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RECONSTRUCTION

ETHAN

T he text message lit up my darkened bedroom at 1:15 AM, yanking me from restless sleep into instant alertness.

Leo

I need help. Not just with practical things. With everything.

Leo's words glowed on the screen, simple but devastating in their nakedness. No qualifications. No careful boundaries. Just raw vulnerability from a man who'd spent a decade building walls to keep the world at bay.

My heart hammered against my ribs as I read it again. After the confrontation with Townsend earlier, after witnessing Leo's carefully controlled demeanor in that hostile meeting room, this unfiltered cry for help felt like watching someone's armor finally crack after an impossible siege.

I sat up, fully awake now, weighing my response with care. This wasn't just any late-night text. This was Leo deliberately lowering his defenses, reaching out when everything I knew about him screamed how difficult that must have been.

Too much enthusiasm might overwhelm him, send him retreating back behind his walls. Too little might feel like rejection when he'd risked everything to ask. The timing created its own complications—middle of the night, sleeping children, the practicalities of physical presence versus emotional support.

I typed, deleted, and retyped my response three times before settling on:

Ethan

I'm here. Do you want me to come over now, or wait until morning? Either way, I'm with you. Just tell me what you need.

His reply came almost immediately, suggesting he'd been staring at his phone, perhaps already regretting his vulnerability:

Leo

Morning would be better. Just knowing you're willing to help... it matters. Thank you.

We established a time and I promised to bring coffee and breakfast. The conversation shifted to practical matters: Mari's college deposit, the ongoing custody review, Townsend's apparent alliance with Miguel. Planning gave Leo something concrete to focus on, a way back to familiar territory after stepping into the unknown with his initial message.

Our final exchange lingered in my mind as I tried unsuccessfully to fall back asleep:

Ethan

Are you safe tonight?

Leo

Not going to do anything stupid, if that's what you're asking. Just tired of pretending I can do it all alone.

I stared at the ceiling until dawn, planning what resources I could bring, what support I could offer, how to be worthy of the trust he'd placed in me.

* * *

The early morning sun painted East Riverton in deceptively gentle light as I navigated the familiar route to Leo's apartment. In my passenger seat sat a cardboard tray with two coffees, a bag of still warm pastries from the bakery, and a folder containing financial documents, legal resources, and contact information I'd spent the pre dawn hours assembling.

Leo opened the door before I could knock, looking like he hadn't slept at all. The careful composure he typically maintained had abandoned him entirely: hair disheveled, eyes shadowed, shoulders carrying the visible weight of too many burdens for too long.

“The kids are still asleep,” he said quietly, stepping back to let me in. “Thank you for coming.”

“Always,” I replied, the simple word carrying more weight than I'd intended.

We settled at the small kitchen table, coffee and pastries between us like offerings to ward off the heaviness of what needed to be discussed. Leo's fingers wrapped around his mug, seeking warmth or perhaps just something solid to hold onto.

“I should explain about last night,” he began, eyes fixed on his coffee.

“You don't need to.”

“I do.” He looked up then, the raw honesty in his expression stealing my breath. “For ten years, I've handled everything alone because it felt safer. Depending on others meant risking disappointment, and my siblings couldn't afford for me to be wrong about who to trust.”

I nodded, giving him space to continue.

“Yesterday broke me,” he admitted. “Townsend's ambush. Miguel's call. Mari's college deposit deadline. It was too much at once, and I just... shattered. In front of the kids.”

“That's not breaking,” I said gently. “That's being human.”

His mouth twisted in a humorless smile. “Semantics when you're responsible for three lives.”

I opened the folder I'd brought, pulling out the documents inside. “Let's start with the practical stuff. For Mari's deposit, I can front the money until your scholarship funds come through. No arguments,” I added when he started to protest. “It's not charity, it's a temporary loan.”

For the next hour, we methodically worked through immediate concerns.

