Page 66 of A Dove To Break

“You passed out and… Oh dear God in heaven,” Raul says when I slowly lower myself down on his cock. He stretches me wide, and I sigh at the feeling.

“You did nothing wrong, Raul,” I say as I slowly rock my hips. “Jesus, you feel good.”

I start to take him deeper, and he wraps his arms around my body to hug me to his chest. I bury my face in his neck and try to move faster, but I am trembling.

“What is it, pretty girl?” Raul says softly as he pulls me down on his cock and holds me in place. “You thought you could top me?”

“Yes,” I whimper. “Fuck, I love your cock.”

“Then tell me what you want. Be specific,” he says, pulling me back to hold my face.

“It makes me feel crazy,” I say quietly.

“No judgment, baby. I want us to know all your deep, dark fantasies,” he says.

“Us?” I ask. I go to turn, but he grabs my face and doesn’t let me.

“Focus on me,” he says. “You came in here to try and dominate me, but melted immediately. You are searching for something. What is it, love?”

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have…” I say as tears well up in my eyes. I try to pull away again, but he holds me tighter.

“Slow down,” he says. “Something is wrong. What is it?”

“She said she left the guys alone so they could bond,” Fiona says softly from behind us.

“Ah… I see,” Raul says. “Let’s start over, Alania.”

“I’m sorry,” I sniffle.

“You came in here because you wanted to reassure me that I didn’t hurt you, yes?”

“Yeah,” I confirm.

“Okay, so before you came here, you were with them. They started connecting, and you left,” Raul says, and I nod. “You came in here to try to reassure me and wanted to be dominant, but couldn’t.”

“Yes…”

“Say it, Alania. Something is bothering you,” he says.

“I wanted to make sure you still wanted me,” I say quietly. “I feel like I am on the outside of everyone…”

“Oh, Alania,” Raul says with a small smile.

“I just feel like… I don’t know. Like you all would be fine without me,” I say.

“How long have you felt like this?” he asks as he stands us up before turning me to face the others. He walks me forward to the table centered in the room before bending me so that my hands are on the edge.

“I’ve always thought I was replaceable,” I admit.

“You’re triggered,” he says. “What triggered this current feeling?”

“Seeing the way Adrian and Brent connected reminded me that I’m not needed,” I say quietly. “That didn’t do anything wrong, I just…”

“What is it then?” Raul asks, pushing my dress up.

“Everyone would be better off if I weren’t here,” I admit.

My entire body jerks when Raul touches my back, and he sighs. “You think you are in trouble?” Raul asks, and I just nod. “Let’s back up again… Are you upset at Adrian or Brent?”