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What? “What must be exhausting?”
“Acting like you don’t want me, when we both know you do,” he says, and steps closer.
“What? I do not want you. I have a boyfriend.” The words tumble out too fast and reveal their absurdity, making him smile.
“A boyfriend that you’re bored with. Admit it, Tess. Not to me, but to yourself. You’re bored with him.” His voice lowers, and slows to a sensual pace. “Has he ever made you feel the way I do?”
“W-What? Of course he has,” I lie.
“No . . . he hasn’t. I can tell that you’ve never been touched . . . really touched.”
His words send a now-familiar burn through my body. “That’s none of your business,” I say and back away, making him take three steps toward me.
“You have no idea how good I can make you feel,” he says, and I gasp. How does he go from yelling at me to this? And why do I like it so much? I have no words. Hardin’s tone and dirty words make me weak, vulnerable, and confused. I have become a rabbit in a fox’s trap.
“Really, you don’t have to admit it. I can tell,” he says, his voice thick with arrogance.
But all I can do is shake my head. His smile grows and I instinctively back against the wall. He takes a step toward me, and I take a deep, hopeful breath. Not again.
“Your pulse has quickened, hasn’t it? Your mouth is dry. You’re thinking about me and have that feeling . . . down there. Don’t you, Theresa?”
Everything he is saying is true and the more he talks to me like this, the more I want him. It’s strange to crave and hate someone at the same time. The attraction I feel is purely physical, which is surprising considering how opposite he is from Noah. I don’t remember ever being attracted to anyone except Noah.
I know that if I don’t say something now, he will win. I don’t want him to have this power over me and win, too.
“You’re wrong,” I mutter.
But he smiles. And even that sends electricity through me.
“I’m never wrong,” he says. “Not about this.”
I step to the side before he fully traps me against the wall. “Why do you keep saying I throw myself at you if you’re the one cornering me now?” I ask, my anger pushing past my lust for this maddening tattooed boy.
“Because you made the first move on me. Don’t get me wrong, I was as surprised as you were.”
“I was drunk and had a long night—as you already know. I was confused because you were being nice to me; well, your version of being nice.” I scoot past him and sit down on the curb so I can get out of his space. Talking to him is so exhausting.
“I’m not that mean to you,” he says, looming over me, but it sounds more like a question than a statement.
“Yeah, you are. You go out of your way to be mean to me. Not just me, but everyone. But it still seems like you are extra hard on me.” I can’t believe I am being this honest with him. I know it’s a matter of minutes before he turns on me.
“That’s just not true. I’m no meaner to you than I am to the rest of the general population.”
I shoot up. I knew I couldn’t have a normal discussion with him. “I don’t know why I keep wasting my time!” I yell. I start walking back toward the main pathway and lawn.
“Hey, I’m sorry. Just come back over here.”
I groan, but my feet react before my brain can catch up, and I end up standing a few feet away from him.
He sits on the curb where I was previously sitting. “Sit,” he demands.
And I do.
“You’re sitting awfully far away,” he says, and I roll my eyes. “You don’t trust me?”
“No, of course I don’t. Why would I?”
His face falls slightly as my words hit him, but he recovers quickly. Why would he care if I trusted him?
“Can we just agree to either stay away from each other, or be friends? I don’t have it in me to keep fighting with you.” I sigh, and he moves a little closer.
He takes a deep breath before he speaks. “I don’t want to stay away from you.”
What? My heart beats out of my chest.
“I mean . . . I don’t think we can stay away from each other, with one of my best friends being your roommate and all. So I suppose we should try to be friends.”
Disappointment bubbles up from nowhere, but this is what I want, right? I can’t keep kissing Hardin and cheating on Noah.
“Okay, so friends?” I say, pushing down this feeling.
“Friends,” he agrees and reaches out his hand for me to shake.
“Not friends with benefits,” I remind him as I shake, only to feel the blood rush to my cheeks.
He chuckles and moves his hand to play with his eyebrow ring. “What makes you say that?”
“Like you don’t know. Steph already told me.”
“What, about me and her?”
“You and her, and you and every other girl.” I try to fake a laugh but it comes out as a cough, so I cough a little more to try to cover.
He raises his eyebrow at me but I ignore him. “Well, me and Steph . . . that was fun.” He smiles as if remembering something and I swallow the bile rising in the back of my throat.
“And yeah, I have girls that I fuck. But why would that concern you, friend?”
He’s so nonchalant about the whole thing, but I’m in shock. Hearing him admit to sleeping with other girls shouldn’t bother me but it does. He isn’t mine: Noah is. Noah is. Noah is, I remind myself.