Gradually, as solutions began taking shape, I saw some of the tension ease from Leo's shoulders. Not completely, the weight he carried had become part of his physical being after so many years, but enough that he could take a full breath again.

“You're good at this,” he observed, gesturing to the organized plans we'd created. “The strategic thinking.”

“I've had practice navigating complex systems,” I acknowledged. “Just different ones than you.”

“Publishing industry politics?”

“And academic hierarchies. Family expectations. Depression.” The last word slipped out without planning, but I didn't try to take it back.

Leo's gaze sharpened. “Depression?”

I nodded, offering my own vulnerability in exchange for his. “For years. Even when I was outwardly successful, especially then. Empty achievements without meaning.”

“Is that why you came back to Riverton?”

The question cut straight to the heart of something I'd been avoiding naming directly, even to myself. I traced a finger along the grain of his wooden table, gathering courage.

“Partly,” I admitted. “I came back because nothing I accomplished meant anything anymore. But also because...” I hesitated, then committed to honesty. “Because there were unresolved questions about us. About how things ended.”

His eyes met mine, something unreadable flickering in their depths. “That was a lifetime ago.”

“And yet here we are.”

Leo's hand moved to his wrist, tracing the semicolon tattoo I'd noticed for a while now but never asked about. “I got this three years ago,” he said, changing the subject but somehow not. “After a night when continuing seemed impossible but stopping wasn't an option.”

The casual reference to suicidal thoughts hit me like a physical blow. “Leo...”

“I didn't do anything,” he clarified quickly. “Just thought about it. Hard. But I kept seeing Sophie's face, imagining her asking where I was, why I never came home.” His voice cracked slightly. “So I got this instead. A reminder that the story wasn't over, even when it felt like it should be.”

“A semicolon,” I said softly. “Where the author could have ended the sentence but chose not to.”

He nodded. “But lately I've been thinking maybe it means something else too. Not just continuing exactly as before, but...revising. Changing the approach. Accepting that walls built for protection might actually be making things worse.”

The vulnerability in his admission created an opening I hadn't expected, an invitation to deeper honesty. “When I came back to Riverton, I told myself it was about finding purpose again. About reconnecting with why writing mattered to me. But it was always about you too.”

His eyes lifted to mine, wariness and something like fragile hope battling in his expression.

“Not in some nostalgic way,” I continued. “Not trying to recapture what we had back then. But needing to understand how someone could leave such a mark that a decade couldn't erase it.”

The apartment was quiet except for our breathing and the distant sounds of the neighborhood coming to life outside. Sunlight crept across the table between us, illuminating the plans we'd made, the coffee cups we'd emptied, the space we'd begun to bridge.

“I can't offer promises,” Leo said finally. “The kids still come first. Always.”

“I would never ask otherwise.”

“But I need...” He paused, searching for words. “I need to stop pretending I can do everything alone. And when I think about who I trust enough to let in, it's you. It's always been you.”

The words settled between us, neither a declaration of love nor a casual statement, but something honest and real that acknowledged both our complicated past and uncertain future. Before I could respond, a door opened down the hallway, followed by Sophie's sleepy voice.

“Leo? Is someone here? I smell coffee.”

The moment shifted, but didn't break. Leo's eyes held mine for one more second, communicating something without words, before he turned toward his sister.

“Ethan brought breakfast,” he called. “And we need to talk about some things as a family.”

Within fifteen minutes, all three siblings had gathered around the table, Sophie still in pajamas, Diego bleary eyed but alert, Mari watching everyone with careful attention.

I sat slightly apart, included but not central, as Leo began explaining the situation with a directness that surprised me.

“We're facing some challenges right now,” he said, not sugarcoating but not catastrophizing either. “Mari's college deposit is due this week. The custody review is continuing. Dad's been making noise about his rights. And I haven't been handling it well.”

The simple admission, acknowledging his limitations to his siblings, clearly wasn't something Leo had done often. Their faces registered varying degrees of surprise before Mari spoke.

