Page 38 of Losing My Siren Luna

He stares at me while I slip them on my feet, then murmurs a low “Good morning,” in return.

I stand awkwardly beside the bed, while Lachlan is sitting on the edge, sliding his feet into his boots without lacing them up. He runs his hands through his hair then down his face, looking exhausted.

“It’s still too early, Alpha. Why don’t you go back to sleep? I think I would like to walk to the kitchen for some tea anyway,” I said, shuffling nervously on my feet.

“Are you not tired?” He watched me warily.

I shake my head. I don’t think I could go back to sleep now even if I was still tired. I felt like I was dreaming of something unpleasant, and then after waking up in his arms, I suspect that is why.

Or maybe not….

I felt surprisingly comfortable in Killian’s arms. It was more the feelings behind whatever dreams I was having that were making me not want to close my eyes again.

Lachlan yawns again, standing up to stretch. “Why don’t you lay back down and just rest before Niomi comes for you. I need to get to training, but I can have a kitchen omega bring you your tea.”

His eyes watching every movement and expression about me made me want to squirm in discomfort. I feel like he is evaluating me, or judging me in some way. He is not as easy to be with as his Lycan, that is for sure.

“Okay,” I end up conceding, getting back in the blankets on the bed after knowing he wouldn’t be staying in it with me.

“Regular tea?” he asks. I nodded. “Sugar or milk with it?”

I shook my head, “Just black.”

Sugar and milk were never things wasted on me before. Uncle made me eat with the omegas and staff, who were rarely allotted such luxuries, and after coming here, it was much the same. After Mimi died, even black tea was a rare thing for me here. When she was alive, I didn’t like her having to fight and argue to acquire things for me that weren’t necessary or allotted to the castle’s staff, so I quickly learned to live without them.

He nods, “Anything to snack on before breakfast?”

I shook my head softly again, not wanting to put him out. I barely ate the food yesterday at our reception, but, again, hunger is nothing new to me. I can wait to join Mimi with the staff for breakfast.

He makes a face, his eyes scowling more than normal as he stares at me, but after a few awkward moments of scrutiny, he lets out a heavy sigh and starts to leave.

“I should be back to join you for breakfast. If I am unable, I will send Cherum to accompany you to the main dining hall. Or would you rather eat here?”

I furrow my brows, “I’m allowed to eat in the dining hall?” Before, I was told to stay out of it. He didn’t want to give the impression that we were in a true marriage or I was anyone’s Luna.

“Yes, Lira. You are allowed to be anywhere you wish, as long as it is in this castle. If you wish to travel outside of it, I just ask you to let myself or Cherum accompany you. You are my Luna. Your authority and control surpasses all others. Even myself.”

I scoff at that last part. I can’t help myself. No one's authority surpasses his.

He sighs again, looking momentarily upset by my reaction.

“I’m not spouting empty words, Lira. You are my wife. You are my mmmmh-,” he took a deep breath, his face looking strained for a split second, “my Luna.”

Wow, was saying those words so hard for him. Does it cause him pain even in this life to try and say I am his Luna?

My negative thoughts towards my husband and mate are interrupted as he approaches me, resting his rough hand on the side of my face, his thumb rubbing soothingly on my cheek.

“Rest. It was a long night for you. I will have someone come shortly to bring your tea.”

A long night? What did he mean by that?

“Maybe he is talking about how you panicked when we kissed yesterday? It was a stressful situation,”Val suggested guiltily.

That must be it.

The sparks tingling on my skin from his touch help me to relax, my bond being comforted, despite my personal feelings towards the one I am bonded to. I rested back on my pillows, trying to reassure Lachlan that I would try to rest after he left.

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