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Katie swallowed hard as Jenni’s words expressed her own fears. “I don’t want anything to happen to anyone I love. Every time you are out there, I live in terror that you won’t come back. But I can’t expect you to stop doing what you need to do to help this fort survive. And I can’t stop my life because of those fucking zombies out there. ” Irritably, Katie swept a tear off her cheek and sighed.

Jenni finally looked at her and gave her a slight smile. “The old life feels so far away. It did right away, you know. The first day. It just seemed so gone. Like the world was suddenly empty. But it feels fuller now.

Like. . . like. . . it’s coming back to life. ”

Striding over to the bed, Katie hugged Jenni tightly. “It’s because we didn’t stop living. ”

Jenni kissed the growing baby bump and snuggled into Katie’s embrace.

“I know. Hell, I think I kinda went apeshit crazy trying to feel alive those first few months. ”

At the memory of some of Jenni’s more insane shenanigans, Katie had to smile. “Oh, yeah. Definitely. ”

“Fuck zombies. ”

“Fuck ’em. ”

“You’re right, you know. About going on. Hell, look at me and Juan. And you and Travis. And lots of other people around here. The people who stopped trying to live their life are dead now. Like that chick who took a header into the zombies off the crane. ”

Katie nodded solemnly. “Yeah. That was awful. ”

Jenni shook her head. “Seriously fucked up. ”

They lapsed into silence.

“Seriously, what else were we supposed to do?” Katie asked after a few contemplative seconds. “Just freak out all the time, be afraid, mourn the world and just stop trying to live?”

Jenni turned to gaze at her friend, her fingers sliding over Katie’s.

Holding her hand firmly, Jenni said, “We have all done what we had to do to survive. ”

It was hard not to think of Lydia at times like these. Hard not to want to feel her soothing touch and her calming voice. Lydia always had a way of making her feel solid and safe. Much like Travis did now. In her heart, she believed that Lydia was watching over her and was proud of her.

Much to her chagrin, tears fell down her cheeks.

“Oh, Katie, don’t cry!”

“It’s okay! Stupid fuckin’ hormones!” Katie laughed as she wiped her tears away. “I am damn sure I’m doing the right thing. I know it. ”

Jenni smiled and squeezed her hand tighter. “I’ll teach the baby to be loca. And it will do fine kickin’ zombie ass. ”

Kissing Jenni’s cheek firmly, Katie felt her love for her friend fill her completely and totally. It was almost overwhelming. “I know. I know you’ll always be looking out for me and the baby. ”

“You mean Jenni Junior. ”

Katie rolled eyes. “We’ll see. ”

“It’s totally the best name,” Jenni assured Katie.

Despite her tears and her overwhelming emotions, Katie found her composure. “We’ll all be okay. One way or the other. We’re going to take back this world one little bit at a time. ”

“Now you sound like Travis. ”

“I am married to the guy. ”

“And it’s so cute!”

“Don’t start!”