“We know, Leo. We were there last night, remember?”

A ghost of a smile touched his lips. “Yeah. Not my finest moment.”

“It was about time,” Diego muttered, shocking me with his bluntness. “You've been acting like some kind of superhero for years. It's exhausting just watching you.”

Instead of defending himself, Leo nodded. “You're right. And it's not sustainable. Which is why we need to talk about changes.”

What followed was the most honest family discussion I'd ever witnessed. Leo explained the financial constraints around Mari's college deposit, the ongoing custody threats, and the need for adjusted expectations, not with false reassurance but with genuine transparency appropriate to their ages.

What struck me most was how the siblings responded. Not with panic or disappointment, but with immediate problem solving.

“I could defer enrollment for a year,” Mari offered. “Work full time, save money, and transfer next fall.”

“I could drop baseball,” Diego suggested. “It's expensive and takes up a lot of time.”

“I could sell my drawings at the bookstore,” Sophie added earnestly. “Eleanor said they were good enough.”

Leo's face softened with pride and something like wonder. “I appreciate all of those offers. But Mari, you're going to Northwestern on schedule. Diego, you're keeping baseball. And Sophie, while I'd love to see your art in the bookstore, it's not your job to support this family.”

“Then what's the plan?” Mari asked.

Leo glanced at me, then back to his siblings. “For starters, accepting help when it's offered from people we trust. Ethan's offered a loan for the deposit until your scholarship funds come through.”

Diego's eyebrows shot up. “Just like that? Why?”

The question hung in the air between us, demanding honesty but loaded with potential complications. Leo answered with remarkable steadiness.

“Because sometimes people help each other without expecting anything in return. Because community means supporting one another through hard times. And because Ethan and I have a history of caring about each other's wellbeing.”

The simple truth, neither exaggerating our connection nor diminishing it, seemed to satisfy Diego. Mari, however, was watching us both with far too much perception in her dark eyes.

“And Ethan's going to keep helping with the Townsend situation?” she asked, the question carrying layers beneath its surface.

“If that's okay with all of you,” I said, speaking directly to the siblings. “I care about what happens to your family.”

Sophie’s directness, cut to the heart of it. “Do you care about Leo specially, or all of us the same?”

I felt heat rise in my face, but forced myself to meet her gaze. “I care about all of you. But yes, I care about Leo specially. We've known each other a long time.”

She nodded, apparently satisfied. “That's good. He needs somebody to care about him specially. He's always taking care of us.”

The simple observation, delivered without artifice, landed like a stone in still water, ripples spreading outward. Leo cleared his throat, clearly uncomfortable with being discussed in the third person.

“The point is, we're going to handle things differently going forward. More honestly with each other. More willing to accept help when we need it. And more as a team instead of me trying to carry everything alone.”

As the discussion continued into specific plans and schedules, I watched the Reyes family with something close to awe. They'd been carrying impossible burdens for years, yet somehow maintained this core of resilience, this ability to face hard truths together and keep moving forward.

And now, perhaps for the first time, they weren't facing it completely alone.

* * *

The district legal offices occupied the third floor of a gray municipal building, all fluorescent lighting and identical doors labeled with unmemorable names and titles. Leo and I arrived together but maintained professional distance in the sterile hallway, allies but not explicitly announcing anything beyond that.

The meeting had been scheduled to review custody procedures and address concerns about the accelerated timeline. Damien Holloway, the district legal counsel who'd intervened during the school confrontation, had agreed to meet with us to discuss appropriate protocols for the continuing review.

“Ready?” I asked quietly as we approached his office.

Leo nodded, his expression composed once more, though I could see the cost of that composure in the tightness around his eyes. “As I'll ever be.”

The office beyond the door surprised me with unexpected personality: plants thriving on the windowsill, walls lined with legal texts interspersed with novels, a desk organized but not rigidly so. Damien rose to greet us, gesturing toward chairs arranged for conversation rather than interrogation.

