Page 51 of Diamond Desire

Not in hospital. They won’t even let me have shoelaces (idk, Meryl?)

BarbieGirlInASh*ttyWorld

Twins. (aunt arctica)

ReignOrShine

You’re in hospital still? (that was absolutely horrific. I love it)

BarbieGirlInASh*ttyWorld

It would seem so. (you’re welcome)

I’d always been confident and popular, even if it was probably a bit vain of me to say so. Texting, let alone with a stranger, had never been something that bothered me or made me nervous. Yet here I was, practically shaking in my socks as I tried to work out what I should say, how to say it, and everything else under the sun. Even the tiniest peice of humor added to my message was more than enough to make my stomach clench with butterflies and bullshit trying to make me sick.

It was almost pathetic, and I was not being a girl boss right now. I was being… fuck, I was basically as much of a loser as Widow usually was. Ew.

ReignOrShine

What for? I tried to off myself. #JustFunThings. (what type of pasta do penguins eat?)

BarbieGirlInASh*ttyWorld

I’ve never tried that. (Hmm. Tuna mayo?)

ReignOrShine

I don’t recommend it. (close. They like penguine)

BarbieGirlInASh*ttyWorld

I don’t recommend being hit with a hammer a few dozen times either. (that joke made me want to hit myself with a hammer & I hate myself for laughing)

Trauma dumping on a stranger was probably dumb as fuck, but in my defence, Raya said the website was safe. It was all anonymous, and I wasn’t exactly turning around and saying thewhole truth or letting them know specifics. I wasn’tthatstupid. Plus, the shitty penguin jokes had made me snort, so once more it proved that this whole therapy thing worked. I was basically cured. I was great. Nothing was wrong with me at all.

ReignOrShine

I’d ask if you were okay, but it seems pointless. So instead, I will ask you what colour you dislike the most – mine is blue. (careful, if this chat is monitored they might lock you up… though you could get locked up with me. We could start our own ragtag gang… hammerboyz? With a z so they know we’re cool)

BarbieGirlInASh*ttyWorld

Green. Why blue? (what about swapping the A for a 4? Shows we mean real business)

ReignOrShine

Blue is a boy color and I want to pretend to be different ( h4mmerboyz… I like it. Your codename is bro and mine is dude?)

BarbieGirlInASh*ttyWorld

Are you a boy? (Sounds good to me, bro)

ReignOrShine

I’m a man, actually. A real man… as manly as a sixteen year old can be. But we’re not supposed to sharepersonal information like that so if you’re a predator then that was a lie. I’m about ninety and super boring, dude

BarbieGirlInASh*ttyWorld

You don’t have to worry. I don’t like men anymore.