Page 1 of These Old Lies

PART 1

1 Resurrecting Ghosts

London, May 1923 / Ned

Ned looked at his watch and tried to calculate how much of his afternoon he would lose to Hugh’s latest escapade. In principle, this should have been a simple errand before dinner, but life experience had taught Ned that few things were simple when Hugh was involved.

“Remind me again why I am accompanying you to this hat shop?” Ned turned to the blond-haired dreamer beside him in the motor.

Ned had never met another man with such perfect bow lips, skin such a creamy colour of porcelain, or hair such a golden halo of beauty.

“Because I’m going to let you fuck me after dinner,” Hugh responded, completely nonplussed by Ned’s question or the underlying sarcasm.

Ned glanced instinctively up at the driver even though he knew the screen prevented him from overhearing their conversation. There was no point in telling Hugh to be more discreet or explaining the risks of a gross indecency charge. Hugh’s strident refusal to pretend to be something that made society more comfortable was what spurred Ned to buy him a cocktail at Soho nightclub in the first place.

Hugh slid an arm around Ned and stretched out over the sedan seats. “But even without tonight’s entertainment, you really should be thanking me for bringing you along. The shop seems awfully middle class and dull on the outside, but their custom pieces are the most beautiful creations. Like the theatre, but better. All colour and movement, except the hats don’t move at all. I can’t really describe it. They are magic. Remember the hat I wore to theRitz last month? When I walked into that room, I became the centre of the universe.”

Ned couldn’t help but smile at the younger man’s enthusiasm. “Who makes these creations? A team of fairy godmothers working their fingers to the bone for your latest dramatic entrance?”

“I don’t know,” Hugh answered as if he’d never pondered the question before. Interest in others wasn’t his strong suit. “The owner is an impossible stick-in-the-mud, all old-fashioned and formal. I had to practically bribe the shopgirls to show me the custom hats.”

Ned glanced out the window. They had only a few minutes before arriving at the Marylebone address Hugh had given the driver. Time was up on word games. “As a point of reference, how much do you owe?”

Hugh met his eyes without any shame. “The stick-in-the-mud’s son and I’ve a disagreement about the terms of payment for a number of items.”

“Let me at least know the scale.”

“The cretin says I owe fifty pounds, which can’t possibly be right.” Hugh glanced at Ned through his long blond lashes, a manoeuvre that was almost insulting in its flagrancy. “But I was hoping I could rely on you to negotiate a more reasonable settlement.”

Which meant paying the bills. Ned bit his tongue against all sorts of responses. Fifty pounds was less than he’d feared, and it had been a while since he’d provided Hugh with a suitably large “gift.” Hugh’s acting brought in some income, but not enough to cover his lifestyle. He was always clear with his companions about certain costs. It wasn’t as if Ned needed to be concerned about money.

Hugh probably considered it payment in kind for the time he spent in Ned’s bed, although Ned liked to think that Hugh didn’t find him entirely unattractive. In truth, Ned preferred Hugh’s company and the dramatic fantasy that followed him to their physical relationship. Hugh was the sort of person that made every moment one of high levity or dramatic failure. His world was one where a tragedy was unexpected rain and victory was a delicious cake. Hugh provided an intensity of feelings that had been burned out of Ned’s soul during the war, but he could get a taste of it again when Hugh was around.

The motor stopped in front of a shop that was exactly as Hugh had promised—exceedingly boring in every respect. The hats in the window weren’t so much out of fashion as they were lacking any fashion at all, plain and serviceable. As Ned stepped out onto the pavement, he glanced up at the lettered sign above the door: “Villiers and Son, Fine Hats for Ladies of Distinction.”

There was no air to breathe.

It had been six years since he had last seen Corporal Charles Villiers, but that didn’t make reading his last name any less of a knife to the gut. A vivid memory flashed in front of Ned’s eyes. Charlie walking towards him, rifle over his shoulder, covered in mud, a cigarette in hand, grinning about some horribly inappropriate joke. Blue eyes twinkling, bright against his dull, brown-green uniform.

As quickly as it had appeared, the mirage shattered, and Ned found himself standing alone on the pavement, hands trembling.

It wasn’t the first time an innocuous reminder had sent him back to Flanders. He had once spent twenty minutes in a cold sweat after seeing a jacket with the same cut as his trench uniform. This was just another such moment of his treacherous mind resurrecting ghosts on the most spurious of connections. The extra twist of the knife was the sense of loss that crashed over Ned at the memory’s dissipation. A foolish wish thatthis timethe memory had actually stayed with him longer.

There was no point in dwelling on any of that. It was 1923, not 1916, and there were hats to buy. There were hundreds, if not thousands, of Villierses in London; no reason for Ned to think that this shop had any connection tohisCharlie Villiers. Hiding his still trembling hands in his coat, Ned pushed open the wooden door to follow Hugh into the shop.

In contrast to its dull window display, the store was elegant, bright, and surprisingly busy. Hugh had already pushed past three grey-haired ladies to get to the counter.

Ned hung back near the window displays, fighting the temptation to search the shopgirls’ faces for a hint of something familiar—the curl of brown hair, those laughing blue eyes, the freckles on pale skin. When he had first come back to London, he had constantly searched the crowds for Charlie’s face even though there was no guarantee that he would have returned to the city after the war. Yet living with the constant hope of hearingCharlie’s mischievous laughter across a busy street or spotting his curly brown hair from the window of a motor was the devil’s bargain that Ned had struck.

“Edmund!”

Hugh beckoned to him from the counter, snapping Ned out of his daydreaming. “Come and see!”

Ned moved through the other customers to join Hugh at the counter, where a partially constructed hat had been placed in front of him. It was, quite simply, magnificent. A take on a Panama hat, but somehow crisper and leaner. The colour was vibrant without being garish. Ned knew instantly that it would bring out the small flecks of gold in Hugh’s eyes. It was unmistakably a man’s hat, and yet there was this chimeric, feminine quality to it as well. Ned was enchanted.

So much so he failed to notice the shadow that fell across the counter. Someone cleared their throat. “Lieutenant Pinsent, what an unexpected pleasure to have you in our shop.”

Jesus fucking Christ. That low-timbre, working-class burr echoed in his bones.