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I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror. Pathetic. I looked already dead, so doing this wouldn't be hard. It would just be a long sleep. A long sleep. One that I wouldn't wake from.

I looked down at the counter. All of my mother's prescription medications laid out in front of me. Ten full bottles. Enough to get the job done.

I picked up one bottle, hands shaking. I opened it, and stared at the white pills inside. The white looked like heavenly light, but would I even be going to heaven? I couldn't think about it. I couldn't think about anything that would keep me from doing this.

I shook half the bottle into my hand and immediately tipped it back into my mouth. I swallowed it down with a gulp of water, and followed it with the second half of the bottle. The medication was either an opioid or a seizure medication. I honestly didn't care, as long as it got the job done.

I picked up another bottle, and unscrewed the top. Blue capsules this time. Lord knows what they are. This time I dumped the entire bottle in my mouth. Almost choked on the water I used to swallow them down.

"What the fuck are you doing!" Dominic screamed, then ran into the bathroom. How did he get int0 my house? How did he get through my locked bedroom door? Dominic used his arm to knock all of the bottles on the counter onto the floor. "Throw up that shit now, or I'll make you myself." He growled.

"No." I whispered. Was what I swallowed enough to do the job? What's going to happen from here?

"Stop being an idiot, Elaine! You can't die, I won't let that happen." Dominic said as he grabbed me by the throat forcefully.

"Just leave me alone, you freak!" I screamed at him while I try to push him away.

Dominic pushed me up against the wall and pressed his body firmly against mine. I tried to scream, but he covered my mouth with his hand before I got the chance to do so. I'm stuck. Or am I? I noticed that I still had enough room between him and my legs, so I decided to knee him in the crotch.

"Shit!" Dominic yelled, but he did not falter. He still had me firmly pressed against the wall. "I didn't want to have to do this."

Dominic proceeded to force my jaw open with one of his hands, and used his other hand to stick his fingers far down my throat.

My gag reflex kicked in, and I threw up all over him.

Some of the pills were dissolved, and some of them were still whole.

What's going to happen now? What is Dominic going to do to me?

Dominic started to gag, and backed away from me. He then proceeded to throw up all over the floor. Seeing his throw up mixed with my throw up made me throw up even more. It was a complete mess, and I wondered what the scene looked like to him. Did I look like a pathetic mess to him? Probably.

"Damn it, Elaine!" Dominic peeled off his vomit covered shirt and threw it on the ground to cover the mess.

"This is so fucked... holy shit..." Dominic grabbed one of the hand towels in the bathroom and wetted it in the sink.

Before cleaning himself up, he came over to me and cleaned the vomit off of my face.

"Why are you here?" I asked in barely a whisper.

I finally looked into his eyes, and the icy blue bore into my soul.

Dominic looked absolutely wrecked, as if he were hanging on by a thread.

They flashed that golden color, and this time I knew for a fact it was real.

What he said to me was real. He was a werewolf.

Though I haven't seen it with my eyes yet, for some reason at that moment I knew it was real.

I also knew that I was being the most selfish person in the world.

"What are you talking about? You ran and hid from me at school, and after school when I looked for you I couldn't find you anywhere. I was worried sick... and I didn't imagine I would ever find you like this." His voice cracked, and tears streamed down Dominic's face. "What the hell, Elaine?"

I started to cry as well. I almost killed myself, and doing so would have shattered him in the process. It would have shattered Amelia. My parents. I was the most selfish person alive.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry..." I said over and over. Dominic wrapped his arms around me, and held me close to him.

"Elaine, I need you. You can't leave me..." Dominic cried. My heart shattered.

Suddenly, I started feeling really dizzy and drowsy.

"Dominic... I feel really weird..." I said in a slurred panicked voice. My eyes could barely stay open.

"Elaine, don't shut your eyes... stay with me." Dominic shouted.

I tried, but the drowsiness eventually won.