Page 34 of A Promise of Love

H e had barely spoken ten words to her all day and now he wanted to talk!

Judith rolled over and tried to ignore him, but it was the sound of his voice as much as his words which drew her attention.

It was too deep and alluring, she thought, undoubtedly the result of much practice.

She punched the nearly flat pillow into shape and edged closer to the side of the bed.

It was no use. The MacLeod was too big and the bed too small. Each time she moved, he followed her .

She squeezed shut her eyes, trying to sleep despite the fact he had insisted upon lighting a branch of candles on the bedside table. Finally, in desperation, she turned and glared at him .

"MacLeod, do you never cease? Are you more than human? Do you never sleep ?"

Alisdair drew her up next to him and she sighed again, loudly. Judith would much rather be in another bed, but he had refused to allow her to return to her old room .

"Judith," he coaxed, "were you not paying attention? Here I thought you hung onto my very words ."

"I do not want to talk about it, MacLeod ."

"Alisdair," he corrected softly .

"Very well. Alisdair, I do not want to talk about it." She turned her head away when he would have kissed her. He nuzzled her cheek, instead .

"But, Judith, it is a subject I could warm to, without much encouragement ."

"You seem to be warming to it without any at all, MacLeod." She frowned at him .

He chuckled. "I think they're very nice breasts and your waist curves so sweetly to your hips ."

"Will you cease ?"

It did not escape his attention that her face was flushed. The candles also illuminated her full lips, the sheen of her hair, the budding perfection of her breasts .

She wished he would stop looking at her that way - it made the sheer nightgown seem even more transparent. She should have refused the gift in the first place, but Granmere had labored so long over it that she did not have the heart to do so. Now, she felt exposed, inviting .

He reached out one finger and touched the tip of her breast through the cloth, but she jerked away and pulled up the sheet. It was a futile protection, she thought, against his words .

"Your nipples felt so good in my mouth, Judith," he said, a small smile curving his lips, "but not as good as you felt when I entered you, all hot and soft and liquid ."

She rolled over onto her side, away from him. Would he not simply hush? Her body felt ablaze with embarrassment .

"You seem intent upon reliving the entire experience, MacLeod, word for word !"

"I seem to remember it being a very nice experience, Judith, although you did not enjoy it as much as I," he said softly, leaning towards her and pulling the sheet from her grasp. He turned her over until she was flat on her back .

A hand trailed up one leg, slid beneath the gauzy cotton of her gown .

"MacLeod!" she said, placing her own hand upon his, stopping his gentle exploration, “what are you doing ?"

"Alisdair," he corrected calmly, with a smile .

She could feel each separate finger on her flesh, five places of heat and sensation.

It was like playing with fire itself, the pain of being burned following the sensation of it by long moments.

His hand undulated under hers, a teasing touch, one that let her know he was acquiescent only because he wished it, not because she was strong enough to prevent him .

Yet, he had said he would do whatever she wished. Did she truly wish him to stop ?

Mating with the MacLeod carried overtones with it, buried laughter, a hint of teasing, qualities she wasn’t sure she understood or could even accept in such context. There was more, too, a hint of something stronger, feelings which swelled the heart and expanded the soul .

Did she truly wish him to stop ?

He smiled at her, his lips dusted with light and mischief. He bent slowly, giving her ample time to escape, testing her with resolve and a bit of dare. If she wanted to escape, it was now she should move, now she should protest, now she should refuse .

The touch of his lips was warm, full, soft.

A gentle invitation to proceed down a road she was unfamiliar traveling.

She lay quiescent, waiting, but he did nothing more than lay his lips tenderly there, as if implanting the feel of him upon her.

When he did not move, did not deepen the embrace, she breathed slowly, a small gasp of air escaped her lips, brushed against his.

He opened his mouth as if to receive a treat, inhaling deeply .

Intimacy in a breath .

She shivered .

He drew back, studying her, his eyes the color of molten gold, the expression in them too deep to read. Or, was it simply too uncomfortable? There was restraint there, and something else wild and needy and frightening. But even more fear provoking was the tenderness .

She could not fight his empathy .

Her eyes were as wide as the ocean and as deep, made mysterious by a thin film of tears .

A tear slid from her eye. He traced its path with his tongue, buried his hands and his mouth into the mass of hair at her temple, breathing slowly, fighting back the insensate rage he felt. Not for her. Never for her. But only for the man who had done this her .

She turned her head, found his cheek, pressed a soft kiss upon it. He raised his head and studied her face. Such a gentle gesture of acceptance, such a tender bestowal of permission. He did not discount the meaning of that kiss .

“Ah, Judith." It was the only thing he could say, the rage fading beneath the swelling of more tender emotion .

A long finger reached up and traced the outline of her lips. Would it frighten her to know the extent of his need ?

“You have such beautiful lips." He stopped what she would have said by the simple expedient of placing two fingers atop her mouth. “For kissing, Judith, not for speech ."

He kissed her then, like he had in the cove, a mouth hungry kiss that demanded reciprocity, not surrender.

He led the pace, but he did not force it.

When he lifted himself away from her, her lips were pink, full, their borders looked inflamed.

