Page 40 of Deceptive Desires (The Syndicate #2)

Roman

I haven’t ever smiled this much in my life. It’s my sunshine, she makes me happy. She brings me so much joy. She brightens my life.

The past few weeks have been perfect. I can tell she feels the same way. She just doesn’t realize they’ve been so great because I’ve carefully cultivated them to be so.

I’m her dream man. Sweet, caring, gentle, kind… It’s not all a farce; I do enjoy being those things around her. She brings them out in me. But it’s not all honest either. I’ve kept many things hidden, including my threatening nature and stone-cold killer instincts.

Hell, even the sex has been soft. We’ve been making love.

Which isn’t bad at all. I love her, and I love making love to her.

It’s just different than the hard and rough way I’ve always fucked.

But I can’t take her that way because I won’t risk scaring her.

She’s so kind and fragile, I can’t tarnish her.

She doesn’t suspect anything. She’s as na?ve as ever.

My sunshine has the awareness of a rock, which despite helping me keep her, concerns me.

I’ve reserved every morning and every afternoon to following her to and from work, even if it’s out of my way.

I just have to make sure she’s safe. She doesn’t suspect a thing, which again, is concerning.

Anyway, she can keep being oblivious and optimistic. I’ll keep her out of harm’s way. She’ll never be hurt again. She’ll never be alone again.

Just as I never will.

We’ll be by each other’s sides for the rest of our lives.

No matter what it takes.