that? He hurt you.”

“What am I missing right now?” I ask. All three men look up at me for a moment before bowing their heads again.

“ He didn’t put the collar back on,” Callum says.

“ Right, so as long as I keep him doing what he just did, I get to practice using that power unrestricted. I have no doubts that they are right outside that door, so trying to escape would be pointless. I don’t want to risk killing myself, so I need to just keep at what I’m doing, ” I explain. “ For the record… You all didn’t hurt me. They did. They made you do that. You are a victim just as much as I am. Now, I’m going to block you all out for a while so I can think. Okay? ”

“Okay, sweetie,” Callum says. “We are here if you need us .

“ I love you guys so much. ”

“ We love you too ,” Kael says happily.