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CHAPTER 13

Diesel

She sits up. “I should go. I need to check on Eizlee and let you get some sleep. Did Silo leave?”

“I checked on her before coming in here. Silo is camped out on the couch. And I’d like you to stay. Even if it’s just to sleep together.”

“Diesel, I—I’m really attracted to you. But I know I’m a terrible catch. One screw up after another. Look at the mess I’m in right now.

“I can’t seem to make a relationship work. I can’t hold a job. Like I told you, my whole life: rinse and repeat. But contrary to what it seems, I’m not some booty call. I want something real.”

“I understand more than you think, Willow.

“I’ve been attracted to you since I saw you at the bus stop. I wanted you right then and there. But I need you to want me, for me. Not for Eizlee Jane.

“Nobody wanted the boy who grew up poor in basically a whore house drug emporium. Parents kept me away from their kids at school, teachers overlooked me as a looser. I’ve been chased because of dance moves, wanted for my body, a sex toy to play and pay. I can act all those roles, Willow. But none of them are me.

“I found my true self in the army. I’m a mechanic, the guy who likes to fix things that you can fly or drive. The soldier who saw too much battle and lost true friends. A teammate and friend to my squad. The friend to a friend who’s got your back and helps you move for the hundredth time.

“I’m learning to be a father, and I want to be a husband. I want something real.”

“But I’m a screw u?—”

I press a finger to her lips. “A beautiful caring person who sees the good in everyone. Willow, it’s not your fault that you were used. That’s all on the assholes who took advantage of you. There’s nothing wrong with NOT seeing evil. The pure of heart never do. While you were trying to watch out for others, you just never had anyone who had your back. I will.

“I don’t want sex, Willow. I want a connection. You are the first woman in more years than I care to admit that made me even want to try.

“But I need it to be for me. Not the baby you love. So, lets just hold each other tonight and see where tomorrow takes us.”

She nods. “I need to use the bathroom.”

“I don’t know what you’ve been sleeping in. But there’s one of my T-Shirts and pajama pants on the counter.”

When she comes back dressed in my clothes, I’m standing by the bed waiting in just lounge pants. “Is it okay if I don’t wear a shirt? I’m a little hot blooded.”

She smiles. “Good, because I’m always cold.”

I hold out a hand. “Come on. I know you want to check on her. We’ll go together.”

Willow straightens Eizlee’s blanket. I smooth her hair. Back in my room I double check the baby monitor that’s just like the one that I have installed in Willow’s room.

I let her climb in first then take the other side of the bed. After a couple moments she asks. “Can we snuggle like we were before when I woke up?”

Rolling to my side I burrow her back to my front. I agree. This feels right. Soon she’s asleep and I’m feeling more content than I ever have. Vicky, if you’re watching over me. Let this be real.

I’m lost in a beautiful dream when a moan wakes me. Lying still, I take in my surroundings. I’m cuddled up against Willow’s back, my leg is between hers and seated against her sex, my arm is over her waist and my thumb is stroking her nipple. My cock is a pole pressed against her ass.

“Diesel, if you just woke up you damn well better finish what you’ve started.”

“You were in my dream.”

“Well, I’m wide awake now and you have me aching.”

I kiss her shoulder. “Yes, ma’am. I aim to please.”

“I want you, Diesel.”

She wants me. She didn’t say needs. She said wants.

Kissing her shoulder, I whisper, “I want you, Willow. Your sweetness.” I kiss the hollow of her neck. “Your kindness.” I kiss behind her ear. “Your loving.”

Rolling her to her back I ease over her, spreading her legs with mine followed by my hips as I kiss a trail down her luscious body. Plumping her full breasts with my palms, I suckle one hard nipple then the other. “My sweet, sweet Willow, I want all of you.”

She’s so warm, her skin so soft, her moans and gasps as I lick and taste my way over her body are so honest and responsive. “Beautiful. So fucking beautiful.”

I glance up, hoping she can see my expression in the moonlight. “Mine.”

She clasps my face as I shift lower. “I trust you, Diesel. But I haven’t been tested since he cut me. There would have been an exchange of blood from the knife wounds on Sara. She was reckless and into drugs. I don’t want to risk you. Do you have a condom?”

“Yes. It’s been a couple years for me since I’ve been with someone. When I was an escort, I went on PrEP as soon as it came out. The team still tests regularly every nine months due to some of our exposure. I was negative at my initial testing a couple weeks ago. I’ll grab a condom, and we’ll get you tested tomorrow. I’d like a doctor to check your wounds anyway.”

When I return from the bathroom she’s sitting up in bed. Seeing her bare shoulders, I assume she naked under the sheets. My anticipation, my desire is stronger than it’s ever been.

Stopping beside the bed I put the condom box I found in the medicine chest on the bedside table and push off my sleep pants.

Looking up I meet her gaze. Tossing the sheet aside she kneels up, exposing all her beauty. She brushes her palm down the side of my face, “I see you Diesel, for who you are. Make love with me.”

“Yes love. Always love.”

She wraps her hand around my cock and works it up and down a few strokes then leans forward to take me in her mouth. I stop her.

“Not until I can give the same to you, babe. This isn’t going to be a one and done. I want more. I want it all with you. I’ll give you time to see it my way, but I will convince you.”

“Pretty sure of yourself, big boy.”

“Sure of what I want with you.”

Grabbing a condom, she leans forward and kisses my tip before rolling the protection on my shaft. Shifting to the side, she takes my hand and gives me a tug. “Lay down. I get the top this time.”

Once I’m settled, she straddles me, centering my rod right where she wants it. She slides over me, bathing me in her juices. “Oh damn, babe. That feels so good. Lean forward, I want your nipple in my mouth.” One hand braced against my shoulder, she uses the other to feed me her nipple. She feels so good, tastes so sweet. My stamina is taking a hit. I don’t know how long I can hold on.

She lifts to her knees. “Help me. Guide yourself in.”

I line up my cock to her entrance and she slowly lowers her hips. Once I’m an inch in with my hands cupping her hips, I close my eyes and just feel. Her heat envelopes me like a soft winter blanket. Holding me close, taking me in, taking me home as she slides down. Never. Never has it felt this good. This right. This is where I belong.

This is love.

She cups my face, kisses my forehead, the tip of my nose and takes my lips with hers. Then she starts to ride me.

“So good. You feel so good, D. Never like this. Never before. Oh my god. I’m going to come.”

“Take me, babe. Take us together.” Arching my hips I meet her thrust for thrust until we both explode.

Instead of shouting her name, I growl, “Home.”