“Mr. Reyes, Mr. Webb. Thank you for coming.” His professional tone carried an undercurrent of genuine concern. “I've reviewed the documentation you submitted regarding the custody arrangement and the recent accelerated review notices.”

Leo sat with perfect posture, the folder of materials we'd prepared together held in steady hands. “We appreciate your time, Mr. Holloway. Our primary concern is ensuring appropriate procedures are followed, particularly given School Board Member Townsend's unusual involvement.”

For the next thirty minutes, we presented our case methodically: documenting the family's stability despite resource limitations, highlighting the siblings' academic and social development, questioning the procedural basis for an accelerated review outside normal annual assessment timelines.

Damien took notes, occasionally asking clarifying questions that revealed both legal thoroughness and genuine interest in the family's welfare. The meeting was proceeding exactly as we'd planned when the door opened without warning.

Townsend stood in the doorway, his surprise at finding us there quickly masked by forced affability. “Damien, I didn't realize you had a meeting. I was hoping to catch you regarding the Reyes custody situation.”

The casual mention of Leo's family, as if it were just another administrative matter rather than three children's lives and futures, made something hot and dangerous flare in my chest. I felt Leo tense beside me but remain outwardly calm.

“Mr. Townsend,” Damien said, his tone cooling noticeably. “We're in the middle of a scheduled meeting regarding procedural questions about custody assessment protocols.”

“Excellent,” he said, inviting himself in and taking a seat. “That's precisely why I stopped by. I've received concerning reports about the Reyes household that may be relevant to your review.”

Leo's hand tightened on the folder, knuckles whitening, but his voice remained steady. “What specific concerns, Mr. Townsend? And from what verified sources?”

The direct question clearly caught Townsend off guard. He'd expected defensive justification, not calm inquiry. “Well, for one, Miguel has shared concerning observations about unsupervised periods and limited resources.”

“Miguel Reyes surrendered custody voluntarily after multiple CPS interventions,” I interjected, unable to remain silent. “He's currently in violation of the supervised visitation agreement by approaching the children while intoxicated.”

Damien's eyebrows rose. “Is there documentation of these violations?”

Leo calmly extracted a paper from his folder. “Police report from Tuesday evening. Officer Miller responded to a disturbance call when Miguel appeared at our apartment building intoxicated, making threats and demands to see the children.”

Townsend's expression soured. “Single incidents don't invalidate a father's concern for his children being raised in a non traditional household by a barely adult brother.”

“Mr. Reyes has been the legal guardian for ten years,” Damien pointed out. “The children's educational records, which I've reviewed, show consistent attendance, appropriate academic progress, and regular engagement with teachers and counselors. Ms. Reyes has been accepted to Northwestern University on scholarship. These are not indicators of a concerning home environment.”

“There are questions of resource adequacy,” Townsend persisted. “The apartment is barely sufficient for four people. Mr. Reyes works multiple jobs, leaving the children without proper supervision.”

Leo remained remarkably composed, though I could see the cost of that control in the tension through his shoulders. “The inspection report, which you'll find on page twelve of the materials I provided, confirms our housing meets all legal requirements. Regarding supervision, Mari is twenty years old and a legal adult. When both of us are working, appropriate childcare is arranged for the younger children.”

The systematic dismantling of Townsend's arguments continued for another twenty minutes. Each concern raised was met with documented evidence refuting the implication, each insinuation answered with factual correction. The coordinated approach, Leo addressing specific family details while I provided educational context and Damien highlighted relevant legal standards, created a comprehensive defense impossible for Townsend to penetrate.

When he finally recognized his efforts were failing, Townsend retreated to procedural territory. “I merely wanted to ensure all relevant information was considered in the review process. The board has a responsibility to ensure children's welfare in our district.”

