Page 57 of Taming the Bear

My head spins and my brain begins to vibrate in my head. “What are you talking about?”

“You are allowed to feel jealous when other girls are rubbing themselves all over him. It’s normal. You let him into your body and your heart. There’s nothing wrong with that.”

My frustration level has hit a whole new platform and I’m getting worried all over again. Jealousy means that I care and by caring, well that means that he’s going to get to know me. I’m not an interesting person. I’m a hacker prodigy that managed to make what I’m good at a career. I’m nothing special at all. He’s all motor oil and leather. How do I fit in with that?

I throw myself onto the bed again and wrap my arm around my head. “Jen, but… He’s a biker. How do I fit into the whole situation without making a fool out of myself?”

Jen takes a deep breath and then says: “You fit in because you are staying in his room. Come out to the bar with me tonight. We need to have a good time.”

I look down at my skanky outfit in an attempt to look cool with Joe’s friends. Well, I guess I look dressed to go.

“All right. Meet me in an hour at Mr. J’s.”

“Deal. Look hot.”

With my phone still in my hand, I tap out a message to Joe. I don’t want him thinking that I’m running away from him even though we haven’t exactly had the beginning of a good conversation.

ME: I’m going to the bar with Jen

JOE: i would rather you stay here

ME: why? What’s going on?

JOE: fuck. Stay in the room for a few minutes and I will be there in a min

ME: fine.

During the time that I wait for him, I go through all of my notes regarding Smokey and this Q. Who the fuck is Q and why is he talking to Smokey about this drop and how to beat him?

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Date: october 24th, 2016

From: smokey

To: q

Why didn’t it work? Bear is back! What the fuck happened that didn’t work?

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Date: october 24th, 2016

From: Q

To: Smokey

Dude, i don’t know what happened but he smelled like smoke when he came in.

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Date: october 25th, 2016

From: smokey

To: q

If you want a place on the board, we need to get him dead. Big Sir said that we can start cashing in on his payroll and we need to do this.