CAPONE
Present Day
Lead us not into temptation. But deliver us from evil.
It’s what we say when we call on The Almighty God to help us because we can’t resist the Devil merely on our own strength. I spent eight years taking catechism classes as a kid and received all my sacraments. I recited that prayer every fucking day. But instead of becoming one with God, I grew to be a man who proudly wears the Devil on his back.
His plan was never to guide me back to him.
God saw my wicked ways and he led me straight to temptation.
He dangled that forbidden fruit right in front of my face.
Stripped me of my strength and made me a weak man.
Took this depraved sinner and robbed me of all my defenses.
Made me fucking helpless.
Anger surges deep within and I feel my hands curl into fists at my side. My gaze darts all around the room in search of something to destroy before landing on the bed. I flex my fingers as memories of her and I, tangled between those sheets, flash before me.
All the death and destruction.
Every crime I committed.
It was all child’s play.
Kissing Tara in that bed was my first true taste of sin, and God laughed.
It was his gotcha moment.