“The board also has a responsibility to follow established protocols and avoid conflicts of interest,” Damien replied, his tone professional but leaving no room for argument. “Given the questions raised about your involvement in this case, I'll be recommending the review return to standard annual assessment procedures rather than continuing on an accelerated track.”

Townsend's jaw tightened, but he maintained his composed facade. “Of course. Standard procedures. I trust you'll still give appropriate consideration to the father's expressed interest in reconnection.”

“All legally submitted requests will be considered according to established protocols,” Damien confirmed, effectively dismissing him without directly doing so.

After Townsend left, the atmosphere in the room lightened considerably. Damien reviewed next steps with us, confirming the accelerated review would be suspended pending standard annual assessment, and providing clear documentation of the procedural requirements should anyone attempt to circumvent them in the future.

As we left the building, Leo exhaled slowly, some of the rigid control leaving his body. “We couldn't have done this alone.”

The simple acknowledgment, coming from someone who had insisted on doing everything alone for a decade, felt monumental. “You don't have to,” I replied, equally simple.

The afternoon sun cast long shadows across the municipal plaza as we walked toward my car. Not touching, not explicitly acknowledging the undercurrents between us, but somehow more connected than if we had been.

“I've been thinking,” Leo said after a comfortable silence. “Would you want to walk by the old railroad bridge tonight? After the kids are asleep.”

The invitation carried weight beyond its simple words. The bridge had been our place once, neutral territory where two boys from opposite sides of Riverton had found common ground. Where we'd first held hands, first kissed, first imagined futures neither of us would actually live.

“I'd like that,” I said, my heart beating a little too fast for the casual response I aimed for.

His small smile told me he heard everything I wasn't saying.

* * *

Stars punctured the darkness overhead, the lights of Riverton reflecting in the river below. Leo walked beside me, close enough that our shoulders occasionally brushed, each brief contact sending electricity through me like I was still seventeen and discovering feelings for the first time.

“Thank you,” Leo said after a comfortable silence. “For today. For everything since you've been back, really.”

“You don't need to thank me.”

“I do.” He turned slightly to face me, moonlight catching in his dark eyes. “My whole life has been about survival for so long that I forgot what it felt like to have someone actually see me. Not just what I do for everyone else, but...me.”

The raw honesty in his voice caught at something deep in my chest. “I've always seen you, Leo. Even when I was trying to forget you.”

He looked back toward the river, profile sharp against the night sky. “I thought I was protecting the kids by handling everything alone. Building walls to keep out anything that might threaten what little stability we had.” His finger traced the semicolon on his wrist, the gesture I now recognized as his unconscious self soothing mechanism. “But walls keep things out that might actually help too.”

“It wasn't wrong,” I said gently. “What you did kept them safe, together, loved. That matters more than anything.”

“But it's not sustainable. I see that now.” He exhaled slowly. “I can't be everything to everyone all the time. I'll break again, probably worse next time.”

“So you accept help. You build a support system. You let people care about you too, not just them.”

“People?” he asked, a hint of something like amusement coloring his voice. “Or you specifically?”

The direct question caught me off guard. Leo had always been the cautious one, the one maintaining careful boundaries, the one keeping conversation in safe territory. This new directness, born from his breaking point and tentative reconstruction, still surprised me.

“Both,” I admitted. “But yes, me specifically. If that's what you want.”

Leo's hand moved slowly, deliberately, until it covered mine where it rested on the concrete between us. The touch was gentle but purposeful, his semicolon tattoo visible against my skin.

“I don't know exactly what I want yet,” he said honestly. “Everything's still raw from falling apart. But I know I'm tired of pretending you don't matter to me. Of acting like there isn't still something here, after all this time. We're writing something different than before,”

“But it's still our story,” I finished.

We sat together in comfortable silence, watching the lights of Riverton reflect on the dark water below. Leo's hand remained on mine, solid and warm and real. Not a promise of forever, not a resolution to every complication, but a beginning.