A tender touch of tongue anointed them, his and hers alike .

Her eyes were open wide, her cheeks flushed, her fists no longer gripped the sheet but instead, his shoulders as if she once again feared drowning .

His hand continued its gentle exploration under her nightgown, as if there’d been no interruption, no long mind-drugging moments of kisses shared and mutually enjoyed .

They watched each other, only inches apart, his eyes lit with mischief, hers with something that looked like fear but tasted only of inexperience. He was prepared to stop the moment she asked him to, she was ready to ask him the moment he stopped .

“I didn’t pleasure you in the cove, Judith," he said softly, his voice like the flutter of a butterfly’s wings on her skin .

Was it possible for her skin to become more flushed? She looked as ripe as a fall apple ready to be plucked from the tree. He grinned at her embarrassment, bent down and nuzzled her neck with his lips .

With a sweep of hand, he divested her of the sheet. In a flash of seconds, he had her nightgown at her waist, her limbs exposed to night air and candlelight .

When she would have brushed his hands aside and covered herself, he kissed her again, his lips as mind numbing as laudanum, as addictive .

One moment he was smiling gently at her, tracing the line of her chin with a teasing finger, the next, he was kissing her belly, anointing those scars which trailed from her back, lacerating the tender flesh of her stomach .

His touch was gentle, almost tender, but stubbornly insistent .

“ MacLeod ."

Her entreaty had no effect. Yet, she remained still and unmoving, bound not by cords, but by the sensations which swept up from each of his touches on her body .

Bold fingers trailed through the curls at the apex of her thighs, combing them, patting, petting .

“Forgive me for being an impatient lover, before,” he said, a parody of apology. The words were nearly obscured by her gasp of shock .

His tongue traced an imaginary line from her thighs to their juncture, and she squirmed in his grasp until his hands gently pushed apart her legs .

"MacLeod!" Her opposition had no effect on him .

“Hush, Judith ."

She lay back against the pillow, her focus on the ceiling above her. Strange darts of fire strummed in her belly when she had seen him tasting her. The tenderest of touches and yet, they had the ability to make her shiver. What power did he have, that he could make her feel such things ?

He opened her legs wider, as if demanding access to the very core of her. It was not fear which made her part her thighs, or even the heat which poured over her skin until she felt molten with it, but a strange, compelling, curiosity .

Resistance faded beneath his touch, her will melted beneath the sensations he was stirring in her.

It seemed as though he had all the time in the world, hours and hours in which to tease and taunt, all the while whispering to her of the sweetness of her taste, the need he felt for the tasting.

His tongue touched her everywhere, short darting strokes that were fast, and then slow, and then fast again, circling, stroking, a parody of soothing.

His touch did not placate, it incited, it stirred.

It raised a fire from ember to conflagration.

He seemed pleased by her reaction, delighting in the soft moan which slipped from her wet lips, defying restraint .

"Alisdair," she mumbled softly, his name an incantation. He ignored her summons, denied anything but the sensation he was experiencing. She opened for him, a flower blooming wetly in the candlelight, her petals swollen and deeply red. Her hips were pinned gently beneath his arms, but he could feel the thrumming rhythm in her trembling, knew that she would arch toward his touch if he gave her enough freedom. He wanted her captive, instead, a prisoner of delicate, repetitive, insistent demand. He wanted her to come apart in his arms, fold into herself, weep her woman’s rain onto his hands and flood his mouth .

He raised himself up and studied her, at the dark blue eyes that were wide and open, their pupils dilated, their color deeper than ever before.

His own needs threatened to swamp his restraint then.

It was almost pain, this urge to be inside her, to see her eyes open as she welcomed him, to feel her shudder and gasp with the sensation of it .

Instead, he returned to his delightful occupation, not ceasing until he heard her unmistakable moans of surrender.

She shuddered, imploding into herself, her climax so powerful that he clutched the mattress with both hands to prevent the sweeping urge to be inside of her, sharing, melting into her warmth.

There would be times for them both, but tonight was hers, only hers .

Only when he’d gained control over himself did he move back to her side. "Goodnight, wife," he said, leaning over her to extinguish the candles. He hesitated for a moment, debated the wisdom of kissing those too full lips, knew then, that he could not trust himself. He wanted her too badly .

A soft sigh was her only response. It sounded, to his eager mind, wistful and nearly as needy as he felt. She roused herself, as if gathering all the pieces of her body back together, turned until her back was to him, extended the sheet over her shoulders .

Alisdair pulled the sheet down, baring her back. Even now, he could feel the tremors which still racked her, sensations he could feel duplicated in his own flesh, a drum beat of insistence which demanded relief .

He kissed her above the deeply scooped neck of the gown., tracing the scars there with his tongue, so faintly and so tenderly that she might have imagined it .

She lay taut until he finished saluting each separate scar with his lips, kissing her, branding her with his painless touch. He covered her again and whispered in the darkness .

"They are a mark of your courage, Judith," he said, his hand smoothing the sheet and venturing up to her hair, which lay heavy and unbraided upon the pillow. "Not a sign of your shame ."

Judith lay awake for a long time .