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“That was good, right?” He sounded unsure, making me giggle.

“That was amazing. We can totally do that again. That is if you didn’t mind doing it.”

A huge smile covered his face. “Are you kidding? I could do that to you all day long just to see and feel you come like that. But first—”

He pushed up on his knees and grabbed the condoms, ripping one off. “I really want to be inside you.”

“I want that, too.” I watched with rapt nervousness as he fitted himself with a condom. He looked so big—thick and hard—as his fingers rolled the condom into place.

He must have sensed my concern because he slowly slid his fingers between my legs again and kissed me lightly. “Don’t worry, baby. I’ll fit. And I’ll go nice and slow.”

“I know. I trust you.” He moved his fingers in and out of me until my core was wet and slick. Then he positioned his tip at my entrance and pushed. The pressure was intense, and he barely entered me before I sucked in a breath.

He stopped. When I looked up at him, his eyes were closed tight.

“You okay,” I asked.

“Yeah,” his voice was strained, “it's just so tight. It’s kinda intense.”

He pushed inside me a little more and we both cried out. He pulled out slightly, and that one movement relieved some of the pressure, but then he pushed in again and tears filled my eyes. He stilled and kissed my tears away. “I’m hurting you.”

It wasn’t a question, but rather an acknowledgment of how this felt for me. “It’s okay. I hear the pain only lasts a minute and then it's over. Just keep going.”

I opened my legs wider for him and tried to relax my body. He didn’t move though, so I slid my hands down to his ass and nudged him further inside me. He groaned as he slid all the way inside me, and I stopped breathing. The pressure of him in me was almost too much. At first it felt like I was being ripped apart but then I shivered as a different sensation washed over me. His cock hardened more inside me, stretching me but also hitting a part of me that no one else had ever touched.

He slowly moved in and out of me. It hurt at first, but after a couple movements, the pain subsided and was replaced by pleasure.

“Fuck, Jess. You feel too good. I’m going to come.”

I lifted my hips to meet him thrust for thrust and welcomed his release into my body. I felt the moment his orgasm hit him as he grew and tensed inside me. He stilled and let out a low, sexy growl that made all the pain I felt worth it.

He collapsed on top of me, and I wrapped my arms and legs around him, holding him tight.

He pressed up on his arms and stared into my eyes. “If that’s how you felt when I made you come then we’re going to have so much fun.”

I giggled and he kissed me hard, wiping the smile right off my face. And he was right. We did have a lot of fun. After we rested, we did it again only this time we both came with him buried deep inside me.

Every timeI think of my first time with Matthew, it makes me smile. It doesn’t matter how bad my day has been, it will cheer me up. We may have been young, but we knew our love was real.

Even now, I know our love is real. Unfortunately, that doesn’t change how scared I am for our future. We still have so much to work through before we’re back in a good, safe place with our relationship.

The timing of my trip back to Seattle isn’t the greatest. We had just agreed to date again and see where our relationship would go. Now I have this added stress with my business making me second guess everything. I feel trapped between two different lives that are both fighting for my full attention. The hardest part of all of it is that they’re both important to me.

The beep from my coffee maker drags me out of my thoughts. I really need to get my head together if I hope to survive this board meeting without consequence.

I head to the kitchen and pour myself a cup of coffee. There’s a knock on my door and it makes me jump. I feel silly because I know it’s David. I expected him any minute so we could strategize how to address the board’s concerns so I could head back to Watercress Falls.

I open the door and smile. “Hey, it’s good to see you.”

He pulls me in for a hug and sighs. “You, too. Ready to figure this thing out?”

“I am. I made a full pot of coffee and baked some scones.” I lead the way to the kitchen where I’ve set up my laptop. “So, how bad is it?”

“Bad enough. It’s really just two board members making all the noise, but they’re swaying the minds of several others. We need to assure them that the company is still in good hands, and has the full attention of the president.”

“It's not really about me, specifically, but the attention of the president?” I ask, curious to know if I’m hearing him correctly. I hand him a cup of coffee and plate up a couple of scones.

“I think so, yes.” He takes a sip of his coffee before he continues. “We just have to convince them that you can do the job remotely without issue.”