Page 109 of A Million Times, Yes

“I can’t handle this.”

“Same!” I exhaled. “He’s leaving tomorrow, and he won’t be coming back until our trip—I think. He won’t even confirm those details. I just know he needs to travel to New York. Whether he’s meeting me here or there—whereverthereis—I’m clueless.”

“That man is killing me.”

“You? What about me!”

“The thing is, you know his assistant has planned out every step of this trip and he’s just not telling you because he wants to see or hear your reaction, like when you walked into his condo and it was covered in flowers. He lives for surprises. Meanwhile, we’re sharpening our knives over here so we can threaten his life.”

I giggled. “But you know what, I love that about him.”

“Me too.”

I went quiet for a moment. “Em ...”

“Yeah?”

“I’m ready for it to be your turn. For you to find a Jordan.”

“Girl, you and me both.”

Me:I miss you. How’s NY?

Jordan:Fucking awful without you. Next time, you’re coming with me.

Me:I would love that.

Jordan:Two days until I get to hold you. That feels like a goddamn eternity.

Me:Speaking of that ... what kind of weather will it be outside when you’re holding me?

Jordan:I see what you just did there.

Me:Jordan, I need to know these kinda things. You won’t give me anything ...

Jordan:And I don’t plan to.

Jordan:Good morning, gorgeous. One more night until I’m holding you.

Me:You mean, until I’m strangling you. I say that with love, just so you know. Even though Emily and I have already planned out your death.

Jordan:Lol. Feeling a little spicy over the unknown?

Me:How’s a girl supposed to plan for a trip when she doesn’t know where she’s going?

Jordan:But that’s part of the surprise, Maya.

Me:I have no idea what that means.

Jordan:You will, baby. Soon.

Jordan:I just got in. It’s too late to call, I know you’re already asleep since you’ll be up in a few hours to go for your run. Fuck, I wish your head was on my chest right now and I was smelling your hair. Good night, baby, I love you.

Me:Aww, sweetest message ever to wake up to. I’m sure you’re sleeping, at least I hope you are. I’ll be out of work sometime early this afternoon and then I’ll rush home and attempt to pack? At least cosmetics? And pjs? Sigh. Can you maybe give me a hint at what time you’re picking me up? Or if you’re picking me up? xo

Jordan:Don’t worry ... you’ll know soon.

Me:“Fine” used to top the list but “soon” is becoming my most hated word ever.