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Joe

A iden seemed a little more twitchy at breakfast. He kept shifting in his chair and looking around the room. Hell, his ass was probably bothering him from the pounding it took, but I’d done my best to be gentle with him. It didn’t mean that it wouldn’t take a while to get used to. The first time I’d ever had a dick up my ass, I walked funny for a week. The guy hadn’t been as careful, and I was a lot younger and a lot more stupid.

I’d jumped into exploring my sexuality in my early teens, ready to get a taste of everything there was to offer. It didn’t matter if the person was a guy, girl, gay, bi, trans. I wanted it all. One thing that stayed consistent was that I favored those who came across as being more innocent. And Aiden checked all those boxes until we got here. Not that it was a turnoff now. It was hot as hell how he went after exactly what he wanted.

“Sweetheart?”

Aiden’s head jerked up from where he was over-analyzing a piece of mango on his plate. The food had all been amazing since we’d been here, but he seemed more uncertain of things today.

“Sorry, were you trying to get my attention? ”

A grin stretched across my face as I leaned back in my seat, forgetting about the rest of my food. “Nah, just wondering what’s going through your head this morning.”

Aiden set his fork down, finally done prodding at the piece of fruit. “I don’t know. Last night... doesn’t feel real. Which sounds dumb to say because my ass tells a very different story. And then I started wondering if people can tell. Like, do I look different now? Is there a big sign on my head that says: ‘ Aiden Grant: No longer a virgin? ’”

It sounded ridiculous, but I understood where the kid was coming from. He’d spent his whole fucking life not experiencing any of that.

“Aww, does my little one want to test out his new whore wings, see if he can fly?” The joke fell flat. The idea of Aiden testing things out with anyone besides me sat like a lead weight in my stomach. No, no. He was all mine and with the way he blushed at my question, maybe he was feeling the same way.

“I don’t...” he sighed heavily, finally spearing the slice of mango and biting into it. It took him a few moments to chew and then swallow it, and I waited for him to finish because I wanted to know what he was going to say. “That’s something I still don’t understand, I think. You’re fun. I trust you. I’ve never felt the desire to explore any of that with anyone else before. ”

I leaned forward, resting my elbows on the table and steepling my fingers in front of me. “Aiden? Have you heard the term ‘demisexual?’”

He nodded, picking at another random piece of fruit on his plate. “Yes. I asked Chase about some things. That’s weird too, right? Who asks their brother’s boyfriend questions like that?”

I reached across the table, pulling the fork from Aiden’s hand and wrapping my fingers around his. “It’s not weird. Sometimes we don’t know who to talk to about things. He probably felt like the safest option at the time. I’m glad he pointed you in the right direction.”

That blush spread across Aiden’s face more as he pulled his hand from my grasp. He shifted in his seat so that he was looking across the room and away from me. “Yeah, well, he’s also the one who told me to look up porn on the internet to see if I could figure out what I was into and that’s how I found your videos.”

Well. Fuck. Guess I owed a thank you to Chase. Then again, doing that would expose what I’d been doing to everyone.

It was weird that I was hiding it. I knew that. The person who was so open about his sexuality was afraid to say that he let people pay to watch him get off on the internet. Maybe it was because there was still so much stigma attached to sex work. It was all bullshit. If this trip was any indication, I made damn good money.

“You don’t have to be embarrassed about that. ”

He nodded. “But I knew about it for weeks. We hung out, and it was this awkward secret hanging over my head. How the hell do you tell someone that?”

I snorted a laugh. “I mean, you figured it out.”

Aiden finally smiled. “I guess I did, didn’t I?”

Things felt less tense after that. We finished our breakfast before heading out to the beach for a bit. It wasn’t overly hot, but plenty of sunbathers were lining the shore. I stripped off my t-shirt with little thought, throwing it onto the two beach towels we’d placed side by side on the sand. When I looked up, Aiden was staring at me, that blush painting his cheeks again.

Oh, it was going to be fun messing with his head now. You’d think it wouldn’t affect him as much now that we’d done the nasty, but fuck, he was too sweet. And maybe that’s what still drew me to him.

Aiden took off his own shirt before sitting on the towels and wrapping his arms around his knees. He looked out over the water before turning to look at me. “Did you bring sunscreen with you? I forgot to grab it on the way out of the room this morning.”

I reached into the small bag we’d brought with us and pulled out a tube, flipping it into the air for show. “And risk skin cancer? Fuck no, my dude. I got you.” I sat behind him and popped open the cap, pouring a small amount into my hands before rubbing it into his back and shoulders.

“God, that feels good. ”

I chuckled. “Yeah, that so, sweetheart?”

He shifted in the sand. “Uh, yeah. And if you keep it up, the whole beach is about to know just how good it feels.”

Well, fuck. My dick twitched, knowing that I was making him hard just by rubbing lotion into his skin. For a guy who hadn’t ever had a sexual drive, I’d sure woken him the fuck up. Not that I was complaining. Aiden was fun. I was a safe person for him to explore things with, and I didn’t want to betray that.

Once I was done applying the sunscreen to Aiden, I handed the bottle over his shoulder. “Why don’t you calm down a bit and get me now?”

He laughed. “You think putting my hands on you is going to help the situation at all?”

He had a point, but I still needed someone to do it. “Probably not.”

I stood from my spot behind Aiden and moved around to plop in front of him. He sighed heavily as the bottle snapped open and the cool lotion came in contact with my skin. Goosebumps pebbled as he rubbed it in. And maybe he was right. There was a little too much tension between us to be doing any of this in public.

“So, what’s the plan for the rest of the day? The beach is nice, but I’m not the type to just lay here and sunbathe. ”

I snorted at Aiden’s question and turned to face him after he finished spreading the sunscreen on my shoulders. “You mean you don’t want to get rid of your pasty Seattle complexion?”

He rolled his eyes before he shoved at me, which was a mistake because I tackled him back into the sand, planting a kiss against his lips.

When Aiden’s fingers threaded into my hair, I knew I needed to slow this all down. Resisting him was impossible. It was like asking a starving man not to eat.

We pulled apart, and Aiden’s eyes were wide, pupils blown with lust. I couldn’t make out the brown of his irises and as much as I wanted to keep going, to take him apart right there on the beach, I wasn’t about to be thrown in jail in fucking Mexico.

“Sweetheart?” Fuck, my voice was shaky. I’d had no one reduce me to being so damn needy before.

Aiden cleared his throat, pushing at my chest and rolling from beneath me. He tucked his knees into his chest and stared out at the waves. “That—that didn’t help. I’ve never had a fucking boner like this in public before. Jesus, Joe.”

I smiled, my face sore with the stretch. Where Aiden was embarrassed, I had no shame. I was with one of the sexiest guys alive, and I didn’t care if people knew he turned me the fuck on. When I flopped back onto the towels, Aiden stared wide-eyed at the tent in my shorts.

“You’re not going to cover that up? ”

I snorted a laugh. “Fuck, no. Why?”

Aiden looked around the beach. No one seemed to pay any attention to us. He slowly unfolded his legs and lay next to me, but on his side, not daring to be as bold as I was.